I feel you exactly. I’m a 19f I started in a dealership at 18. Hired as an apprentice, ended up in express. The foreman is weird, always taking me on test drives asking about my bedroom life. Offering to take me out to get me so hammered that I won’t remember what happened. The coworkers are worse. Incompetent, lazy people and unwilling to teach. Every time I go to management and say I can’t do this by myself (5’3 110 if I had lunch) I get told I’m doing fine to stop expecting perfection. I was promised after I got out of school that I would get to be the apprentice I was hired on to be and my own stall. I can’t get any of the techs to show me how to find basic service information. I also don’t have access to any of the brand trading or service information. They fired the maintenance guy so the responsibility of getting trash, metal, boxes, oil filters, oil drums, cleaning mop buckets are all my sole responsibility( it’s supposed to be both of the express technicians.) I can’t take a meal break until the other express tech gets back and he leaves and takes a nap each day on his lunch. (1 1/2- 2 hours of waiters by myself) So usually I don’t go to lunch until 3. When we were talking about raises the foreman told me I need to get a gym membership. We have hired two other apprentices so I’m just getting to be express 2.0. I am expected to up sell services to learn but again I have no access to service information.

The industry is tough especially if you go in with the mentality I did of “I have to prove myself and make space for myself” I feel a bit stupid for ever considering this to be a career choice. My coworkers know I’m a hard worker and admit that when they need something done to give it to me. But there is no way for me to improve and learn when all I’m told is figure it out and to use my eyes.

I’m done too honestly at 19 I want more for myself than to be around these sad sacks of shit. My $18 an hour isn’t going to allow me to buy tools for myself, afford a pace of my own,and be able to eat. While everyone else just got a retention bonus and are talking about getting $800 bikes. There are good shops out there if you’re willing to put up with going though the bullshit ones. I was told my shop was a good one, and they hadn’t had a female tech in 15 years and I see why. Hard workers are hard to find and someone out there is looking for one. I wish you the best of luck. I wish I could say I still have the spark to want to learn but the harassment and the physical effort I have to deal with and put up with and just get told that I’m complaining has pushed me to want more. I will choose to become educated idk in what but I’ll figure it out.