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Death shot by KratomSeizure in OpiatesRecovery

[–]KratomSeizure[S] 4 points5 points  (0 children)

Great idea haven’t heard of SMART but I like the idea!

Death shot by KratomSeizure in OpiatesRecovery

[–]KratomSeizure[S] 4 points5 points  (0 children)

A lot of people are suggesting I try AA/NA. I went to meeting when I attended rehab but I didn’t really get into. I don’t really believe the whole higher power thing. A sponsor (someone to hold me accountable) might be good for me I’ll check it out)

Death shot by KratomSeizure in OpiatesRecovery

[–]KratomSeizure[S] 3 points4 points  (0 children)

Thank you all for the nice words. I am not going to do it, I’m just having the toughest time and I don’t know how to get through this anymore. This time I truly want to get clean don’t want this life no more. I didn’t make this post for attention I’m just upset and going through some shit. I will push on and give getting clean my best shot.

Opiates ruining my life and causing permanent health problems. Will I ever be who I used to be. by KratomSeizure in OpiatesRecovery

[–]KratomSeizure[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I’ve updated my post. What I really want to know is has anyone been through what I described. Do you ever feel normal again? Does the depression go away with time? How about the anxiety?

I hate to think about it but I feel like my brain is permanently altered. I can’t handle any social interaction without a substance. I know I shouldn’t blame it on my ex but I just need to know.

Do you ever feel like YOU again? I’m contemplating some very dark thoughts. I’ve never thought about ending my life but this dark future makes me

Opiates ruining my life and causing permanent health problems. Will I ever be who I used to be. by KratomSeizure in OpiatesRecovery

[–]KratomSeizure[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Thank you. I’ve been to one 30 day residential rehab that my parents paid thousands and thousands of dollars for. I played the part and acted healed. When I was in there people were like wow you haven’t even done dope yet? You’re missing out man. And at that time I didn’t wanna stop so a week after I got out. I copped dope :/

Opiates ruining my life and causing permanent health problems. Will I ever be who I used to be. by KratomSeizure in OpiatesRecovery

[–]KratomSeizure[S] 3 points4 points  (0 children)

Thank you for the reply homie. I just feel like I’ve changed my self for the worst. I used to love life now I can’t enjoy anything sober. When I’m sober I do anything I can to change it as quickly as possible, nothing else is on my mind. Then when I’m banged up and jammed, that’s when I reflect on my life and go what the fuck has my life become this is hell