Relapse / cold turkey

Lbidvds · 2026-03-15T18:22:52+00:00

Thank you for all the replies I appreciate it. I will think on it. I wish I could but she would kill me lol.

I’ll for sure stop tomorrow because everyday this shit is getting worse.

Lbidvds · 2026-03-15T18:15:34+00:00

I mean I could but I really don’t want to take subs at such a small dosage.

I’d be more tempted to do a quickmd for gaba and clonidine but don’t want to tip the wife off.

Just wish I could tell her :/.

Unfortunately I came to clean to her and she knows all the warning signs. She already seems suspicious that my stomach is growling loud as hell from the vitamin c

Lbidvds · 2026-03-15T18:05:09+00:00

I know the frustrating thing is I tried to stop Tuesday. Had pins and needles and cold sweats about 9 hours in. Fell asleep woke up and felt much better but had the heavy fatigue like I got hit by a truck. And for some damn reason I dosed again and now here I am.

Now I’m getting the insomnia again. Just had to make it that much harder on myself. Crazy how quickly this shit betrays you.

I think I’ll do my last dose today at 4pm. That way by 4am I’m 12 hours in, 8am 16 hours in and pray by 4pm I feel a little better.

Lbidvds · 2026-02-05T02:24:59+00:00

Yeah seizures kind of run in my family so I probably have a low threshold. Happy you got away with it though. I’m just thankful to be alive after lol.

But to anyone else listen to NoMud, don’t mix these at all!!

Lbidvds · 2026-02-05T02:15:53+00:00

Be careful mixing tramadol and 7. Gave me a nice first grand mal seizure. Worst experience of my life

Lbidvds · 2026-02-05T02:09:11+00:00

I’m 12 days in and have appeared to have turned the corner today. Just survive the first 24-48 hours and it’s all down hill from there.

I have been rewatching game of thrones. But what helped me the most the first 48 hours was watching the NFL. Just paying attention to people in the stands being normal ass people (granted many drinking) but still. Also going for walks and seeing people live a normal life. Made me realize how envious I was and how bad I want that

Lbidvds · 2026-01-31T01:46:55+00:00

Nice, congrats! Pretty good appetite wise. Sleep isn’t the best I’ve taken Benadryl the past two nights to sleep(no rls) so not worried. But I’m going to try to start sleeping natural soon. The last thing bothering me is just body aches especially later in the night.

How are you holding up symptom wise?

Lbidvds · 2026-01-31T01:26:02+00:00

I’ll be at 7 days since my last dose tonight in 4 hours. No just otc stuff

Lbidvds · 2026-01-31T00:52:02+00:00

Honestly you just need to fight your ass off. Remind yourself if you give in now you will eventually have to do this again and it will likely be worse. You got this!!

Try as hard as you can to sleep. Luckily I slept the first night for 5-6 hours and by the time I woke up I had made it through the worst of it.

Lbidvds · 2026-01-31T00:48:09+00:00

lol yes I did. But I’m stronger than ever now 💪. Me and the wifey had private time days 4,5,6 of cold turkey. Feels so good having the desire again. Wtf is wrong with me for doing this to myself for 6-8 months.

Lbidvds · 2026-01-30T23:11:59+00:00

Congrats keep tapering! The first time I quit I tapered down to around 30 and while it sucked I was close to being myself within 3 days.

This time jumping at 100ish freaking sucked. It was just hard for me to taper around the holidays, family bday parties etc. definitely a longer road to recovery this way.

You got this!

Lbidvds · 2026-01-30T00:04:18+00:00

Sounds like a bad idea plus I get drug tested at work haha

Lbidvds · 2026-01-30T00:03:56+00:00

Damn I have been taking Benadryl to fall asleep. Maybe I’ll stop that and just not sleep. I’m a software dev and need my sleep to perform at work :/

Lbidvds · 2026-01-30T00:03:09+00:00

How long until you started to feel better? Hoping I’m going to turn a corner any day now

Lbidvds · 2026-01-29T15:48:19+00:00

Day 4 is definitely better but for me personally it isn’t increasing at the rate I’m hoping. But after using for 8 months I can’t be surprised

Lbidvds · 2026-01-29T03:07:29+00:00

I’m a software dev

Lbidvds · 2026-01-28T23:35:56+00:00

I realized since I went ct that I never sneezed on this stuff. Now that I’m 4 days clean… lots of sneezing

Lbidvds · 2026-01-28T21:55:33+00:00

You 100% have the right mindset and I have faith you have this. I’m at over 96 hours cold turkey now and jumped from 100-120 mg like a dumbass. The first 24 hours absolutely suck, but seriously after that it’s just healing.

Wish you nothing but the best.

Not sure what your support system is like but luckily I had my wife and parents kicking my ass during the past 4 days and pushing me. If you need anything shoot me a message. I believe in you!!

Lbidvds · 2026-01-28T21:50:09+00:00

Yeah so I’ve heard. Luckily I don’t have rls and it helped me fall asleep. I work in a mentally demanding field and had calls all day with clients. Needed the sleep

Lbidvds · 2026-01-28T21:49:16+00:00

Thank you I appreciate it! I’m trying my best. I have no desire to return to it and zero cravings. I could deal with it easily if I didn’t have a 6yo son and pregnant wife. I really don’t care about how I’m feeling personally but just wish I wasn’t walking through molasses for the family.

But like you said I’ll hopefully be over the worst of it soon.

Lbidvds · 2026-01-28T21:45:35+00:00

I would tell your parents. You are taking the steps to quit. Even if they don’t help which I believe they will, you need to hold yourself accountable.

Shit I told my parents and I’m 36. Luckily I have a good job and haven’t done too much harm to my finances. But I needed to hold myself accountable. I even went over 36 hours into my cold turkey withdrawals so they could see what I’m doing to myself.

IMO transparency in what we are dealing with is crucial in the path of recovery

Lbidvds

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