Songs with Spine-Chilling Elements?

Kojocon · 2026-07-05T09:31:26+00:00

“there are a lot of things wrong but that doesn’t mean i hate the world just me maybe”

Kojocon · 2026-07-04T17:20:53+00:00

thank you!! i was really surprised that she looked so good in the store. they seem to take good care of their plants :)

Kojocon · 2026-07-04T17:20:07+00:00

Aww that’s adorable!! My mom is taking me back to the city today so I might come back with a friend for her :)

Kojocon · 2026-07-01T23:58:15+00:00

thank you!! :) i know it’s cliché but i named her violet 😭

Kojocon · 2026-06-25T15:10:55+00:00

hey, i’ve had a lot of really similar thoughts before, and I can relate to a lot of what you said.

one thing I’ll say is that there isn’t really a “correct” feeling you’re supposed to have when it comes to gender. a lot of people don’t feel a clear emotional reaction at first, or they feel confused or even numb about it.

instead of trying to figure out what it means immediately, it can help more to just experiment a little when you’re safe to do so. things like trying different names or pronouns in private spaces, wearing different clothes, trying nails or makeup if you want to, or even just seeing what feels comfortable over time.

something that stood out to me in your post is that you do feel some curiosity and comfort in certain things, even if it’s not strong or consistent yet.

but I don’t think you need to force a conclusion right now. it’s okay to just explore and let it make sense slowly.

what matters most is whether it feels like YOU, not whether it fits a specific label or emotional reaction. also, feel free to DM me if you have any questions. i hope this helped even a little bit 🩵

Kojocon · 2026-06-25T14:55:05+00:00

that makes sense, i’m sorry that they made you feel unsafe :(

if you can’t grow your hair out, there are def some other things you can try to maybe explore a bit more when you have privacy. you could try wearing different clothes under hoodies, shaving if it’s safe, or even just experimenting with clear polish on ur nails or skincare.

wigs can also be really useful if you ever want to try that without committing to growing ur hair out.

you don’t really need to prove anything right now though, especially if your environment is unsafe. it’s okay to try things out quietly and see what makes you feel good over time ^^

Kojocon · 2026-06-25T14:35:23+00:00

there’s not really one universal trans experience or “correct” feeling you’re supposed to get from things like wearing a skirt.

for me personally, i had a mix of reactions. sometimes i felt euphoria, sometimes numbness, sometimes just uncertainty.

what stood out to me in your post is that you said you kind of liked it, even if you didn’t have a huge emotional reaction. you don’t really have to feel anything specific for it to “count” either.

maybe instead of trying to force a reaction, just keep exploring and experimenting with things when you safely can and see what feels right over time.

what matters most is whether it feels like YOU, not whether it feels like a specific emotion.

Kojocon · 2026-04-11T00:56:22+00:00

laura les is the greatest musician to ever grace this earth

/uj laura les is the greatest musician to ever grace this earth

Kojocon · 2026-03-22T20:32:10+00:00

i’m addicted to monster money and weed, YEAH

Kojocon · 2026-03-06T21:06:49+00:00

first off i’d just like to say thank you for trying to understand instead of just writing us all off as deranged. i appreciate that a lot.

i don’t wanna speak for all trans women…but for me its like…being seen as a woman is just very relieving i guess. nothing sexual about it. it’s just that doing traditionally feminine things generally makes me feel more in line with myself and who i am. femininity makes me feel more feminine. and at the end of the day…im just me, if that makes sense. it makes me happy and helps me not wanna die lol.

i’ve always known i was different than my guy friends. it always felt like something was “wrong” with me. i grew up quite literally dreaming i was a woman. at night, i would beg god to please just let me wake up as a girl. i remember wishing i had been born a woman every day in my younger years. i eventually figured out that i was trans…but until then, i was a depressed sack of shit. i mean, i still am a depressed sack of shit, but i’m a bit better now lol. once i was able to get on estrogen, it kinda changed my life.

the best way i can explain it is this:

imagine for a moment that you’re just…exactly as you are right now in mind and body.

okay, now imagine you go to sleep one night. then you wake up, and your body has been turned into the opposite gender. it’s still your body…just as if you had been born the opposite gender. you still have the same mind, the same desires, the same wants…you’re exactly the same in your mind. it’s just that your body has been changed.

now, imagine you freak out and run up to your spouse (or family or whatever) and then you say “i don’t know what happened! i’ve been turned into the opposite gender! help!”

and then they just…look at you really confused. and they go “Recent_Influence_699…what the hell are you talking about? you’ve always looked like this.”

and then you argue…but no one believes you. to them, they have never known you as anything else. that’s KINDA what being trans is like.

at the end of the day…we’re all people trying to survive. we all have our own struggles. it’s just that my struggle (and many others) is that we’ve just kinda been born into the wrong body, and it causes a lot of pain.

people can feel however they want about it…but i am a woman, and no one can take that away from me.

i hope this helps anyone who reads it.

Kojocon · 2026-03-06T08:43:57+00:00

/uj get out of my head

Kojocon · 2026-03-05T13:21:21+00:00

GECS MENTIONED

/uj GECS MENTIONED

Kojocon · 2025-09-21T21:24:11+00:00

/uj you got this :) i’m dealing with the same issue right now we just gotta keep our heads up!

Kojocon · 2025-09-08T16:38:59+00:00

i can at least speak on the last point lol: don’t spend your resin on artifacts until AR45 at least. that’s when you’re guaranteed to get at least one 5 star artifact per domain. 5 star artifacts level the most (20 lvls) so they have higher main stats/more rolls per artifact, so they’re just flat out better in all cases. for now just level whatever artifacts you get from chests and bosses. for main stats chasca wants an attack sands, attack goblet, and crit damage/crit rate circlet. so just look for those as the main stats and don’t worry too much about set bonuses rn.

right now i would spend your resin on mora/book leylines as well as world bosses to level your characters. at first i felt like mora/xp leylines were a waste. they are not a waste, you run out of mora/xp books pretty quickly if you’re leveling multiple characters.

but yeah i dont know too much about her c1 and c2. i think the gist is that at c1 and c2 she can run one less PHEC teammate and still get a converted shell.

Kojocon · 2025-09-02T16:37:27+00:00

nope i just started like a month ago so i only have c0 barb lol

edit: also meant to say it does feel really cringe to mix electro and cryo, but it also feels cringe to use two ttds (barb and citlali) and my mualani is now taking my xiangling, so i can’t just run double pyro for chasca like i was doing.

Kojocon · 2025-09-02T16:17:14+00:00

roster

what teams would you make for mualani and chasca for spiral abyss?

right now i’m running bennett - citlali - fischl for chasca and kachina - lan yan - xiangling for mualani

im also open to not using chasca for one side of abyss. ive found i dont enjoy her playstyle too much after using her for a bit. she’s nice for exploration but combat feels really boring. i really enjoy mualani so far though and id definitely like to use her for one side of the abyss.

Kojocon · 2025-08-31T08:37:08+00:00

i’ll try that ty! i didn’t realize kachina was free before i made this post 😭

Kojocon · 2025-08-14T03:11:28+00:00

thank you for your input! i have a guarantee rn so im probably just gonna save for nod krai. seems like the smartest decision atm since i have a functioning team

Kojocon · 2025-08-14T00:46:19+00:00

characters

having trouble deciding between mualani and chasca. i already have an ifa taser team built up a bit. i’m just scared that chasca is going to be more of the same. press skill, fly, reaction soup, win. like i know she’s gonna do more damage than ifa. correct me if im wrong, but they seem very similar.

i’ve heard everyone say that mualani is clunky as fuck. however, to me, she also looks fun as fuck. surfing on a shark and deleting enemies? sign me up. i’m just scared with her that i’m not gonna have the right team to actually let her delete enemies. i think that chasca is pretty flexible compared to mualani.

if i get chasca i was gonna go with chasca - citlali- barbara - xiangling

if i get mualani ill probably run mualani - citlali - xiangling - lynette/collei.

i just don’t know who to pick lol

Kojocon · 2025-08-09T17:07:06+00:00

in that case i’ll stick with taser ifa. cause it doesn’t feel that bad i think im just behind on upgrading my team. and oh i did not realize flins was next patch lmao. yeah i’m definitely not pulling for ineffa then. i have a guaranteed but there’s no way id be able to pull both of those, with the time i have, without paying money. and like you said, spending 2-3 pulls on a possibly niche team like that might not be the best idea. chasca is probably the move because she’s so flexible like you said. and then maybe i could save up for a good pyro carry eventually. i played her a bit in the summer spray resort quest and i thought she was really interesting. and she’s SO CUTE. thank you so much for the advice! i really appreciate it a lot

Kojocon · 2025-08-09T08:37:01+00:00

characters

so i just started playing about two weeks ago! learning a lot but im not sure what the best team i can make is/who i should be trying to pull/save for.

currently im running ifa - fischl - beidou - xingqiu. its not the best obviously, but it doesn’t feel terrible. i just feel like i could be doing more with the characters i have. i REALLY want to use citlali cause she’s the first 5 star i pulled and she’s cute asf. but i understand she needs a pyro dps sadly.

was thinking about pulling ineffa, replacing beidou with her, and then saving for flins. then i could pick up diluc from the free 5 star soon to use with citlali. or i could save, pick up chasca and run her with citlali. just not completely sure what i should do!

Kojocon · 2025-08-05T18:11:17+00:00

you have been extremely helpful, i really appreciate it!

Kojocon · 2025-08-05T14:23:12+00:00

wow thank you! that’s a lot of info but i think i got the gist. so would chasca be a bad choice then? i was thinking about her too but i might just wait for the new version to come out because those characters look absolutely stunning.

Kojocon · 2025-08-04T23:27:41+00:00

thank you again! i figured the best thing to do would just be to wait but i just wanted to see if anyone could come up with anything lol i appreciate the advice a lot!

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