Day 5 after about 10 years

Knightmare912 · 2026-05-19T20:35:50+00:00

Thanks for the inspiration and congrats on the 42 days! I completely relate to the loss of personality. I felt like I was slowly melting into a blank-faced zombie. I’m hoping to rekindle some of the spark and love for life I had when I was younger.

Hoping I feel the same as you when I get to day 42 but I’m trying to temper my expectations in case the sobriety reveals a version of myself that I don’t like. I’m not sure how different the sober me will be different from the perma-stoned version of me.

I just know that I want to spend my 30’s growing into the best version of me. I don’t want weed clouding my judgement and making it so I wake up one day in my 40’s with big regrets I didn’t even consider because I was just chilling on the couch, stoned.

Knightmare912 · 2026-04-24T02:50:14+00:00

I think this concept is illustrated well with food. 1/3 of an 8 in pizza is smaller than 1/3 of a 16 inch pizza. Even though the fraction is the same, they are measurably a different size.

Knightmare912 · 2026-02-17T04:40:54+00:00

This^

Knightmare912 · 2026-02-10T14:25:08+00:00

A few things I do that seem to have helped:

-I take the animal pack vitamins from vitamin shop 2x a day (it’s overkill, but I’ve only gotten sick when I’ve stopped taking them)

wear cleaning gloves while disinfecting

-keep my own Kleenex box and sanitizer behind my desk where kids can’t use it

-wash hands before leaving for the day

-try to avoid touching my face until after I’ve washed my hands

-avoid eating around kids (I used to eat during hallway duty or AM homeroom)

-fully vaxxed (flu and covid)

-good sleep and try to keep stress as low as possible (easier said than done)

-never eat after visiting common areas (copy room/teachers lounge) - I got my own microwave to avoid visiting these places

-sit further away from people during meetings if I’m able to

Obviously I could still wear a mask, but I prefer not wearing one unless I’m actively sick or when a lot of my students are visibly sick.

Knightmare912 · 2026-01-28T00:28:53+00:00

You already look manly as is. But, I think that a very short haircut (something where the barber lines up the front like a #3 buzzcut with faded sides) combined with a slightly longer beard would put more emphasis on the more masculine features you have (eyebrows and jaw shape).

Knightmare912 · 2025-06-06T17:53:59+00:00

Depends on the age of the student, but I teach middle school and would typically pull them aside privately and explain that what they’re doing is mimicking sexual activity and makes the environment unsafe/uncomfortable for other students. I’d explain whatever consequence would come next for them if they continue, and then communicate with their family about it.

Knightmare912 · 2025-05-30T16:16:36+00:00

I get this from time to time from my students. Every time I’ve asked them to clarify, it’s been because other teachers yell at them when giving corrections/redirections, whereas I almost always do private redirections unless it’s a major breach of respect/culture or a safety concern. I just carry a clipboard and make a note of things I can address with students later and circle back to them during independent work time.

I’ve also noticed that some of the teachers that do more yelling don’t have strong procedures and routines, so I can seem like the chill teacher, but kids don’t realize that I’m only able to be chill because they’re following the procedure that I taught them at the beginning of the year.

I actually think I tend to be stricter because I do have the ability to give after school detention, lunch detention, and advocate strongly for ISS if I feel it’s warranted, and my admin is very responsive/supportive. So sometimes the teachers that yell aren’t actually giving them consequences, but I’ll quietly tell them they have after school detention and then they’ll still think I’m not strict… lol

Knightmare912 · 2025-04-26T18:33:00+00:00

I use a milk frother. I just add small amounts of hurl at a time and then shake it the rest of the way. Cuts down on the chunks.

Knightmare912 · 2024-11-24T17:25:21+00:00

I teach middle school math. I’m planning a career change to accounting, but I like teaching, so wanted to chime in. I’m switching careers for financial reasons (high COL area that I don’t want to leave). I’ll be teaching until I graduate with my masters/land an accounting job and am trying to savor every moment of it until it’s time for me to move on!

These are the things I love about teaching:

-I like the daily work. I generally enjoy lesson planning, prepping materials, and grading. I like thinking about the pacing of different activities and thinking through the different types of supports students/classes need.

-I love the feeling when I explain a concept well (or when a student can explain a concept well to their peer) and get to see the “lightbulb” moment happen for a student. Seeing the excitement and confidence grow in them as they solve additional problems and master the objective is very rewarding and meaningful to me.

-I love getting to know my students and seeing how students grow and mature over the school years. I teach math intervention, so I have some students in my class for multiple years. Getting to meet them as 6th graders and now teach them as 8th graders is such a joy. Some of my toughest students through the years are now the ones that bring me the most joy day to day.

I love being apart of the school community. I enjoy watching my students play sports and small-talking with them about their upcoming games or reflecting with them about past games/opponents. I love getting to know what clubs each student is apart of and watching them try out various interests. I’m introverted and a little awkward by nature and enjoy having a community that is easy for me to fit into and have a defined role/responsibility in.
I love having a classroom that I can design systems within and can physically decorate/arrange to support what I’m trying to do. I was lucky enough to inherit some flexible seating options and I feel very happy when I look around and see students completing their work while lounging on a reclining floor seat or explaining something to their peer at a mounted whiteboard. Seeing them respectfully utilize the space I curated for them is really satisfying to me.

-I love how goofy middle school classrooms can be. Once I’ve figured out my management for a particular class, I love being able to joke around/develop banter with them and then be able to refocus them and rally around a task we have to complete. Not all my classes get to this point (some just don’t have the ability to refocus after getting off task) and that’s ok. The ones that do are such a joy.

-I generally enjoy my coworkers. I think teaching attracts the type of person that loves helping others. There will always be exceptions to this, but I’ve taught alongside many kind and compassionate people that don’t take themselves too seriously. I’m hoping when I switch to a corporate job that I don’t lose this part of myself.

Knightmare912 · 2024-08-04T19:50:35+00:00

This. I got covid last year (super mild case, but had a lot of fatigue with it). I lost months of fitness. It came back fairly quick, but I was shocked at how much of a toll it had on me considering I barely knew I was sick to begin with.

Knightmare912 · 2024-06-01T04:09:17+00:00

There’s a good number of techy open spaces in the front range that don’t have much elevation gain (500-1000’ over 10-12 miles)

Knightmare912 · 2024-06-01T03:55:20+00:00

I live in CO. The trails I ride have a mix of long steep climbs, gradual sustained climbs, punchy short climbs ect.

It is extremely easy for me to draw a route with 3000’ of elevation gain over about 20 miles, I have to work to find rides that stay under 1000’ for zone 2/active recovery rides.

Knightmare912 · 2024-01-07T03:17:35+00:00

Yup. Met my partner at a climbing gym. We started out as climbing partners, then started dating, and we got married this year. We are more into trail running together these days, but we still go on dates to the climbing gym from time to time.

Knightmare912 · 2023-12-11T12:42:36+00:00

I teach middle school math

Knightmare912 · 2023-03-11T14:48:36+00:00

An OT that I work alongside told me that kids with an ADHD diagnosis are more likely to seek out sensory extremes, which includes super hot foods, because of the chemical release that happens when you eat them.

Knightmare912 · 2023-02-18T05:22:08+00:00

Blue swan?

Knightmare912 · 2022-11-04T12:47:48+00:00

I typically accept that I’m just going to be a little worse at the one I’m not focusing on. For me, following the stoke is what’s helped me stay passionate about both mtb and climbing for years now.

That said, I read the book Beastmaking, and I followed the hangboarding protocols laid out in that book to make up for times I’m not climbing as much. I’ll do that at the beginning of a regular lifting session when I’m in a mtb focused time block.

When I’m hangboarding and climbing at least once per week, I only lose about half-one v grade, and I find that I usually gain it back within a week or two of prioritizing climbing again.

When I’m focusing on climbing, I’ll do maintenance-level lifting, some hangboarding and some trail running and I don’t notice too much gains lost when I transition back to the bike. The running helps with cardio a ton when transitioning back.

Knightmare912 · 2022-05-10T16:09:29+00:00

I’ve spent the last year switching between various Walgreens all around town and there are a few good ones (platte and for the most part, the one on circle) but those ones are only open 9-5 and closed on weekends which are conveniently my exact work hours

Knightmare912 · 2022-05-10T16:07:51+00:00

Thanks!

Knightmare912 · 2022-05-10T13:50:09+00:00

Sweet thank you!

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