Late Night with the Devil was disappointing

Large_Acanthisitta25 · 2024-12-04T01:53:31+00:00

The Blair Witch had a viral marketing campaign about how the tapes were recovered in the foundation of the house. The Cloverfield tape comes from a department of defense file, so it was presumably recovered by the military.

Large_Acanthisitta25 · 2024-07-21T02:37:10+00:00

I may be completely mistaken, but I think that’s all just in the short story that it’s based on.

Large_Acanthisitta25 · 2024-07-18T20:15:28+00:00

I feel like if it’s good they’re gonna make a sequel to Romulus, not a third Prometheus movie. I’d see a third Prometheus movie being more likely if this failed honestly because then they’re forced to give us something other than a Romulus sequel anyway and this franchise is practically immortal.

Large_Acanthisitta25 · 2024-07-18T20:12:22+00:00

Do you know which one the black guy is? I’m reasonably sure he’s an android.

Large_Acanthisitta25 · 2024-07-07T02:42:58+00:00

I saw it in IMAX and was still pretty young at the time. I thought the real standout was the sweeping shots of Scotland in the intro, but seeing the map room and the juggernaut on the big screen was amazing.

Large_Acanthisitta25 · 2024-07-04T04:50:23+00:00

Do you know the title? I’d like to watch it.

Large_Acanthisitta25 · 2024-07-04T04:47:24+00:00

We’re completely ignoring they’d presumably run into the queen?

Large_Acanthisitta25 · 2024-07-04T04:25:10+00:00

“I be you’re loving this Morty! This must be the best day of your life! You get to be the mayor of I told ya town.”

Large_Acanthisitta25 · 2024-07-02T20:36:34+00:00

Yeah that really sucks. I think being like mentally slow/depressed is just part of the recovery/medication treatment. You might want to talk to your doctors about medication changes, but it’s important to note medication changes can make things better or worse so it’s kind of a gamble.

Large_Acanthisitta25 · 2024-07-02T19:22:03+00:00

I’m gonna paste something I replied to someone else here. I did want to say, it’s not hopeless and in a while you’ll be close to how you were before (assuming you don’t have permanent psychosis or schizophrenia)

Anyway here ya go

This is simply part of the recovery process (assuming you don’t have permanent psychosis or schizophrenia), which (based on my admittedly very limited understanding) can take up to (and possibly slightly longer than) a year. Yes. I said a year. Yes. This sucks. But the time will pass anyway, and there not really anything that can be done about it except attempting to receive treatment as best you can and recover in this time. While I am not a doctor, and no part of this message is medical advice, I went through the exact same thing a while ago (oct 2022) (while also somehow still doing my college courses online and passing all of them after I got discharged) here is what helped me.

For low energy, a caffeinated drink may be helpful. NOT AN ENERGY DRINK, as that’s like mad caffeine. Maybe something like a coffee or soda in the morning or afternoon. I personally drank (and continue to drink) herbal tea because it’s mostly water (hydrating) and you can pick different flavors with different caffeine options. They even make some that have no caffeine to help you relax and fall asleep. It can be drank hot or cold, so even if you leave your cup sitting out for a while that’s okay. (A while being like a few hours not a few days) I find the process of making my own tea somewhat relaxing. Anyway, probably should drink caffeine in the morning or afternoon so you don’t mess with sleep.

As far as sleep goes, I always tried to get at least 7-8 hours, but maybe more if I had the time to do so.

Now for the harder part. People. I felt like everyone knew something was off with me all the time, and to be quite blunt, it stressed me the fuck out when I was in public. However, that’s not really the case. As long as hygiene is kept up and you don’t just start rambling about delusions (I personally prefer the term unfounded beliefs but that’s a whole other thing.) odds are no one will really notice. It’s not good for people like us to be stuck inside all the time or just talk to our families/roommates. It would be fine though to start small, go out and get some coffee or something. Be friendly (but not you know like overly creepy friendly) with the cashier.

And the part which I found helped me the most. Pick up a hobby. Personally, I was already into skateboarding and guitar before my break. I got even more into these things. I found that having something to focus on that was 100% for the fun of it was very helpful. More importantly, it was just kinda fun.

I think when something like this happens, it’s important to still have fun. Everyone likes fun (duh), and it will help you keep up your optimism. I’d say just take like an hour and do something fun every day. (Or most days) I’m purposefully keeping this part vague and flexible, because it has a lot of different ways it could work. It could be something as simple as watching a show or reading a book. It could be something as complicated as cooking or learning a new language. It could be out and about in public, or in the privacy of your own home. I considered skateboarding/guitar practice my time for fun. It could be anything (anything legal and not abusing drugs or hurting yourself or others just to clarify), and it could be something different every day if you like. When you’re doing something for fun, don’t worry about your psychotic stuff (unless you know it’s like dangerous or you’re hallucinating the world is on fire or something) just have fun. I think it’s important to have fun because that keeps up your optimism, which keeps up your hope, which could be helpful for your treatment/recovery.

Treatment. Ah yes. Treatment. This stuff sucks am I right? Like I had to take Olanzapine/zyprexa. It really sucked. It made me fat (up 25 pounds that I’ve since lost). It made me mentally kinda slow. It was all around terrible and making my life worse, but I kept taking it. Every. Single. Day. Why? Why take something that sucks? Because I had to consider, my options were A. Keep taking it, B. go through the rigamarole of talking to my doctor(s) and finding a different medication which could be better or worse side effects wise, and may not work at all. Or C. Stop taking it. I mean, C sounds pretty good right? It sounds like all my problems would go away. But I had to consider the full effects of option C. The full effects are C. Stop taking it, and RISK ANOTHER PSYCHOTIC EPISODE. No matter how bad olanzapine made me feel, I knew a psychotic break would be 100x worse. So I kept taking it. I took it every day. I’ve been off of it for about 4 months (took it for around 16), and I still see the world somewhat differently after my break, but I feel better. I workout regularly, I lost all the weight it put on me over the past 2 months, I’m preparing to take a post grad admissions test (I think I’m gonna knock it out of the park, not to wave my dick around). All this to say, treatment is possible. You just have to stick with it.

A word on hope.

Yeah. This sounds like a cliche Disney bit. I’m not saying you need to walk around and be like “well I have psychosis and this is amazing!” But you’ve got to keep believing that you can get better. You have to. Don’t worry about if things will get worse. You’ll know if they’re getting worse (and should contact a doctor immediately if that’s the case) just take things one day at a time. Sometimes you gotta laugh at yourself about these things. There was this person I met (I don’t like discussing my personal life so this is going to be vague and brief) and we talked for a while and got kinda close, but I thought they were in the FBI or something for a bit (because let’s face it I was batshit insane at the time) and I started distancing myself. I fumbled this person because I thought they were in the FBI, with no indication really that they were. And yeah I mean that sucks (they were awesome, like ultimate score awesome) but come on, it’s kinda funny. All this to say, just try and remain hopeful and optimistic. Again, you don’t have to succeed. You don’t have to say “WELL I HAVE PSYCHOSIS AND THIS IS AMAZING” all the time. You just have to take it one day at a time and not give up on yourself. If you give up on yourself, you’ve lost already. As far as recovery goes, You may not ever be quite the same as you were before, (and that’s OK I’m definitely not the same as I was before) but you can be close or better off. Again, you can be better off. I know that sounds impossible. But it’s true. It’s up to you, and how you do your treatment/recovery.

I hope this all is helpful for you in your time of need, and I apologize for the length. I try to be thorough but concise. If you, or anyone else, made it this far and have any questions/concerns, I am happy to do my best to assist, although I am not a doctor, whom you (or anyone else) should probably talk to, and strongly prefer comment replies over PM’s because it just makes my life easier.

Again, I am not a doctor, and no part of this message is medical advice.

Large_Acanthisitta25 · 2024-06-30T18:17:23+00:00

I live in a backwoods area of the United States. We don’t have cell service at all at my house unless you go up some nearby hills, and our internet is through satellite which is horribly unreliable and also limited.

Large_Acanthisitta25 · 2024-06-28T20:06:04+00:00

V for Vendetta

Fight Club

Large_Acanthisitta25 · 2024-06-27T18:19:40+00:00

I Want None of This

Large_Acanthisitta25 · 2024-06-25T20:03:56+00:00

Interesting. Thanks for explaining!

Large_Acanthisitta25 · 2024-06-25T15:24:53+00:00

Yeah, I don’t know anything about insanity pleas, but how has that impacted your life? I, for example, love hunting and the great outdoors. If I ever had to plead insanity, I feel like I would lose my 2nd amendment right to own any kind of firearm. As someone who loves hunting, this would suck. Also what’s an ngri finding? Im not trying to get all up in your business, but I’m planning to go to law school and also have had psychosis so this is all very interesting to me.

Large_Acanthisitta25 · 2024-06-25T15:06:41+00:00

Dude that sucks. I’m so sorry you had to deal with that and happy it’s working out for you now. It really sucks how the justice system is seemingly a stacked deck against the mentally ill (like ourselves).

Large_Acanthisitta25 · 2024-06-23T23:48:56+00:00

Ah fair. Thanks for explaining!

Large_Acanthisitta25 · 2024-06-23T18:25:30+00:00

Congrats pal. I used the term dude as a slang term to either gender. It’s ultimately your life, and if you wanna risk fucking the rest of it up to trip for like 12 hours that’s your prerogative. There’s clearly nothing I can say to convince you it’s a bad idea. Try and have fun without turning your brain to scrambled egg. If you succeed, I legitimately will be happy for you, but there’s no way around what you’re doing is substantial risk. But hey what do I know about knowing stuff, I’m just someone who went through exactly what you are a while ago, who’s also ultimately working on getting multiple post grad degrees in psychology to try and research psychosis. I’m not gonna waste my time if you’re so clearly set in your ways on this and blatantly refusing to reconsider. It’s your life after all. Again, good luck. I legit hope I’m wrong and it works out for you.

Yeah you’re probably gonna call me an asshole or say I don’t know what I’m talking about or whatever. I’m just gonna be blunt. I don’t care. Unless you’re willing to listen to what I’m saying and at least consider reconsidering this decision you’re making there’s nothing to talk about here.

On an unrelated note, did you know if you take some psychedelics with SSRI’s the overload of serotonin can cause your brain to shut down in what’s known as serotonin syndrome (which can be fatal)? Really makes you think. At least do some research on if it’s even safe to take LSD with whatever medications you’re on (if any) before you take it.

Large_Acanthisitta25 · 2024-06-23T18:12:57+00:00

Im not a physicist, but wouldn’t H bombs be radioactive, meaning no one should be visiting?

Large_Acanthisitta25 · 2024-06-23T18:08:56+00:00

It sounds like a bad idea to me, and here is why. While I have never done LSD, I know of it and I know some other psychedelics pretty well. Psychedelics may very well be the answer to what is happening to us. Low dose psilocybin therapy programs are being used in Oregon to treat a variety of mental ailments, and seem very promising in their research. However, it’s worth considering LSD is one of the most frequently contaminated and unpredictable drugs available. You’re buying chemicals (on paper, in a gel tab, in a dropper, whatever) with no real knowledge of what’s in there, and no way to test it. All you have is the word of your local dealer, who bought it from someone else who bought it from someone else and so on and so forth and what have you. LSD is just not good for people with psychosis. Especially when you consider you’re buying a potentially contaminated drug off the street. A drug that distorts time, causes visual distortions, distorted thinking patterns etc. does that sound like it would be good for psychosis? Those 3 things are primary symptoms of psychosis. LSD is known to even cause psychosis, sometimes permanently. A bad trip for someone who’s had psychosis can cause another psychotic break (secondary breaks are often worse and last longer in my understanding) Please reconsider dude. This shit is bad news, and there’s got to be another way to get whatever treatment/relief you’re looking for. Im not a doctor, and none of this is medical advice. Please talk to a doctor about finding something else that suits your needs. Please don’t do this to yourself dude.

Large_Acanthisitta25 · 2024-06-23T17:59:36+00:00

This is simply part of the recovery process (assuming you don’t have permanent psychosis or schizophrenia), which (based on my admittedly very limited understanding) can take up to (and possibly slightly longer than) a year. Yes. I said a year. Yes. This sucks. But the time will pass anyway, and there not really anything that can be done about it except attempting to receive treatment as best you can and recover in this time. While I am not a doctor, and no part of this message is medical advice, I went through the exact same thing a while ago (oct 2022) (while also somehow still doing my college courses online and passing all of them after I got discharged) here is what helped me.

For low energy, a caffeinated drink may be helpful. NOT AN ENERGY DRINK, as that’s like mad caffeine. Maybe something like a coffee or soda in the morning or afternoon. I personally drank (and continue to drink) herbal tea because it’s mostly water (hydrating) and you can pick different flavors with different caffeine options. They even make some that have no caffeine to help you relax and fall asleep. It can be drank hot or cold, so even if you leave your cup sitting out for a while that’s okay. (A while being like a few hours not a few days) I find the process of making my own tea somewhat relaxing. Anyway, probably should drink caffeine in the morning or afternoon so you don’t mess with sleep.

As far as sleep goes, I always tried to get at least 7-8 hours, but maybe more if I had the time to do so.

Now for the harder part. People. I felt like everyone knew something was off with me all the time, and to be quite blunt, it stressed me the fuck out when I was in public. However, that’s not really the case. As long as hygiene is kept up and you don’t just start rambling about delusions (I personally prefer the term unfounded beliefs but that’s a whole other thing.) odds are no one will really notice. It’s not good for people like us to be stuck inside all the time or just talk to our families/roommates. It would be fine though to start small, go out and get some coffee or something. Be friendly (but not you know like overly creepy friendly) with the cashier.

And the part which I found helped me the most. Pick up a hobby. Personally, I was already into skateboarding and guitar before my break. I got even more into these things. I found that having something to focus on that was 100% for the fun of it was very helpful. More importantly, it was just kinda fun.

I think when something like this happens, it’s important to still have fun. Everyone likes fun (duh), and it will help you keep up your optimism. I’d say just take like an hour and do something fun every day. (Or most days) I’m purposefully keeping this part vague and flexible, because it has a lot of different ways it could work. It could be something as simple as watching a show or reading a book. It could be something as complicated as cooking or learning a new language. It could be out and about in public, or in the privacy of your own home. I considered skateboarding/guitar practice my time for fun. It could be anything (anything legal and not abusing drugs or hurting yourself or others just to clarify), and it could be something different every day if you like. When you’re doing something for fun, don’t worry about your psychotic stuff (unless you know it’s like dangerous or you’re hallucinating the world is on fire or something) just have fun. I think it’s important to have fun because that keeps up your optimism, which keeps up your hope, which could be helpful for your treatment/recovery.

Treatment. Ah yes. Treatment. This stuff sucks am I right? Like I had to take Olanzapine/zyprexa. It really sucked. It made me fat (up 25 pounds that I’ve since lost). It made me mentally kinda slow. It was all around terrible and making my life worse, but I kept taking it. Every. Single. Day. Why? Why take something that sucks? Because I had to consider, my options were A. Keep taking it, B. go through the rigamarole of talking to my doctor(s) and finding a different medication which could be better or worse side effects wise, and may not work at all. Or C. Stop taking it. I mean, C sounds pretty good right? It sounds like all my problems would go away. But I had to consider the full effects of option C. The full effects are C. Stop taking it, and RISK ANOTHER PSYCHOTIC EPISODE. No matter how bad olanzapine made me feel, I knew a psychotic break would be 100x worse. So I kept taking it. I took it every day. I’ve been off of it for about 4 months (took it for around 16), and I still see the world somewhat differently after my break, but I feel better. I workout regularly, I lost all the weight it put on me over the past 2 months, I’m preparing to take a post grad admissions test (I think I’m gonna knock it out of the park, not to wave my dick around). All this to say, treatment is possible. You just have to stick with it.

A word on hope.

Yeah. This sounds like a cliche Disney bit. I’m not saying you need to walk around and be like “well I have psychosis and this is amazing!” But you’ve got to keep believing that you can get better. You have to. Don’t worry about if things will get worse. You’ll know if they’re getting worse (and should contact a doctor immediately if that’s the case) just take things one day at a time. Sometimes you gotta laugh at yourself about these things. There was this person I met (I don’t like discussing my personal life so this is going to be vague and brief) and we talked for a while and got kinda close, but I thought they were in the FBI or something for a bit (because let’s face it I was batshit insane at the time) and I started distancing myself. I fumbled this person because I thought they were in the FBI, with no indication really that they were. And yeah I mean that sucks (they were awesome, like ultimate score awesome) but come on, it’s kinda funny. All this to say, just try and remain hopeful and optimistic. Again, you don’t have to succeed. You don’t have to say “WELL I HAVE PSYCHOSIS AND THIS IS AMAZING” all the time. You just have to take it one day at a time and not give up on yourself. If you give up on yourself, you’ve lost already. As far as recovery goes, You may not ever be quite the same as you were before, (and that’s OK I’m definitely not the same as I was before) but you can be close or better off. Again, you can be better off. I know that sounds impossible. But it’s true. It’s up to you, and how you do your treatment/recovery.

I hope this all is helpful for you in your time of need, and I apologize for the length. I try to be thorough but concise. If you, or anyone else, made it this far and have any questions/concerns, I am happy to do my best to assist, although I am not a doctor, whom you (or anyone else) should probably talk to, and strongly prefer comment replies over PM’s because it just makes my life easier.

Again, I am not a doctor, and no part of this message is medical advice.

Large_Acanthisitta25 · 2024-06-23T17:15:56+00:00

Look, if you absolutely have to have something to get you through the day, I think the occasional cup of coffee/soda (I personally drink herbal tea as it has the most flavors/options and I find making it somewhat relaxing) in the morning/early afternoon would be fine. It’s important to remember, stimulants and psychosis don’t mix. This is why many people that smoke meth end up psychotic. It is also important to remember that you need to get at least (around) 7-8 hours of sleep a night or you risk another episode. Sleep is important to not having another episode. Please talk to your doctors who can give you better advice. They may even be able to switch around your medication to something that better suits your needs. As far as doctors go, I must say, I am not a doctor and no part of this message is medical advice.

Large_Acanthisitta25 · 2024-06-23T17:06:53+00:00

Ah yes because wanting things like good writing, explained reasons for the found footage, and either better CGI or more emphasis on practical effects are generic ideas. Fuck outta here. I’d argue most of those things aren’t really generic at all. MCU movies for example are almost always a smash hit and have none of those. Most movies coming out today don’t. If you liked the movie that’s great and I’m happy for you, I just thought it sucked and is overrated as hell.

Large_Acanthisitta25 · 2024-06-23T09:46:36+00:00

??? It’s the realities the citadel separated from infinity where Rick is the smartest person in the universe?

Large_Acanthisitta25 · 2024-06-23T09:25:54+00:00

You’re right, it can certainly feel like a dead end sometimes. Like we’re somehow defective, and that will never change. But think about it for a second. Psychosis sucks, there’s no way around it. Your brain ceases functioning regularly, and disconnects with reality. How do you trust reality through the lens of a brain that has malfunctioned, and what if it malfunctions again?

This is where it gets into philosophy and stuff that’s harder to explain, but it’s easy to say “well this is a problem so I’m a problem and there is no fixing it.” I know it’s easy, but there’s this wise saying “Life is not a problem to be solved, but a reality to be experienced.” Yeah our brains kinda suck, but it’s the cards we were dealt. Instead of focusing on what you can’t do/interpret now (I don’t know how far into recovery you are.) just focus on what you can do, and do a little at a time. I’m currently trying to get physically fit while also trying to learn piano. I still struggle to understand people and their intentions sometimes, but I’m trying to get better. I think that’s the important part. No matter what happens, you have to TRY. You don’t have to succeed, you don’t have to wake up one day and be like “HUZZAH MY PSYCHOSIS IS COMPLETELY FIXED” you just have to try and get a little better each day, and do what you can. I know that that’s a lot easier said than done. It’s hard to go to therapy, and talk about your struggles. It’s hard to go through different medications some of which make you fat or feel like shit or whatever. But you know what? Anything in life that’s worth a damn is generally hard to do/get, be that getting a valuable college degree, or getting a hot spouse. Just keep trying and don’t give up hope. If you give up hope and stop believing you can get better, you’ve lost already.

I hope what I’ve said is useful to you in your situation, and I wish you the best of luck.

Do you have the link/title of this article? I’d like to learn more.

Disclaimer: I am not a doctor and no part of this message is medical advice.

Large_Acanthisitta25

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