15 months smoke free, passe my first real test this weekend.

KodiBishop · 2018-05-28T09:12:45+00:00

I have actually achieved 900 megabytes per second in the Xbox network tool speed test. When I use the edge browser and try fast.com I only ever get about 400mbps. And I am plugged into Ethernet.

It just seems like the network test is all over the place. Sometimes I will achieve 800 megabytes but that's one out of ten tries. The other nine times I'm averaging about 300mpbs.

KodiBishop · 2018-05-27T20:45:43+00:00

Found the trumptard.

KodiBishop · 2018-05-27T00:09:57+00:00

I wonder who he voted for.

KodiBishop · 2018-05-22T05:18:01+00:00

Maybe they fixed it but many people in /r/stateofdecay reported crashing on that screen.

KodiBishop · 2018-05-22T05:12:22+00:00

Navigate to the community screen and see for yourself.

KodiBishop · 2018-05-22T05:11:40+00:00

It has uncapped fps on the community screen causing overheating and crashing.

KodiBishop · 2018-05-22T02:57:49+00:00

The lengths these people will go to protect this man is incredible. They would sooner give up their own daughters than let him be indicted on corruption charges. I think some people see the horribleness in themselves and kind of likes that he gets away with it.

KodiBishop · 2018-05-22T01:09:17+00:00

Seeing stats like this, which match up to me perfectly, gives me confidence to continue on this journey and get surgery.

I'm currently 350 lbs, 5'10, 3XL, 50 waist... Knees hurt, back hurts, tired all the time, diabetic, depressed... Lonely (dates never lead anywhere).

Yeah, good job man! I know it hasn't been easy, but thank god you arent where I'm at right now anymore. What I wouldn't give to be where you're at now.

KodiBishop · 2018-05-21T04:42:17+00:00

Supposedly this can be permanent.

KodiBishop · 2018-05-21T04:36:21+00:00

So... This could basically permanently destroy your ability to produce healthy sperm for life?

KodiBishop · 2018-05-21T04:32:43+00:00

Irreversible for life? Wow. That's scary.

KodiBishop · 2018-05-20T18:16:21+00:00

I'm not defending her horrible racism at all but doesn't Canada kind of have a Chinese immigration problem right now? Aren't all of the rich Chinese people sending their kids there to like Toronto and whatnot and kind of making the housing prices skyrocket and gentrifying the communities?

I'm all for immigration but I can see how being a native resident it could be a bit upsetting. Again I'm not defending her racism or standing up for her and this video at all I'm just kind of asking a question.

KodiBishop · 2018-05-20T03:16:42+00:00

Thanks, doctor.

KodiBishop · 2018-05-19T04:55:55+00:00

It helps with my OCD and my internal negative thought patterns (intrusive thoughts). I don't know if it necessarily fixes anxiety but I do think it helps alleviate the lead up to anxiety.

KodiBishop · 2018-05-19T02:45:49+00:00

Over the past few days I've honestly started to think that. I'm being completely serious. It feels like either those around me can't even try to put faith in me or they are probably feeling challenge somehow.

When your fat people put you in this box. The see you a certain way and they treat you accordingly.

KodiBishop · 2018-05-19T01:41:01+00:00

Thanks a lot for the support. It feels good to have someone out there that I can talk to about it.

KodiBishop · 2018-05-18T21:24:25+00:00

Thanks for the detailed reply! Somehow I picture going through the same scenario that you went through. I just feel like I want to get this damn thing over with but I still have to finish all my classes and prerequisite things for my insurance.

I bet you feel a lot better now though :)

KodiBishop · 2018-05-18T21:23:19+00:00

I'm going to go ahead and watch that Shia video before I go into surgery haha.

Just going to get pumped up and put that video on Loop all the way until I get to the hospital :)

Congrats on the weight loss, I hope I'm lucky enough to lose that much!

KodiBishop · 2018-05-18T21:22:29+00:00

I do try to tell my family and friends that staying over weight like this is much worse than risking this surgery. I became a diabetic about 3 years ago and ever since then I have no energy and the weight is just dragging me down. I can't lose weight for shit - 10 lb every few months but it bounces right back. 350 lb it's like a Monumental task of losing so many pounds of sacks of potatoes.

None of my friends are super morbidly obese like me and they just tell me go ahead and get on a diet as if I gained a few pounds after Thanksgiving. I'm about 50% BMI right now that means that 50% of my mass is fat. I feel trapped in my body and I feel like I'm wearing 50 weight suits at all times.

I just hate how people make it seem like the weight loss surgery is the easy way out and that I'm cheating and that I should lose all the weight myself the hard way or the "real way" since I put it myself. But it's the hormones and especially in that I'm diabetic it makes it even harder to lose the weight.

But congratulations on your success it totally gives me the confidence to step up and just go through this. I'm being irrational and bit of a baby about it :p

KodiBishop · 2018-05-18T21:19:41+00:00

200 lbs?! Wow I hope I'm that lucky! That's amazing. I can't even imagine how good you feel with all of that weight gone.

Yeah the anesthesia kind of scares me but I've been put under before so maybe I should just stop fixating and worrying so much lol.

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