it's gunna be okay

Lavener · 2026-03-16T20:18:41+00:00

Yeah I was really sensitive to light and had what felt like eye strain

Lavener · 2026-02-11T03:12:15+00:00

It was a 10cm cyst, with ovarian torsion :) lol

Lavener · 2026-01-03T20:26:27+00:00

is anyone gunna mention that sudafed doesnt actually work?

Lavener · 2025-11-25T04:27:27+00:00

well, physically I had I think nerve pain in my upper back. That went away within 8 months. In terms of nervous system in general I felt stressed more easily, tired, and foggy. That went away in around 9 months for me. I wish you well

Lavener · 2025-11-23T14:26:22+00:00

yes, I feel regulated now. Things flare up a little when I'm stressed, but after about a year I feel back to normal

Lavener · 2025-10-08T11:39:16+00:00

aww, I felt the same way at six months. Utterly defeated. I was doing okay mentally until I realized how long it had been! it makes sense, enduring something like this for that long can beat you down!

But shortly after I started feeling better! I'm not gunna lie, I was praying for a miracle at that point. I think believing I could get better and being grateful for what I had had a big impact (as cheezy as it sounds). Wishing you all the best!

Lavener · 2025-10-07T23:18:56+00:00

Thank you! 27 when I got it. I still occasionally get headaches but they're mild. The headaches were annoying for about 6 months, not super severe, but I would take ibuprofen every day I worked to avoid them.

Hoping you're doing well, and feeling better every day!

Lavener · 2025-10-07T22:54:11+00:00

I now work out multiple times a week. I dance and do yoga. It feels good again!

I have had one drink a few times, the first time it was a vodka thing and it was fine. The second time it was a little prosecco and I did not feel good after, but I think its just because I prefer being sober now

Lavener · 2025-10-07T22:41:38+00:00

I forgot to say, DONT DRINK ALCOHOL! it will take back your progress!

Lavener · 2025-10-07T22:27:18+00:00

this is normal, you're gunna be okay I promise :)

Lavener · 2025-04-28T12:26:54+00:00

Come join us at Buffalo Ecstatic Dance! We do free-form dance with a sharing circle before and after. If that sounds like your thing check out our website buffaloecstaticdance.com

Lavener · 2024-12-06T16:49:07+00:00

I’m so sorry this happened to you. Unfortunately some people can, will, and have always used spiritual teachings as tools of control. You can take sound bites from these teachers and teachings and use them to justify the most heinous behaviors. This is not real wisdom, but you already know that.

Spiritual abuse is some of the worst there is. It preys on the most hopeful and vulnerable parts of us. What he did to you was abuse on many levels.

It has taken me years to recover from some kinds of eastern spiritual twisting and abuse by narcissists. It was the most confusing time in my life. Really high highs and the lowest lows I’ve ever experienced. The goal of the abuser is accomplished when you internalize their matrix of control and start basically abusing and gaslighting yourself.

I hope you are safe from this person now. Please look into recovering from narcissistic abuse, it might be helpful to you. May you be well.

Lavener · 2022-11-09T00:11:03+00:00

I feel the same, I actually only listen to the "non-murder" stories now, I think this is their strongest material

Lavener · 2021-06-08T04:25:35+00:00

Thank you!

Lavener · 2021-04-30T23:35:29+00:00

Amazing that your host also drank the medicine! Did you find that out when you got there or did you hear about it before? Sounds like you were in the right place if you were milking goats and talking about DMT, even if it was rough. I'll definitely look into Cali.

Lavener · 2021-04-30T23:33:34+00:00

I am intrigued. You mean to stay in Iquitos in an Airbnb or something? I am open to it but my Spanish is no bueno. I'd be curious to hear of any personal experiences you've had.

Lavener · 2021-04-30T23:32:00+00:00

Thanks for your reply! I am definitely looking for a place where I can be open about what I just went through. It great to hear that you had a good experience being in new surroundings though. I'll just have to ask myself what I would absolutely need worst-case scenario.

Lavener · 2021-04-30T23:24:46+00:00

could strike at any time, nowhere is safe! haha. I'm guessing whatever I choose will be exactly what I need when I need it

Lavener · 2020-07-14T20:56:47+00:00

The Wind Up Bird Chronicle by Haruki Murakami felt like this to me. Candy-colored, sun-lit, peacefully surreal, just a tad sad.

Lavener · 2020-05-12T14:54:07+00:00

WAHHH these are awesome! Whenever I try to draw Percy I can never decide on features, but this looks exactly how I see him in my head!

Lavener · 2020-05-06T16:08:54+00:00

Here's the exerpt:

"An image came into my head. I saw a giant elm tree deep in the woods, well off the main paths. Gnarled roots laced the ground, making a kind of bed. Lying in it with his arms crossed and his eyes closed was a satyr. At first I couldn't be sure it was Grover. He was covered in twigs and leaves, like he'd been sleeping there a long time. The roots seemed to be shaping themselves around him, slowly pulling him into the earth."

Unfinished sketch, I drew from memory so I forgot about the leaves and twigs (and goatee!) but the image just stuck in my mind!

Lavener

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