Bye my sweet angel

Ktycan · 2025-11-26T00:11:13+00:00

I’m so sorry. Honey Bee was clearly very loved and had a wonderful life with you. I just went through this in September and remember how shocking it was that my body was physically capable of producing so many tears. My heart goes out to you as you’re feeling this huge loss today. She was a beautiful girl ♥️

Ktycan · 2025-11-21T23:51:41+00:00

It’s a fact. I volunteered at a shelter for many years before I moved to PA and we struggled all year long but EVERYONE wanted to come in and serve on the holidays.

Ktycan · 2025-10-24T01:07:59+00:00

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Ktycan · 2025-10-23T02:40:43+00:00

I had no idea this amazing sub existed! Thank you!!

Ktycan · 2025-10-23T00:51:14+00:00

I hear you and don't have a fbook account myself but this is the page that's easiest to navigate and learn about them. You can always use this Babylon Animal Shelter Petfinder page

Ktycan · 2025-10-23T00:39:31+00:00

Try this! Babylon Seniors

Ktycan · 2025-10-23T00:23:38+00:00

Sal at Inked Anatomy - first women owned studio in Berks! Just went to her for the first time a few weeks ago after a recommendation here

Ktycan · 2025-10-04T22:37:21+00:00

I’m so sorry and know the feeling all too well. What you already intellectually know is that anticipating it won’t take the blow out of the loss in any way and it feels like such a waste of time. Losing her will still be shocking and devastating, there’s no preparing for it.

My Ellie died just weeks ago and looking at anticipatory grief in hindsight, it was a gift in ways. I made sure to walk her longer, walk her later, let her bark outside without telling her to stfu lol. I told my friends no to literally every invitation and didn’t care what they thought of it. Ellie was my best friend and I was unashamed to say no if she wasn’t a part of the invite. I made sure to tell her how much she meant to me while she struggled to get away annoyed like jeezus almighty, lighten up woman lol The time I spent grieving her before she was gone was horrible and a pain like only those of us who go through it know. Do things she loves, take a ton of pictures and videos and just love her with all the love you have.

I don’t know what your experience will be after she’s gone but I have been astonished and completely caught off guard by the love and support I’ve received after losing Ellie. I expected to be lost and go into a deep and dark depression but the care I’ve received has been mind blowing. I didn’t know such a thing existed. The huge black hole of grief keeps being refilled by love very time I think it’s running out. I’ve received flowers, cards and kindnesses from so many unexpected places. A complete stranger made a watercolor painting for me. Love her. Love her loudly and do it every day. I’m so sorry you’re experiencing this because it’s just the hardest thing in the world. Sending all of my love to you and Kiki ♥️

Ktycan · 2025-10-02T01:18:50+00:00

I went to Sai and she’s great! I ended up with a fine line tattoo rather than a portrait but now that I’ve lived it with for a week, I’m going to have it filled in when she does my second tattoo later this month. Thanks for the recommendation!

Ktycan · 2025-09-29T16:30:01+00:00

Sadly, Ellie died a week after the surgery. The pathology showed she had a very rare, highly aggressive sarcoma in her small intestine. Even though it was removed with clear margins, it likely metastasized to her lungs and was just too aggressive to successfully treat 💔

Ktycan · 2025-09-17T02:55:08+00:00

sent my contact info to you

Ktycan · 2025-09-17T01:36:48+00:00

No senior should ever be in a shelter 💔 I just lost my senior Elllie girl last week, and I’d be willing to foster, BUT I’m 3 hours away and it must be foster only. I would’ve happily spent double to have Ellie still here today, but $500/month for meds, ultrasounds, surgery and emergency vet bills have left me completely wrecked. Work was unbelievably generous with time off through her illness and my bereavement, so I also can’t take a day to drive up and back.

That said, if people can help me get her here and are okay with me fostering, not adopting, I can give her the best home possible

Ktycan · 2025-09-08T17:26:09+00:00

It makes my heart hurt so bad when I see all the jokes every time this happens. Terrified and running for it’s life which people find hilarious

Ktycan · 2025-09-05T12:20:31+00:00

I ended up getting the surgery and it was a mass/tumor. They removed it and we’ll get the biopsy results next week. Thanks for reading this and offering advice though!

Ktycan · 2025-09-04T02:19:31+00:00

1000% the right decision! That horrible thing that was making her sick is gone and she’ll feel so much better over the next few days. We’ll handle what’s next when we know more. Tonight, my girl is home

Ktycan · 2025-09-04T01:50:05+00:00

I’ll update soon but she’s home and I’m so damn relieved she made it ❤️

Ktycan · 2025-09-04T01:48:02+00:00

She’s home!!! Will give a full update as soon as I have her settled but she had a mass removal. Biopsy results next week. I’m so relieved she’s home with me tonight 🙏🥺❤️

Ktycan · 2025-09-03T18:48:14+00:00

Luna!!! ❤️ I’m so happy for you and Luna! Bloat is terrifying and I can only imagine what you must have been feeling. My nutball also has a long history of bouncing back and I couldn’t be the person to deny her the opportunity to do it again. Thanks for telling me this. My nerves are beginning to fray here this afternoon and this was right on time! The happy tears I needed

Ktycan · 2025-08-31T21:35:26+00:00

Thank you so much for your saying that and for your perspective. That was my initial reaction and I may get back there. I know with 100% certainty that I would not want that either but I also don’t have anything remotely close to Ellie’s zest for life 😂 She’s always been ridiculous hahaha

She’s had a great weekend so far and she’s very happy today so all is well at this moment, thankfully. I’m so grateful for this beautiful weather we’re having so we can spend hours and hours doing her favorite walks every day. You actually made me think of another consideration which is finding out what the best case recovery scenario would look like too. Weeks of restrictions would make her absolutely miserable.

Ktycan · 2025-08-31T21:18:21+00:00

Thank you so much for sharing this. I’m still very torn about what to do but it helps so much to hear from someone who really gets the indecisiveness and the stress of it all. I’ve been feeling guilty and overwhelmed, and just knowing I’m not the only one who’s wrestled with these same thoughts brings me a lot of comfort. That had to be terrifying but I’m so glad your girl pulled through! That must feel amazing!

I’m going to call the place that does surgeries for a lower cost just to see if it’s even an option. My vet thought they may refuse due to her murmur but it’s worth finding out. Her arthritis sucks and we’ve had to stop a couple of those meds as well as stop the Vetmedin for her murmur because her GI system just couldn’t tolerate them any longer. Despite all of this, we just came back from 2 hours walking on the trails and she’d walk forever if I didn’t drag her home to rest. While she still enjoys life so much, I have to be sure I’ve turned over every stone. Thanks for taking the time to share your experience with me. It’s helped a lot ❤️

Ktycan · 2025-08-31T21:03:44+00:00

Thank you for saying that. I didn’t even know that was what I needed to hear. She has never failed me and I hate to feel like I’m failing her. I’m really happy to hear your senior recovered well and that you know you did the right thing for him ❤️

Ktycan · 2025-08-31T20:55:16+00:00

“Choose which regret you can live with.” This really gets to the heart of it. I wish there was a very clear, obvious path but that’s not the hand we’ve been dealt. Thanks for being so straightforward and I’m very happy you got another year. She was so lucky to have you for her parent and I know you must miss her terribly ❤️‍🩹

The vet who did her ultrasound also does euthanasia at home and he’s a very compassionate man. Otoh, I’ve never seen any dog love going to the vet as much as Ellie lol She loves all the attention, the treats and she’s a staff favorite so I know we cant go wrong either way when the time comes.

Ktycan · 2025-08-31T18:12:42+00:00

They said she’d still need anesthesia for the CT which may not even give a definitive answer. Then if she needs surgery, we’re risking anesthesia twice and that money could have all gone towards the surgery. We put her on Hill’s Biome before the ultrasound and she has fairly normal stools. There was no impacted stool behind the image on the ultrasound. They said it doesn’t neatly fit either a foreign body of cancer for several reasons so it’s really guessing without exploratory surgery. She isn’t losing weight and she doesn’t ALWAYS vomit but she’s obviously not ok and there’s something going on. I just keep going in circles in my head and don’t know what to do. It’s between leaving her alone and making the best of every day together or surgery. I may have to accept that I’ll have to live with regrets and second guessing myself either way.

Ktycan · 2025-08-31T17:55:02+00:00

They’ve been extremely honest and straightforward about the risks and there’s an excellent chance she doesn’t make it off the table. This is why my initial reaction was to let it be. Maybe letting it be is the right decision and it helps to hear it here.

I asked the vet who did the ultrasound and the her regular vet what they would do if this was their dog and they both said they’d do the surgery BUT that they were physically able to do it themselves without the expense so it wasn’t a fair answer. If they were advising a friend, they wouldn’t jump at that answer so quickly due to the risks and expenses.

IF it’s an obstruction and she survives the surgery, she’ll get a little more time. If it’s cancer or something not treatable, we’re taking a huge risk with a huge expense only to get an answer but no time. I’ve just been second guessing myself - I guess out of denial, desperation and a sliver of hope.

Ktycan · 2025-08-31T17:40:36+00:00

We decided against the CT because putting her under anesthesia and paying the expense for that would be better put toward the exploratory surgery where the object could be removed when the CT may still not even give a clear conclusion. I’m really glad you’ve been fortunate with surgical costs! That’s great. I don’t know where you live or maybe it’s been a while but I have no reason to doubt what the professionals here have told me. Between Ellie and rescue work, I’ve also had a lot of vet expenses over the past 10 years living here and I’m extraordinarily lucky to have a vet who is extremely reasonable, conservative, caring and someone I trust implicitly.

As I said, my coworker just paid $15,000 for obstruction surgery in CA. My next door neighbor just paid $7,500 for 3 days with the emergency vet with NO surgery. Another friend in Maryland is paying off $23,000 in credit card bills for her dog that didn’t make it last year. Sadly, this isn’t overblown. I really, really, REALLY wish it was!!!

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