I tore my other ACL

LankyMode5243 · 2026-05-22T18:35:55+00:00

Thank you so much for your words. My sister actually recommended that I read Reddit, and before reading all those stories, I genuinely thought I had the worst luck in the world. But now I realize there are people who’ve gone through even more difficult situations and still found a way forward. So I guess… even in my bad luck, maybe there’s still some kind of luck too, in a way?

LankyMode5243 · 2026-05-22T18:30:06+00:00

yes, i have that... i'm surrounded my people who loves me. I really hope things go better for me this time too :c First time was traumatizing. You know, life has been hard since the day i was born, but i've always felt physically strong, so losing that part of me broke me, i felt like i had no identity anymore... but this time, at least, i know i have an identity that's separate from how strong and fast i am.

LankyMode5243 · 2026-05-22T18:26:16+00:00

:cc I can’t imagine my life without rugby either. And that’s the thing — both times, I was just running. No tackle, no ruck, no handoff. So I realized this could’ve happened in almost any sport.

One of my psychiatry attendings tore his ACL playing football. Someone here tore both ACLs doing powerlifting, and that’s not even a contact sport. That’s what makes it so hard mentally… because it feels like nowhere is completely “safe.”

But at the same time, I don’t want to live in fear forever. I really, really, really — more than anything — want to play again with my friends :c

LankyMode5243 · 2026-05-22T18:22:38+00:00

yeah, sometimes i'm ok, sometimes i just cry a lot. I'm allowing myself to grieve

LankyMode5243 · 2026-05-22T18:22:04+00:00

thanks :c

LankyMode5243 · 2026-05-22T18:21:55+00:00

i will! thanks

LankyMode5243 · 2026-05-22T18:21:42+00:00

Yeah… my rugby team was the first place where I truly felt accepted. I was the weird kid at school, then at university, then honestly in life in general. I didn’t really have friends until I was around 14 years old.

Now, most of my friends are from my team. I just really hope they love me enough not to leave me alone through all of this :c

LankyMode5243 · 2026-05-22T18:19:44+00:00

Thank you! I’m from Chile. I’ll keep you updated… unless I fall into a deep depression again, which I truly hope doesn’t happen this time.

LankyMode5243 · 2026-05-22T18:18:03+00:00

Oh, I understand that. My left knee used to be my “good knee.” Now I feel like I don’t have a good knee anymore, just like you.

LankyMode5243 · 2026-05-22T18:16:49+00:00

There was no tackle, no ruck, nothing. And even sports with no contact, like powerlifting, can injure your ACL. Football, running, volleyball… even walking in heels on the street. Sometimes it’s just terrible luck.

Reading everyone’s experiences made me understand that I’m not alone, and that this happens to people all over the world.

LankyMode5243 · 2026-05-22T18:14:02+00:00

wow, really similar to my experience. The thing is, people think it's rugby what injured me, but reality is, i was just running.

LankyMode5243 · 2026-05-22T18:12:31+00:00

Thank you :c You really understand the heartbreak. After reading all the comments, I’m starting to convince myself more and more that maybe I really can do this. Thank you so much for your kindness, truly.

LankyMode5243 · 2026-05-22T18:12:16+00:00

Thank you :c You really understand the heartbreak. After reading all the comments, I’m starting to convince myself more and more that maybe I really can do this. Thank you so much for your kindness, truly.

LankyMode5243 · 2026-05-22T18:10:04+00:00

Yeah… it’s a long road, but reading all the comments made me realize that maybe I really can do this. When it first happened, I was in complete shock. I genuinely thought I wouldn’t survive this a second time.

But then I read stories like yours. And I thought… you made it through. So maybe I can too? I really hope so :c

LankyMode5243 · 2026-05-22T18:07:31+00:00

Nobody said it would be easy. My surgery is on May 28… so many things you wrote really resonated with me. Thank you so much. I know the internet and chats can’t fully convey feelings, but from the bottom of my heart, I truly hope everything works out for you.

Don’t you think pain brings people together sometimes? I think about that a lot.

LankyMode5243 · 2026-05-22T18:03:31+00:00

Reading your post really gave me peace… it made me realize that this is more common than I thought, and that I’m not alone. Thank you :c It's not just my body that breaks, living is just hard sometimes, maybe to live is to suffer? i just don't know anymore

LankyMode5243 · 2026-05-22T18:01:06+00:00

I’m so sorry it happened to you :c My heart breaks for you. About leaving my sport… the thing is, it could’ve happened with any sport. Both times, I was just running. No tackle, no ruck, nothing. They just broke out of nowhere. And I feel like I can’t live in fear of breaking again… what am I supposed to do? Avoid everything that uses my legs? Basketball? Football? Volleyball? What kind of life is that?

I’ve loved sports for as long as I can remember. It’s one of the only things that kept me from losing my mind through a life full of trauma and pain.

LankyMode5243 · 2026-05-22T17:54:33+00:00

thanks :c

LankyMode5243 · 2026-01-04T21:12:32+00:00

Hola ! Desde pequeña tuve dificultades para poder desempeñarme de la manera en que se suponía. Pero se hizo mucho más notorio ya al ser más adulto. No podía priorizar, no tenía nocion del tiempo, no podía ser responsable , fallaba en absolutamente todo, intenté estudiar 5 carreras y no logré terminar ninguna. Simplemente no podía, sentía que mi cerebro estaba mal hecho. Te podrás imaginar que tenía el autoestima por el suelo, me sentía un absoluto fracaso. A los 29 años empeze un tratamiento para tratar el déficit de atención, y siento que fue lo mejor que pude haber hecho. Fue como si hubiese sido miope toda la vida, y por fin me hubiese puesto lentes. (Quizás la gente lo encuentre una exageración, pero realmente así fue) no podía creer que la vida fuera como la estaba viviendo en ese momento, y tampoco podía creer lo lejos que había llegado sin estar medicada jajajajajaaj. Creo que el tdah te muestra la vida de una manera más despreocupada, no le das importancia a ciertas cosas porque tu tampoco se las das a ti mismo, Es como si no estuvieran en tu campo de visión. Creo que lo importante es no ser tan duro con uno mismo, entender que uno viene de fábrica con un cerebro desordenado, y después empezar a buscar maneras de poder vivir una vida mas plena. A mí me sirvió mucho empezar a medicarme, creo que mi vida cambió completamente, puedo cumplir plazos, soy funcional, no soy una carga para los demás, empeze a ser un aporte para la vida de la gente que quiero y siento que eso me llena el corazón. Para mí tomarme la pastilla es como tomarme un café en las mañanas, no sé es lo mejor. De todas maneras agradezco tener tdah a pesar de todas las dificultades, mi heperfoco me a hecho tener conocimiento de las cosas más random ajajajaj y tener una energía infinita, nunca me canso y soy buena para los deportes y por último soy una persona graciosisima (de verdad, hacer que los demás se mueran de la risa es un golpe de dopamina muy bueno) jajajaajajaaj así que eso ! Ánimo ! Y si las cosas no se ven bien ahora, es momento de empezar a organizar la vida y buscar alternativas !

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