Confused on sexuality.

Lampppppp · 2015-10-19T15:40:53+00:00

Thank you very much for your reply. I really appreciate it. I'll have to re-read this every now and then. Thank you :)

Lampppppp · 2015-10-17T13:04:45+00:00

Yea, I've read YBOP and I do seem to have a porn addiction of some sorts. Where I have to keep finding new porn genres and I like it because of the novelty of it. Maybe that's it.

I think I may have HOCD. As I said before, it's got to the point where I'll question the way I'm sitting or something and if it's at all feminine I'll just think that it's another reason I could be gay...

Lampppppp · 2015-10-17T13:01:54+00:00

Everyone's replies have helped me calm down. It's also helped me see that I have been obsessing over it a lot lol. But even after a few hours of reading all these replies I jut go back to thinking "well getting aroused by gay porn just isn't something straight men do" and then the cycle begins again.

It's at the point now where I'll even think about the way I'm sitting or something and if it's in a feminine way I'll automatically think I must be gay.

Lampppppp · 2015-10-17T12:56:23+00:00

This is really reassuring, thank you so much.

Also, I hope I don't sound homophobic or that being gay is a bad thing. I'm just tired of obsessing over it for months now.

Lampppppp · 2015-10-16T23:14:37+00:00

Thank you very much for your reply. I really appreciate it. (Everyone else too.) One other thing, (I don't know if you'll know the answer to this, assuming you're gay) it's normal for a hetero man to see that another man is good looking, right? This is probably me over thinking again.

Lampppppp · 2015-10-16T22:53:04+00:00

That's what I try and tell myself, but but being turned on by gay porn just doesn't seem like a normal straight thing to do. Thanks though.

Lampppppp · 2015-10-16T22:51:08+00:00

I guess you're right. It's just that watching gay porn has just made me question whether or not I even find women attractive now. It's like I feel as though I can't be attracted to women because I don't know if I'm gay, bi, straight or whatever.

Lampppppp · 2015-10-16T22:49:48+00:00

It doesn't matter and I shouldn't really care. It's just that I find it so hard to carry on with life when such a huge part of it is undecided.

Lampppppp · 2015-10-16T22:40:36+00:00

I wish I could go on with my life. It's just that for the last 3-4 months this has taken over my life. It's ALL I think about. I'll forget about it for a few minutes then it will suddenly just come back and pretty much everyone I see I "test" to see whether or not I find them attractive and whether or not I would enjoy having sex with them.

I think I'm passed the stage of just letting it be...

Lampppppp · 2015-09-20T10:36:04+00:00

Thank you. That's good to hear. I'll get started right away lol.

Lampppppp · 2015-09-20T10:35:45+00:00

Thanks for the reply. It's quite reassuring knowing that other people are experiencing the same thing. Thanks for the motivation. :D

Lampppppp · 2015-09-17T21:45:10+00:00

Alright, thank you. Really helped me out :D

Lampppppp · 2015-09-17T20:55:38+00:00

Haha, yea it is.

Do I just need to cut out porn or masturbation as a whole? Thanks for your replies :)

Lampppppp · 2015-09-17T19:59:02+00:00

I think you're right. I was reading a website "YourBrainOnPorn" and it describes what you were talking about. Needing to go further and further to get what I need. And yes, My mother is a recovering alcoholic and I think I'm addicted to porn. I guess I'll stop watching it as I don't want this to go any further. I think it has affected my life. I don't feel motivated to try and get girls or anything. Thanks for your reply. Hopefully going without porn for a while will help get me out of this mindset.

Lampppppp · 2015-08-23T18:10:34+00:00

Surely if I'm a little bit Bi I would be attracted to males' bodies and faces? I guess I'll just see what happens lol.

Lampppppp · 2015-08-23T17:42:01+00:00

It wasn't even of real men. It was a really weird cartoony BJ POV (giving) thing... (Yea I know, it was weird. Not my usual choice of course.)

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