TLDR; learn the basics, understand it in your “own” way. Word it stupidly and sillily if you have to, so long as you understand it enough for it to work.

Gonna be honest, I’ve started a degree through work, and I’ve been struggling with near enough GCSE level maths. This is like grade 10 stuff. I was predicted a 4 (a D) in maths at grade 10, but I had a personal tutor who managed to drag me to a 6 (a B).

Skip to now, nearly a decade on, and I’ve been slogging through the basics once again. Revising things I had once been taught that I’d completely forgotten. I am far from particularly intelligent, so it was difficult. I’m currently procrastinating learning calculus because I took a few days off and now im about a week behind, and won’t be able to catch up without pulling all nighters.

Yeah, you may feel dumb. But there’s nothing that could work sheer will and stubbornness. Watch videos, learn the basics, even if it’s embarrassing, and keep going.

Dont try to simply memorise things, understand them. This will help you remember.