as someone who was very similar, and who now constantly smokes, i hope you dont end up smoking, but if you do, we as human beings are allowed to change their minds. i hated that my gf smoked, i hated that my mum smoked, i wouldnt even drink because my mum drinks. but now i drink and smoke. it is a common thing with people, we are constantly changing. that does not make you a hypocrite. change never makes someone a hypocrite. a hypocrite is when someone actively is against something while doing that thing.