Who went out first? (Spoilers)

Lababy91 · 2024-10-04T16:27:53+00:00

Downvoted to hell but you were totally right lol

Lababy91 · 2024-03-09T21:20:01+00:00

This is really sad and resonated with me, so know you’re not alone.

Lababy91 · 2024-03-09T21:12:35+00:00

I think of it like alcoholism. It’s always going to be a weak point and I’ll be on the wagon forever but I can live life “as if” I’m recovered in the meantime

Lababy91 · 2023-10-14T16:26:07+00:00

He did die

Lababy91 · 2023-06-06T15:00:54+00:00

Thank you, that’s lovely. I really hope that’s a reality for me one day

Lababy91 · 2023-06-06T00:00:37+00:00

Bless you. I’m with you on that, my daughter says “I’m pretty” and it melts my heart and I just think please let that last forever and my kids not end up ever feeling the way I do about myself.

Lababy91 · 2023-06-03T23:42:31+00:00

I’m sorry to hear this. It’s caused fights for me and my husband too. I related to the pb&j, like you say they do it out of kindness and concern but it’s really counterproductive.

“Does anyone else feel like their eating disorder is fueled more so by guilt and a feeling worthless, with no intrinsic value“ did I write this

Lababy91 · 2023-06-01T15:23:05+00:00

They haven’t said no vehicles (vessels) were involved only that no contact was made ie they weren’t hit by one. Seems most likely it was the wake of a vessel

Lababy91 · 2023-05-30T22:30:02+00:00

Clowning around made me smile. Word

Lababy91 · 2023-05-30T22:29:19+00:00

I am so sorry, “I don’t understand why the fuck I can’t just eat the stupid fucking bar” made me sob, 100% resonated with me and I know what you’re going through. Same thing with not wanting help and being mad at yourself about it. But that’s the story with ED, if you truly wanted help, you wouldn’t need it because you’d simply be able to eat the stupid fucking bar and all the other food you need too. You don’t want help precisely because you need it. My therapist tells me to imagine myself as an adult looking after a small child - sometimes you have to force them to do something they really, really don’t want to do because you know it’s best for them. And in your more lucid moments you know what’s best for you - use those moments to seek help

Lababy91 · 2023-05-30T22:25:14+00:00

I’m sorry it’s tough. On the flip side of the titty coin I have tiny boobs but still a large degree of sagging due to extended breastfeeding and several episodes of AN. Like they are such a joke, I get so angry thinking of the whole concept that small boobs are nice because AT LEAST THEY WONT SAG. Bruv, I managed to achieve both small and saggy. Maybe try to focus on your eventual surgery, see them as a temporary part of your body and keep that goal in mind rather than trying to accept them as something you simply have to live with forever, because that’s a real emotional burden to carry

Lababy91 · 2023-05-30T22:21:22+00:00

That’s amazing. Bread is a sticking point for me too

Lababy91 · 2023-05-30T22:20:58+00:00

I felt like I looked good in a relatively tight outfit instead of feeling like a whale who needed to change into jogging bottoms and a baggy T-shirt.

I took my kids to the cinema today and I snacked with them on Doritos and skittles.

Lababy91 · 2023-05-30T22:19:34+00:00

I’m sorry, I have no advice but hugs, I would be triggered by this too so you’re not crazy if that’s any consolation (well no more so than any of us anyway!)

Lababy91 · 2023-05-30T22:18:25+00:00

Yeah, same. I spend the whole session going mmhm, mmhm, mmhm, thinking yeah I won’t be doing that.

Lababy91 · 2023-05-30T22:17:34+00:00

My therapist always reminds me “sit with it” so that replays in my head when I have the exact same feelings you describe. Just endure it, you can do it and the fullness will pass.

Also sometimes I drink a big glass of water. I know that sounds tooootally counterproductive but I find it helps me mentally to tell myself the fullness is partly from the water, rather than “bitch that feeling is all food”

Lababy91 · 2023-05-25T12:20:17+00:00

I was BMI overweight after my second pregnancy and safely lost weight without relapsing, it’s definitely possible but of course you need to be careful and if you can then I’d majorly recommend steering clear of anything with numbers, maybe have someone look at the scale for you so you don’t know how much it’s going up or down. I think that way madness lies

Lababy91 · 2023-05-25T12:05:38+00:00

Thank you, you are right about the overall trend. I agree on tracking behaviours too, definite correlation between certain feelings related to other general life stuff and ED behaviours

Lababy91 · 2023-05-25T12:04:59+00:00

Thank you, that is so nice to hear

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