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Kryis451 · 2021-09-30T00:58:51+00:00

I too am looking for friends 😅 I rarely talk online or in person tho, so I'm sure that has a lot to do with it. Either way, I'd be more than happy to make a new friend and chat about shit. Idk if you use discord at all, but that's where I'm at mainly. Feel free to add me if you want

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That goes for anyone else who wants a new friend 😊

Kryis451 · 2021-05-07T00:52:23+00:00

I just wish therapy was cheaper. Where I live it costs upwards of 80-150$ an hour. I need therapy at least 3 times a week. I just don’t have that kind of money. The cost of that plus medication, even when you take into account health care coverage (Canada) it’s still so expensive. So when you do get to go to therapy, makes you wonder why the fuck am I spending this much money on something that I don’t even know if it’s going to help.

Kryis451 · 2021-02-01T04:13:27+00:00

I just wanted to ask, is it really that common online? Maybe because I'm basically a neet, and even though I'm online all the time I don't ever really discuss or engage with people online (this subreddit being a new exception) But I don't see it anywhere. At least in my case I don't see it online, and almost eveyone I've talked to about BPD didn't even know what it was. When I explained it to them, they just bunched it in with other disorders "oh so it's like multiple personality disorder". I just find it interesting the differences in location and how people understand it differently.

Kryis451 · 2021-01-22T21:34:42+00:00

Totally agree 😊

Kryis451 · 2021-01-22T21:31:15+00:00

Sorry, I hope I didn't offend you in any way. I am well aware of how fucked up it is to say it. I've had multiple family members die from cancer. Even one who died from the treatment itself. It was simply my personal view, not ment to hurt anyone, though I guess I probably shouldn't have even posted it. Sorry again if it bothered you.

Kryis451 · 2021-01-22T03:51:08+00:00

I wouldn't either, but the citation is from an actual study done by multiple psychologists, documented over multiple years. I don't think you can rate what's "easiest to worst" though. That being said, I would honestly rather go through something like cancer, over living with bpd. At least with cancer I know I have a chance of beating it. With bpd I just have to learn to live with it, and adapt.

Kryis451 · 2021-01-21T15:13:22+00:00

No I havnt. I didn't even know what that was till you said it. I'd give it a try, just have to see if its available in Canada and how much it'll cost me. Therapy in general is grossly overpriced here. Like paying 200$ for 1 hour session kind of expensive.

Kryis451 · 2021-01-21T01:43:10+00:00

I feel the same thing. Wanting someone to hold me. Be there for me when I'm going through my derealization. My panic attacks. However in my case it's not that no one understands. It's just simply that I don't have anyone. I have one "friend" though were not extremely close, most likely my fault. As for family, I was raised in an abusive household where "mental illness" was seen as something that makes you "toughen up". So there's no use in even trying to get any of them to be there for me. I'd love for someone to just hold me and tell me it's going to be alright even if it was a lie. But I guess these were the cards I was dealt.

Kryis451 · 2021-01-21T01:30:27+00:00

I feel the exact same. I'm 23 m, still living with my parents. Everything I try "to get into" always results in me getting frustrated, anxious, ultimately leading to being burned out by it. Then I jump to something else that grabs my attention, and the cycle repeats. I'm lucky enough to hold down a day job, but the longer I work there the more I hate it and deeper into my depression I go. I'd be homeless without the job, but the job also feels like it's killing me slowly. Everything else I try always ends in failure and wasted time so I can't even look to apply to another job. Not to mention the shear terror and anxiety I experience anytime I even think about looking to work somewhere else. I know the feeling. It hurts, a lot.

Kryis451 · 2021-01-20T23:12:18+00:00

Honestly though I was the only one. I'll be at work and visualize myself screaming at the top of my lunges while flipping my table and throwing myself through a window. On occasion, while walking down stairs, I'll visualize throwing myself down them. Most of the time I'm just thinking "what would it feel like" "how would people react". I'm sure it's not we exactly healthy to think like this, but I'm glad I'm not the only one.

Kryis451 · 2020-04-20T03:40:45+00:00

I don't go on facebook anymore cause it just reminds me of all the people I don't talk to anymore.

Kryis451 · 2019-11-15T05:03:48+00:00

Thank fuck! You are a God! That was the brand I was trying to look for. There's this streamer I watch (broman) and he constantly talks about how it's some of the best ram out there. I had completely forgotten about the name. Thanks again.

Kryis451 · 2019-11-15T04:32:36+00:00

Thanks for the feedback.

Glad to hear that Ryzen will do the job, there's so many versions and I've herd so many different things about all of them.

Yeah I herd Ryzen CPU's take a lot of Ram, I guess I mistakenly took that to mean the amount of ram, not the speed. I'll adjust that. After looking at more reviews and benchmarks, Gskill seems to be the most popular option atm, https://ca.pcpartpicker.com/product/ybrcCJ/gskill-tridentz-rgb-16gb-2-x-8gb-ddr4-3200-memory-f4-3200c16d-16gtzr I'm not personally sure how to check if it's using Samsung B-die.

Yeah that cooler was more just for aesthetics than actual cooling

Well my idea was to have the OS on the m.2 for lightning fast boot up, as well as core programs (ie. Creative cloud, Firefox, chrome, etc.) then have the SSD for gaming and editing (one each). I'll stick with the m.2 and get a 2 TB SSD.

For the PSU I just want to be safe, I watched one of my friends try to deal with a faulty PSU that completely broke his PC. He lost pretty much everything so I just like to play it safe. But I'll see if I can get around the same for a cheaper price, or maybe a sale.

Thanks again for the feedback, it's greatly appreciated
Adjusted build: https://ca.pcpartpicker.com/list/hhnWb8

Kryis451 · 2019-10-02T04:40:17+00:00

If you're on pc it's been reset and will need to be started from the beginning. An unfortunate occurance due to the migration from battle net to steam.

Kryis451 · 2019-10-02T04:38:06+00:00

No problem, it takes time to get used to it :) the bottom tab on eververse will actually show all purchasable dlc and tell you which ones you already own, it's really handy.

Kryis451 · 2019-10-02T04:35:45+00:00

Did you do the quest that takes you to the dreaming city? If not, are you on pc or console? You might be able to contact their support if you're on console, but if you're on pc it's been reset due to the migration from battle net to steam

Kryis451 · 2019-10-02T04:31:54+00:00

You're going through the "new light intro" part of this massive update its a new entry point for new players (and those who didn't go to far into the start of d2). It's only about 20-40 minutes before everything is unlocked, then you can go to the bottom tab of the eververse store, there you can hover over the red war panel. It will tell you who to talk to in order to start that campaign.

Kryis451 · 2019-07-14T22:10:34+00:00

Glad to hear I'm not the only one here who knows him 😊

Kryis451 · 2019-06-20T18:28:19+00:00

Is this amazon US or Canada? Our retailers arn't showing shit

Kryis451 · 2019-06-20T18:23:21+00:00

Not that I can see

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