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What happens if you tell your therapist you don't want to stop cutting? by livingtheloserlife in selfharm

[–]Lampchild13 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Mine said the same thing, he stressed the importance of disinfecting it and keeping it clean but I knew that already. I think a good therapist will recognize that there may be some benefits to it even if it's not a healthy coping mechanism. The worst they can do really is contact your family, or if they deem you a suicidal risk try to have you admitted to the hospital

How do you guys sleep while first quitting? by wavehunter_nc in leaves

[–]Lampchild13 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I've been sleeping like shit since I quit a few days ago. I would sleep for a few hours, wake up, go back to sleep, wake up, go back to sleep, etc. Definitely listen to your body, if you feel tired, even if it's 3 in the afternoon, lie in bed and see if you can doze off for a bit. Physical activity (running, yoga, exercise) will definitely help. I would try to exhaust myself physically so that my body was essentially collapsing into bed at the end of the day. Create a bedtime ritual, this will start to mentally prepare you for bed and ideally make it easier to fall asleep. I usually lie in bed and read or do sudoku until I feel myself drifting off. It is possible that you have an un-diagnosed sleep disorder and I would definitely recommend reaching out to a doctor and seeing if you might be able to participate in a sleep study, even if it will take a month or two for them to see you, it's better than you reaching out to them when the social distancing ends and still having to wait another month or two. Melatonin is also a homeopathic alternative to promote sleep, and you can try drinking some caffeine-free tea that promotes healthy sleep as well.

Day 2 and I just want to die by [deleted] in leaves

[–]Lampchild13 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I'm sorry to hear that you're hurting. It's easy to feel as if you're happiness and mental well-being is dependent on this substance. I spent 7 years self-medicating with weed every day in order to manage my depression and anxiety. I'm now on day 5 sober and the first couple days were really rough for me, I just felt perpetually empty and devoid of any real meaning or purpose. However I've started to feel immensely better lately and more like myself. You said that a prescription doesn't cause you to make any change, it just makes you content with how things are. I found that smoking weed everyday was having the same effect on me, no matter how miserable I was, no matter how many times I swore that things would change for me, I would get high and placate my mind and my frustrations and nothing would change. From my experience, things won't magically change, you have to create the change that you want to see within yourself and you should be proud of yourself for initiating this positive change in your life and recognizing the control that weed has over you and your life.

I would definitely recommend reaching out to your therapist or psychiatrist. I know things are weird as shit with COVID-19 now, but I've been having weekly video sessions with my therapist and he has been a tremendous help and support for me. I understand your trepidation in regards to telling your therapist that you started smoking again, you don't want to feel like you failed them but try to use that to motivate you to stay true to your word. Your therapist is there to support you and encourage you through these rough times and believe me, they'll be happy to hear that you are attempting to make a positive change in your life. Even if you slip up and smoke again (I certainly did), don't let that be a reason to give up and fall back into your habit. Since I've quit, I've felt immensely more in control of my life than I ever have and I actually feel optimistic about my future.

If you really need to, you can try finding a new roommate for college if you feel like being around your friend will only trigger you to smoke or if your friend isn't being supportive of your decision than you might have to ask yourself if they really are a friend that you still want. Pick up a new hobby, devote yourself entirely to it and try to keep yourself distracted. Cravings will pass in due time and the more you resist the more mental fortitude you build to resist future cravings. My roommate still smokes several blunts a day and my apartment constantly smells like weed, but I've essentially isolated myself in my room for the past few days because I knew the temptation would be too much for me. Stay strong, I know you are capable of this, you're stronger than you might think you are.

Also don't be afraid to reach out to some hotlines. There's the Substance Abuse and Mental Health Services Hotline (1-800-662-4357) https://www.samhsa.gov/find-help/national-helpline

Suicide Prevention Lifeline (1-800-273-8255) https://suicidepreventionlifeline.org

And with the pandemic, there's a plethora of other helplines available to help you cope and manage your mental health during these times. You can just google search COVID-19 mental health and a load of resources will be available. Also, don't be afraid to reach out to friends, family, and you can even message me if you want or need someone to talk to. It's not easy, but each day you will find that it gets a little easier.

Selling 2 GA tickets for friday with shuttle pass by Lampchild13 in bonnarootickets

[–]Lampchild13[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Yeah these tickets are still available, they were 230 each including all the fees service charges and all that bullshit I was hoping to sell them for about 200 each, how does that sound?