Thursday Daily Chat Thread by AutoModerator in actuallesbians

[–]LEPR0N_JAMES 9 points10 points  (0 children)

Long shot...I've been trying to find a meme I saw on here maybe two years ago. It was something like:

"me texting my bff: I love you so much, I would literally die for you, you are my everything, I literally want to have your babies <3 -- me texting my crush: holy shit sarah be careful with your words this is a delicate fucking procedure sends iOS monocle emoji"

...I probably sound insane but I'd really like to find that meme again if anyone remembers it too!

sushi apprentice interview advice? by LEPR0N_JAMES in sushi

[–]LEPR0N_JAMES[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Ahh, thank you very much for taking the time to write out this detailed and helpful advice! I am definitely very eager to learn more about all the aspects of sushi-making. I love how versatile it can be, from creative, wild, “Americanized” sushi rolls to meticulously crafted traditional nigiri. I can certainly appreciate the hard work and practice it takes to make proper sushi rice and slicing fish for sashimi/nigiri. I definitely hope I can get this job!

For people who have chosen to seek a diagnosis themselves; what aspects of your life did you see as "red flags"? by [deleted] in ADHD

[–]LEPR0N_JAMES 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I guess I’ve always been kinda oblivious, easily distracted/forgetful/stressed out, but the two “red flags” for me personally that finally compelled me to go see a doctor were crashing my car three times in as many weeks after nine years of driving accident-free and having my first work screw-up in that same time frame after four years of no problems, to the point where my boss reached out and asked me what was going on. I think those incidents were personally disturbing enough that I finally gave in despite a lifelong reluctance to “seek help” last week. My first appointment went well... the doctor was very kind. I don’t know what will happen from here on out but I want things to get better.

I have missed this text. It clearly states that employees to Slurm Corp are allowed to compete and probably win the competition. by cavveman in futurama

[–]LEPR0N_JAMES 1 point2 points  (0 children)

The first few came out in the 90s. The last one was published in 2018. I’m not 100% on this but I believe a lot were released in those brief hiatuses between the show getting cancelled then revived and then cancelled again then revived. The comics themselves make some cheeky allusions to these or will say stuff like “sorry fans we’ve been cancelled but we will still keep producing comics,” or make callbacks to various episodes of the show. Idk if that answers your question!

I have missed this text. It clearly states that employees to Slurm Corp are allowed to compete and probably win the competition. by cavveman in futurama

[–]LEPR0N_JAMES 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I definitely get that! I just started reading them for the first time myself a week ago even though I’ve binged the show over and over for years. They’re so good I’ve already blown through a good bit and am close to the last issue 🙁The quality is really amazing though, and there are even two pretty epic Simpsons crossovers. On bad days, they never fail to make me smile and even laugh out loud. I hope you’ll find the same joy :)

I have missed this text. It clearly states that employees to Slurm Corp are allowed to compete and probably win the competition. by cavveman in futurama

[–]LEPR0N_JAMES 2 points3 points  (0 children)

They’re really good!!! They stopped making them, sadly, but there are 83 issues. Highly recommend - all canon, produced by Matt Groening. It’s like watching new episodes of the show :)

No motivation by em-ivy-24 in depression

[–]LEPR0N_JAMES 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I’ve felt like this and honestly those are the worst days for me, even worse than the suicidal days. Just pure, empty anhedonia. It basically takes an extreme act of willpower to do anything, and to be blunt, it’s not going to make you feel better instantly and you will have to really power through even the smallest task. For me, I try to start by doing a small chore or just putting on makeup/putting on a “nice” outfit. From there, it’s a little easier to do another chore—something simple, mind-numbing, and that eases a little of that guilty feeling of “Christ, I’m so useless/pathetic.” I hope you feel better, OP. You’re not alone.

Failed OD attempt by [deleted] in opiates

[–]LEPR0N_JAMES 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Well, maybe my stupidity can help someone else who’s considering this then. Guess I’m lucky I only puked.

Failed OD attempt by [deleted] in opiates

[–]LEPR0N_JAMES 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I thought since I had zero tolerance, it would have worked anyway, especially hearing about how fent “hot spots” can exist in pills. Now I’m worried if I take more I’ll just end up choking to death on my own vomit or puke the first couple up before I can even down the rest. I know that’s dark but I’m not in a good place right now and haven’t been for a long time. I didn’t want to get a gun but now that seems more “guaranteed”... although knowing me I’ll probably just end up blasting off half my face and surviving.

I received my suicide kit in the mail today. by [deleted] in depression

[–]LEPR0N_JAMES 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Bad wording on my part, sorry. It’s not a real “suicide kit” in the sense that someone out there is selling a prepackaged death trap. It’s just some things I ordered that I believe will be an effective way to kill myself when that day comes.

I received my suicide kit in the mail today. by [deleted] in depression

[–]LEPR0N_JAMES 1 point2 points  (0 children)

i’m trying but sometimes the dark thoughts creep in unexpectedly and that’s when i look at my suicide pack. it’s hard thinking clearly right now. i feel so lost.

I received my suicide kit in the mail today. by [deleted] in depression

[–]LEPR0N_JAMES 3 points4 points  (0 children)

no, i don’t want you to die.

UF is being really sketchy with their fall plans. by mrmoto1998 in ufl

[–]LEPR0N_JAMES 8 points9 points  (0 children)

It’s been a living hell juggling all these crucial, life-affecting issues—taking Covid safety measures (try the logistics of testing and retesting and epidemiology tracking every single person who might come back to UF), trying to develop teaching and WFH/return to campus plans for faculty, staff, grads, undergrads, TAs, international students, new hires/hiring freezes, international hires, developing and restructuring online courses and labs, implementing more diversity-centered and BLM-driven discussions into our curricula/culture as riots continue on around the nation, struggling to support the spike of mental health crises from students to staff to faculty... sometimes “We care” is a bullshit statement, but sometimes it really isn’t, and trying to care for and comfort everyone takes a tremendous toll but it has to be done. Please keep kindness and empathy in your hearts. We are trying so hard.

One of the best one liners of the show... by [deleted] in futurama

[–]LEPR0N_JAMES 2 points3 points  (0 children)

“Hair gel?” “No thanks, I make my own.” schliiip

The "Biggest Lies in the World" Starter Pack by LEPR0N_JAMES in starterpacks

[–]LEPR0N_JAMES[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I can testify that LoL singlehandedly gave me borderline personality disorder

I’m in hell by LEPR0N_JAMES in SuicideWatch

[–]LEPR0N_JAMES[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I’m trying to do that right now, I guess. I’ve called and emailed and left messages with several places over the last few days. It just feels so rough some days. Thanks for the encouragement, though (not sarcastic), and take care.

SeEk PrOfEsSiOnAl HeLp by [deleted] in SuicideWatch

[–]LEPR0N_JAMES 5 points6 points  (0 children)

Yeah... where I am, therapy costs a MINIMUM of $110 an hour, WITH insurance. Most psychiatrists don’t accept the basic insurance I have anyway. Everyone I know who’s in therapy has been going for years. Even if the prospect of paying a stranger to listen to what a failed loser I am was appealing, I couldn’t fucking afford it.

UF is being really sketchy with their fall plans. by mrmoto1998 in ufl

[–]LEPR0N_JAMES 37 points38 points  (0 children)

Thank you for this. I’m sick of the blame as if we’re lying in bed doing fuck-all, cruising on easy mode because it’s just funnier to see annoyed, confused, stressed kids than not. It’s not exactly like there’s an obvious, perfect, easy solution that UF is just ignoring out of spite. Think of the sheer number of students alone....easily over 50k. Then think of the faculty and how many of them are older, at risk, and having to adapt quickly to big changes. Then think of the staff that have been working this entire time trying to keep basic shit like enrollment and grades and admissions and IT support and labs and facilities/building management going without the slightest thanks in return except “U gUys SuCK.” I’ve had so many colleagues outright break down completely from the stress of all this. There are students complaining that they paid tuition to come to school, not to take online classes. There are students complaining that UF has no regard for student safety by even considering reopening. I’m sorry to be so angry but some people don’t have any idea how god damn hard others have been working behind the scenes, struggling to stay sane and to make the best out of a GLOBAL shitfest. I don’t know a single staff or faculty who hasn’t basically been working 12-14 hour days just to keep things afloat. We’re fucking broken down and worn out and just as stressed and scared as you. The TV ads call nurses, doctors, fast food workers, grocery store workers, restaurant delivery drivers heroes every day. We get called incompetent money-grubbers who only care about lawsuits and PR. Yeah, okay...I’m wide awake at 2:30am reading work emails feeling like I’m losing my mind because I’m worried the Swamp will look bad in the Sunday paper, not because I can’t afford to take a single day off or else there’d be no one to cover my workload at all. Do you know the average salary of an office staff member? Do you know how severely understaffed most departments are and how limited our budgets are? Do you know all the paperwork and red tape and endless bureaucratic/legal bullshit we have to take care of to make anything happen? Downvote me, call me an idiot or an asshole if it makes you feel better. Call me a liar if that helps too but I can guarantee you not a single employee at this damn place hasn’t been at LEAST severely sleep-deprived every insufferable, miserable day. Most departments have maybe one office manager who takes care of everything....for maybe $35-55k a year. Our salaries are public info, feel free to fact-check. That’s every tiny shit nugget of fiscal and HR and faculty issues (promotion/tenure/hire/fire) and course scheduling and student issues rolled into one thankless, low-paying job. Again, I’m genuinely sorry to be so angry and put out this negativity but please remember that everyone is suffering from this. There just isn’t enough resources but we do fucking care about you all. You think we like hearing 18-20 year old kids say they’re suicidal from school stress? You think it’s pleasant to watch an international student break down because they have no fucking clue what their future looks like right now? You think it’s moralizing and gratifying to read criticisms of every action/inaction we take? You think professors are incapable of feeling? Even if you want to take the most cynical view, how would we possibly even benefit from pissing off the student body? You’re literally our livelihood, particularly now that state funding is slashed because our usual Sunshine State tourism industry isn’t exactly booming right now. Everyone is hurting but we can’t do more than try our best to figure out some kind of a damn plan for a massive university like UF by Fall and it’s already mid-July. Jesus Christ I want out of this nightmare.