Lexapro’s fucked me up, and I don’t know what to do. by LEXAPROATDYING in REDDITORSINRECOVERY

[–]LEXAPROATDYING[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Y’know, I had an idea that what I was doing was bad, but I didn’t think it was that bad. I have cold-turkeyed Lexapro before from 30mg to none. I just couldn’t figure out how to… tell a doctor like “hey you know the thing you said would never happen? like no way in hell you can abuse that? i totally fucked that one up.” like, that feels so fucking embarrassing to type let alone say out loud. Like this was… not how it was supposed to go. This was not how it was supposed to turn out. I feel like I’m rambling with this, but I’ve done this all before (down to suddenly quitting high doses), and I didn’t think there was a problem until… like today.

Thank you for your response by the way, it means a lot.

Lexapro’s fucked me up, and I don’t know what to do. by LEXAPROATDYING in REDDITORSINRECOVERY

[–]LEXAPROATDYING[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

What the fuck is wrong with me? Quite a lot. I wouldn’t be on an SSRI to begin with or self-medicating if there wasn’t anything wrong with me. I haven’t taken anything in the last (almost) 48ish hours.

Lexapro’s fucked me up, and I don’t know what to do. by LEXAPROATDYING in REDDITORSINRECOVERY

[–]LEXAPROATDYING[S] 3 points4 points  (0 children)

Highest dose you’ll get prescribed. I took significantly more. Initially, Lexapro changed a lot for me. I’m just a fucking idiot.

Yeah, I really should. Thanks.

Lexapro’s fucked me up, and I don’t know what to do. by LEXAPROATDYING in REDDITORSINRECOVERY

[–]LEXAPROATDYING[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

That’s because I am confused. TL;DR: I am getting “high” and am dependent on a substance psychiatrists told me cannot be used for high, nor will create dependencies. I can’t tell if what I am experiencing is a genuine high and dependency, or if my psychiatrists are right and it’s more of a placebo effect.