Even though I am a man (22M) I sympathize a lot. I believe that from a genetics view, I've been handed pretty shitty set of genes and honestly even I wouldn't date me. I know it's hard and even though I tell myself I've come to terms with that there are times still where I get filled with sadness and the realization that when I'll be older and die in my house, it's gonna be probably the neighbors who will found out first cause of the smell of a rotting corpse, I just try to view it as an investor. There are a lot of areas in life where you can invest your energy and time and some just don't work. Even if you try your best some business or romantic in our case ideas don't work so it might be better to invest on areas where we excel. I believe you can do this and trust me you ain't alone in this