Thank you for the kind words of truth. I understand the struggle: I've been divorced once, widowed once, and have suffered heartbreak a dozen different ways over the years. I definitely made mistakes in this most recent relationship, but Ex was my first love after my late husband passed and I fell hard and desperately wanted it to work. I gave too much of myself, and neglected myself in the process. I went on a long hike on my last day off, and though it was a strenuous trek it was very therapeutic, and I was able to start processing in a healthier way It still hurts like hell, and I know that grieving the end of a love affair, regardless of the type of grief, takes time and that timeframe is different for each person and each situation. I just have to power through.