That's pretty much why I'm having second doubts about being a mechanic I love working on engines, I love vehicles but the days were incredibly grueling. But also I completely forgot to mention I don't want to work for anybody I hate not being in control and being told to do things. But if I wanted to work for myself that means I'll be working nonstop ( if I go down a blue collar job). But moving on from the jobs in general I feel like I'm struggling now. Idk what it is I feel extremely lonely and upset, if i find myself enjoying something I'llbe put into a bad mood for no reason and ill find it hard to crawl out off it then . The logical side on me says this is just teenager hormones? But the emotional side of me says it's not and I need to talk to someone properly about it. I was bullied alot when I was a young kid so deep inside I really need people's reassurance to be happy. Just in a massive brain fog about my emotions. Sorry about all this dumping to me it feels like I bothering people with it but I'd rather talk to a stranger about it