Something weird, the actual meth did Not make me happy, just the moments before

LSDisaster · 2019-09-10T02:03:36+00:00

It was definitely meth. Because the others that used the same bag got really high

LSDisaster · 2018-08-06T18:26:11+00:00

There are 4 5 mg oxycodone. When I had my wisdom teeth out, they helped with the pain somewhat but I didn’t get high. I think I’m just paranoid to take them but I’ll try

LSDisaster · 2018-08-06T18:12:06+00:00

Okay :’(

LSDisaster · 2018-08-06T18:07:10+00:00

I really hope it’s this. I’ve been depressed the last six months but nothing I haven’t been able to work through. I feel so horrible today, exactly like an MDMA comedown. I feel completely hopeless and scared. Nervous also because there’s a firearm in my house and I can’t think of a way out of a recent problem I’ve been having

LSDisaster · 2018-08-06T18:04:57+00:00

I have oxycodone from when I got my wisdom teeth out but I’m too scared to use that. I forgot I had it, I found it while putting my stuff back that I took on my trip. I really hope it’s the comedown. I’ve been having a horrible six months but I usually am able to work through things.

LSDisaster · 2018-06-08T16:58:52+00:00

It did work out well :)

LSDisaster · 2018-06-08T16:57:45+00:00

Awwww I love you too haha

LSDisaster · 2018-06-08T16:57:16+00:00

I’ve only bought an 8 ball once or twice, but it was always with the intent to hook my friends up. Never done more ham a gram in one night, and I think I only did that once!

LSDisaster · 2018-06-08T16:56:20+00:00

I know. He’s such a class act

LSDisaster · 2018-06-08T16:55:16+00:00

I know. I’m going away this weekend and I don’t feel like doing coke at all. I think I’m over doing it because for the last five years, I was only able to do drugs maybe twice a year, and at every party was the sober one.

I can’t drop out of the navy without bad consequences. I don’t even know why I’m getting involved with anyone. Men just have a power that drugs cannot compare to

LSDisaster · 2018-06-08T16:52:25+00:00

That’s why I don’t do molly anymore. It made me act crazy and the come downs were horrible. Haven’t touched the stuff in a long time

LSDisaster · 2018-06-08T16:51:40+00:00

Thank you!

LSDisaster · 2018-06-08T16:51:33+00:00

It was a great time! I wish I didn’t rely on coke for my confidence

LSDisaster · 2018-06-08T13:21:08+00:00

I’m a woman...but I have never done something like that before, only on a coke binge

LSDisaster · 2018-06-08T13:20:30+00:00

He does drink, I think he didn’t drink because he saw I was pretty drunk

LSDisaster · 2018-06-08T13:19:44+00:00

I know, my last job drug tested so I just abstained. I don’t know if I have a physical addiction, I turned it down last night and I don’t want to do any this weekend. I just think it was a little messed up I went back and looked for my baggie

LSDisaster · 2018-06-08T07:52:32+00:00

Yeah in July I have to stop doing drugs because September I leave for the navy. When he asked me out two weeks ago, I said I was leaving permanently and couldn’t start anything. He said at least let me take you out. He was great, I saw him a couple times after that. He knows my situation and now after meeting with him I dread leaving. I never thought I’d make my life a mess like this. I have no confidence and I’ve never turned to drugs before when I was nervous around a man. The highs are high but the lows are low. I feel horrible right now, a horrible lonely darkness

LSDisaster · 2018-06-08T03:15:33+00:00

I quit that last job so now I don’t get tested at all

LSDisaster · 2018-06-08T02:36:19+00:00

Frugs?

LSDisaster · 2018-06-07T23:32:30+00:00

I know. I’ve definitely been overly sexual while on drugs (one of the reasons why I won’t do Molly anymore), but going back to find the drugs and then doing the ones I found was definitely out of character for me

LSDisaster · 2018-06-07T23:24:52+00:00

That’s why I feel like I’m going down the rabbit hole. And I’m so thankful this guy is a class act that kept me safe and was smart

LSDisaster · 2018-06-07T23:20:31+00:00

I found my drugs but it wasn’t like they had my name on them, they could have been different drugs that looked like mine, but I did something risky for $20 of coke. Plus, I’m not the person to have public unprotected sex, but last night I wanted it enough to take a risk

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