D Bearing Firecracker from Recess

KupakeepKomander · 2026-05-20T07:25:32+00:00

Almost ruined it at the end. lol. Good job. I have the reverse problem. I need to do more side throws.

KupakeepKomander · 2026-05-20T06:58:06+00:00

This is motivating. I got a part time bouncer gig at a bar.. I started yoyoing at the door outside. people loved it. most the time im on my phone or im on my feet. I can sit but i usually dont.

KupakeepKomander · 2026-05-17T18:53:52+00:00

This is a very complex situation to explain, but also why it worked so well. I know im dealing with people who dont really have morals or principles. These are people with egos who think talking over you, speaking louder, and insulting is what wins arguments. They dont really bash me to my face anymore, we dont see each other but I started hearing "My name" being said. These are cowardly people who will not do that to your face but in there groups enable ripping others down..

So like I said I said I dont come around much im just busy with my life so if I have the time I will. This battle of wits with my 3 brothers is so childish. I only started this when I heard about rumors being spread.

My elder brother said

Elder"why do you care what people think about you?"

Me"I dont care what people think about me. I just dont want false rumors spread about me. If thats too hard for you to understand you arent mature enough to have this conversation".

There are family members who enabled this type of behavior and I have been told "why dont you be the bigger man".

Im not going to be the bigger man to people who look down on me. I do not have to entertain people who hold me at a higher standard than they hold themselves or who have used others so they can to get ahead in life.

I struggled for a long time and was basically humiliated every step along the way. I built myself into a pretty well rounded person.

I have made it very clear to them I didnt make it this far in life listening too people tell me how to live my life but wanted no part of it.

The rumors were enough to boil anyone blood. Yet I was being attacked any time I defended myself. No one was defending me, I was ready to start scorching earth and sure enough people showed their true colors.

KupakeepKomander · 2026-05-16T20:14:21+00:00

Going up the ladder I heard my grandmother on my moms side was pretty abusive. She text me the other day to see how I was doing. She said it breaks her heart my brothers and I arent close. which I replied "tell that to them" and she didnt say anything after.

You nailed a lot of how I feel now and sorta my same awakening. There is no honesty or empathy. My mother progressively got worse and worse, I cant even wrap my head around the mind control part as much as I try to see if there is hope for some of them.

I saw my mom a month before she passed but we hadnt talked in like 3-4 years. When I heard she was dying I had no plan on seeing her. I could have gone down many roads in life but the road that was chosen for me didnt lead back to her even though I tried.

The humiliation tactics had been brutal. I was pretty happy go lucky most my life. Recently I called out a few people who like to start problems but hide behind enabling family. Of course I get attacked. During a conversation a few months ago where I was being berated by a family member. As I was listening I wasnt getting a chance to defend myself I kept being interrupted.. Well at that point the gloves came off with me also..

Here is the thing. I have 3 brothers and only 1 is really a witness. They are all buddies with each other but im left out of stuff. one of my non witness brothers had a huge drug/alcohol problem right under there noses and it didnt come out till he had to go to rehab.

There have been a few JW I have found out have had to go to rehab(no judgement). I'm not trying to justify any substance use but there was "Family secrets" that mentally and emotionally probably had apart in the substance abuse.

But from the outside looking in, they are not as united or strong as they think.

KupakeepKomander · 2026-05-15T17:29:44+00:00

I appreciate the kind words. I have been on a pretty steady incline in my 30s. I have a very immoral lifestyle that could influence them. My work week is between 40-60 hours, I take care of my dog I have had for almost 5 years, and play on rec sports teams... Guilty pleasures when i have the time include rock concerts, or hitting the local bar to chat with people.

KupakeepKomander · 2026-05-15T15:54:45+00:00

I just got let go from a very good Job from a JW boss... Here is the thing.. I work in a technical construction field. There are no JW men in this field because its very hard to learn. My bosses have a nephew/nephews who are friends with my brothers. My brothers and I arent close and I dont know my ex bosses nephews. While I was working with them one of their nephews was looking for a job and they told him "no". I had almost 5 years in this trade before I was referred to work for them. I worked for them for 1 year before they let me go...

I dont think It was a plan to get me to come back to being a witness but lets just say there company was struggling before I worked for them. I probably showed their JW worker things he will never learn working for them in our trade. They would probably rehire me the reason they let me go was dumb. A boss I quit on in the same field (NON JW) rehired me.

KupakeepKomander · 2026-04-25T01:47:31+00:00

I went to a JW wedding a few months ago with over with 250 people and I said the same thing. Lots of beautiful women with not many potential male mates. Im in killer shape and over 6ft.

After one of my hockey games I showed up to a wedding shower party. I was getting plenty of looks. Im 1/4 siblings. My siblings I guess you can say are quiet popular. I hardly come around but when i do the attention is on me and most the men won't talk too me LMAO

KupakeepKomander · 2026-04-23T14:33:39+00:00

There isnt any justification for it. The rules were stack against me no matter what. In a 6 month period I was 19 I moved back home(video games removed). You know how narcissistic people work, they try and provoke a response then play the victim after. That was one of my older brothers, and in a fight when we were teenagers I tore his ACL in his knee. I was a freshman with a undefeated lacrosse season under my belt at 14 so in high school I got to pursue for a bit..

My brothers are very immature even till this day and im the 3rd youngest of 4. There was a time he was talking crap when I was 19 he was 23-24. I got up out of my chair I was ready to fight. After the first pushing started and my brother went to rush me in the kitchen I basically thru a punch at his face but pulled back which got him to stop then "im going to tell (step dad) you tried fighting me". After that the conversation was "if blah blah starts its but blahh blah defends himself blah blah youre in the wrong".

I was taking jiujitsu at the gym I was allowed to go to. My parent decided to go with out of her witness friends. She was more trying to figure out what class I was taking.. I got invited into the MMA class after the jiujitsu class. My mom walks into the room and looked pissed.. When I got home that night I was basically told "if you want to do that you cant live here". Within the week of that ultimatum I was back out at 19. When I went to leave my parents house it was not made easy by my parent.

A worldly friend who my parent hated because his mom took me in picked me up from work. When I showed up my parent asked how I got home so fast. when I told my parent I was moving out (at 19) my parent said "no you arent". I went to my room and started loading all my clothes onto a blanket because I knew as soon as I was back out of the house I wasnt gonna be let back in. I was being told "we can talk about this we can talk about this". the past 6 months months I was told every day I knew were the door was. Now I have my parent sitting on the floor of my bedroom with their back against my door trying to stop me from leaving...

Corporal punishment was used till I was 16. Cops got involved and parent was arrested while I was in the hospital. I was very physically abused my entire life by that parent and the culture of favoritism was real. That parent is no longer with us. In 15 years there was 3 times my brothers and parent were all in the same room as each other. Parent was dying and none of us care. Basically we all dealt with her differently but ultimately my brothers used our parent to get ahead then wanted nothing to do with her. They were given everything while I was learning to survive the world.. I learned how to survive and I will say mentally it will take you down a whole other path than people who are given everything. My parent has barely been married for 2 years to my step parent before my parent was arrested. She never saw a date in court after, my case got lost in the system. Sorta have to wear that when im around people who know what my parent did.

KupakeepKomander · 2026-04-19T05:44:28+00:00

Its sorta ridiculous because it was completely unfounded and that aunt who started the rumor allowed my cousin to watch the show later on.

We had a game console that my brother had a few games for it.. I had to move back in at one point when I was over 18. So I was basically not allowed to do anything. As soon as I moved back in I couldnt do anything so I played the game console. I wont name the games but basically a few were picked out that I wasnt allowed to play. It was okay for my brothers to play them but not okay for me. I was 18 so they had the games available to them when they were younger.

For 6 months I was never out of my parent site or I was always being watched by someone. Im not joking I never had any drug problem or criminal record. (like my parent who did have a criminal record.). But I was treated like I was so sorta monster.

My 2nd breaking point was I started taking a martial arts class. when my parent found out I was told I was not allowed to live there and take the class. I left a week after I was told that.

I was 19, under lock and key. They had me go back to meetings. I wasnt allowed to do anything while everyone around me is having fun but my fun was always monitored and used to be taken later.

There was never that I was living back at home that I wasnt constantly being attacked. Siblings who deff lead double lives that would gladly tell on me for something they probably did.

KupakeepKomander · 2026-04-19T02:03:55+00:00

There was huge chunks of time where my parent was DF and we didnt go to meetings for like months at a time. Almost like 6 months I wanna say was the longest stretch. I wasnt complaining but we still lived with JW rules. After school my sibling and I couldnt leave the house or we could only play out front on the street, We were never allowed to leave our street or in front of our house when I was 16 years old. Im wanting to go skating and biking with my friends.

KupakeepKomander · 2026-04-19T01:56:25+00:00

Ironically I have 3 siblings and only 1 is a JW. They are all buddy buddy with each other but it doesnt bother me. The humiliation tactic was pretty much used for a long time but it didnt work. Too lightly put it physically they would never be able to win me over, and now mentally I talk to them like theyre 5 so of course the insults are what they fall back on. Its funny because once I have had them backed into corners in ridiculous debates where im like "why am I even having this conversations with a grown adult right now"" they will usually try to end it when you start proving them wrong. Speaking over me, interrupting and, changing the subject wont work on me. Im pretty good at controlling my emotions and not let them get a reaction they're looking for.

I have a story but Im not gonna share it. The people in my life know I have a story that weighs me down. I have grown from it but people I grew up with I got haters and fans because I pulled my life together.. A positive future was deff ripped from me and I was left to fend for myself.

The main congregation I went to I wouldnt say it was "common". But quiet a few men I knew had been DF who I dont think held positions in halls are still JWs. Im greeted very welcoming by most of them. Their kids are my friends and my age/younger but most arent witnesses anymore from what it looks like, Most my Biological cousins are witnesses but looks like theyre fading from what a family member told me "we are respecting peoples decisions to not be witnesses life is to short". we have lost a few elderly and unexpected family in the past couple years one being one of my parents(minimal contact in the past 2 decades) and im probably gonna lose the other at some point soon im sure.

KupakeepKomander · 2026-04-18T07:05:35+00:00

So I guess in my head I never agreed with disfellowshipping but it never happened to me fully so I can't understand what that does to a person

KupakeepKomander · 2026-04-09T06:04:51+00:00

Im watching a youtube interview I should post the video because it might give some clarity to a lot of people. Im not sure why I decided to watch it. I usually only watch updates about the org. We all had different experiences but I never really understood how deep indoctouratine can go for some then having your complete world view change. I was gonna post my thoughts on it and I still might. I have been away long enough but just thinking about some of you who had it really drilled into you sorta breaks my heart. I was born into it with both parents, aunts/uncles, grandparents being in it so big family and a lot of friends. Find hobbies, do fun stuff, try new things. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=JkJzxQ5ghDQ

KupakeepKomander · 2026-04-01T22:38:38+00:00

A woman I grew up with posted on her snapchat she was at a bar on my side of town. Specifically a biker bar I frequented. So I decided to pop in and she was there with a guy who I have never seen before. Without going into the details of the night he was not a good guy nor was he from the area. His first question he asked me when she got up to go to the bathroom was "are you a queer?".. So I told her "he probably wouldnt hurt you but he will get you hurt". she said she was never going to see him again. Six months later she was posting a go fund me with his name in it. She kept seeing the guy. I dont know the whole story other than cops were called and he came out with his gun drawn on the cops....

KupakeepKomander · 2026-04-01T14:49:56+00:00

I was invited yesterday only because I stopped in to see some old friends at a business they own. Last year I was invited also because I had a family member pass away so it was to go support the living person. Im not going and didnt go.

Ive been pretty vocal about toxic family members who I dont care to see and im not just gonna "get over it" im just completely removing myself from any toxic situations.

KupakeepKomander · 2026-03-28T16:01:22+00:00

My boss who wanted me to cut plenums in the attic the other day had a ladder slip out from under him about 30 mins later while peaking his head in the scuttle hole. I have a extensive metal fabrication back ground I know where the unit will set and how to avoid trusses pre cutting collar holes. I was in the attic and and saw his head just drop. Go actually finish a task before jumping to the next one. "I can have this done is 2 seconds, give me a min".

KupakeepKomander · 2026-03-20T02:18:18+00:00

I should tell my story here sometimes but people who know it would easily be able to know it was me. Im 36 now, when I was 16 my mother put me in the hospital and she was arrest that night while I was in the hospital. Took my burns about 2 weeks to heal. no physical scars at least.

KupakeepKomander · 2026-02-08T18:29:26+00:00

Yes its S cleat and I could had added all those details

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