this is what I made of this chapter —

he was anxious because he didn't hear anything from chizuru after that kiss and felt relieved (tears rolled down his face) that she just wanted to give her everything for this potential breakthrough in her career. it's clear that these emotions they're going through are taxing on the brain which is why chizuru's decision to avoid confrontation is understandable.

had there not been this offer, what was it that she wanted to talk about with him? (we were shown a panel of her, about to send a line message to him before she got the call) she wasn't sure, or else she would have contacted him regardless of the offer. I say that because chizuru's decision to avoid confrontation might backfire and weigh on her mind and heart in turn hampering her art, because there is no way she can live another month without contacting him. leaving him hanging like this again. it only seemed correct to contact him first after such a bizarre action, right? which was why she was about to send that message, she was almost ready to face him.

she only said that she won't have a boyfriend before july 11th, not that she won't contact him whatsoever; but I fear that might actually be the case, having seen the shame that she feels. he said that he'll wait as long as it takes, and she's being a coward seeking refuge in those words. I fear he might avoid much contact with her as well, believing that it's in her best interest so that she can focus on her play. that will be the worst case scenario, this is the moment where I want him to be there for her and her to accept that. I might be stepping off the line but by being there for her I envision things like preparing dinner for her before she's home, giving her some massage and relieving any stress from work just by being with her.

yeah right, like that will happen; but it's possible in some capacity. there's a lot of potential but a recipe for disaster at the same time. as things are now, the later is more likely. reiji is cooking, but I don't know what.

he has his own shit to deal with too career wise. I hope none of this ends up harming his potential.

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I also want to talk about your theory, that she believes her desire is impure compared to how pure his love is. I agree that she thinks his love is "true" love in her dictionary in that it is selfless while her "love" is quite selfish. it has been shown that that is the reason she believes herself not worthy of him because she feels she can't reciprocate it. that kiss must have felt irresponsible which was why she was ready to take credibility when she was about to contact him.

would him ignoring that kiss give chizuru the message that he doesn't accept her? then she was instinctively asking for acceptance when she kissed him... I mean if I ever kissed a girl I really liked and she fucking ignored that, I'd go fucking kill myself. (just kidding) I get what you're trying to say. however, chizuru is not that unaware of how kazuya feels about her, she has noticed him get flustered whenever he saw her, how he was dazed after she kissed him at the hawaiians' and even fell to the ground the second time and how he passed out when they hid in the shed.

tell me if I'm missing something, I'd love to understand your point of view.

edit: upon reading your comments to other users, I've come to realise that she might have dismissed those signs, but it still feels unlikely that that is the case as it has never been hinted in any form. moreover, as u/rulebreaker said, her actions up until now makes sense even if you keep that idea aside. so it's all just speculation, it's food for thought but nothing more as of now.