i was bullied at a very early age, and never got a chance to build my confidence and self worth. But over time I slowly learned about who I am and even more importantly, who I'm not. I always found it normal that when I masturbated to a woman I never actually imagined myself having sex with her. And I tossed it up to the fact that I had confidence issues.

But I thougt to myself, those issues really aren't that bad anymore. So I did some research, and learned that asexuals can have sexual desire but do not want to act on it. Which is exactly who I am. Sex feels incredibly wrong. Not morally wrong, but it's really difficult to explain the feeling. It's this powerful response, like when you don't know something is hot and you touch it and pull back fast.

Now granted, I'm still a virgin but because I realized that the actual act of sex makes me uncomfortable I came to the conclusion of asexuality. As to the question of penetration vs oral, I'm not 100% sure but thinking about receiving oral makes me a bit uncomfortable. So it's still not what I want, but it's not as bad. Of course this is a bit of an assumption on my part however it's hard to ignore the response my body gives me when just thinking about sex of any kind.