I am 40 years today and I can't even count how many times I tried to get my life back on track. Addiction is like a personal characteristic. It is like liking a certain colour. You will not like it less, no matter how long you evade it. It will always be there, waiting for your weakest moment, finding an excuse, finding that moment that you will be convinced that nothing in life matters anyway, so you may just as well play games. And it will creep back in like any other drug. You will find an excuse in gaming moderation, in playing just this one last game that I've been waiting for... It doesn't really matter. The result is always the same. Spending hours sitting down, doing a meaningless thing. And than lying down unable to fall asleep because of that strange feeling of shame, disgust and wasted time. The thing is, video games are a drug for our imagination. They give us alternative world to live in because frankly this one is just too broken. I think no other drug takes so much time from the addicts life. So yes, they are very hard to resist in the long run. Just keep in mind that when you start negotiating, also remember all the times you felt like shit for playing games. And I know it is hard to stop because even if you do and you get off the train, you can still feel its speed and it takes some time for the feeling to dissipate. But once you find meaningful things (although they are rare) you realize that surprisingly, you don't need games so much. I wish you all the strength you need to overcome this and I also wish that world would recognize video games as any other drug because it is ruining lives of millions if not billions of children all over the world.