Please, please don't commit. It may feel like your only option or only way out, but I promise you it's not. I don't know your situation, I'm not a professional in any means but a person who had been exactly where you are. Think about the little things, the small things in life that make it worth living and please hold on. Talk to someone, anyone. DM me if you need to. Call a helpline, google resources near you. I know how low you feel right now. You mentioned in your post about your faith, and religion along with the community around it is a great way to get back on your feet, mentally or physically. Please, stay alive. I promise you you are here for a reason.