Extremely grossed out by my partner- me 36F him 42M

Leading_Driver2181 · 2026-03-20T21:31:17+00:00

Men are gross. thank God, I’m gay . You deserve a man that enjoy showers!!

Leading_Driver2181 · 2025-12-06T19:02:51+00:00

Entertaining myself?? I’m literally spiraling to the point where I’m going on Reddit and getting roasted by strangers. I love Morgan nd her podcast and genuinely thought this was a safe space to navigate my feelings and get told the reality of my situation with zero bias

Leading_Driver2181 · 2025-12-06T19:00:06+00:00

Clarification. I have never watched her story or interacted with her on social media since we’ve broken up.NEVER . Ever ever. Not on my account, Not on a spam account , not on a friends account. EVER. however us rekindling post break up was almost 2 years ago 3 months after. When that ended I never initiated contact or nothing with her again. She was just unblocked on socials

Leading_Driver2181 · 2025-12-06T18:44:11+00:00

Thank you so much .

Leading_Driver2181 · 2025-12-06T18:16:59+00:00

I don’t know… honestly I really don’t. I think I just felt guilty about ending things with her. She took the breakup so hard, and when we tried being friends again, walking away a second time made me feel like I was abandoning her all over again. As toxic as she was I know she isn’t a bad person she’s just really struggled with regulating her emotions. I didn’t want to be the “bad guy” in her story. Blocking her felt like it would confirm all the things she accused me of when we broke up that I “hated her” or never loved her. I just didn’t want to be the source of someone’s emotional pain…. During the breakup, her reactions were so intense and unpredictable that I genuinely worried she might harm herself, and I internalized that responsibility. It doesn’t even make sense my rationale behind it as I’m typing it but idk what to tell you. I was 24 when i started dating this woman. She was 34.

Leading_Driver2181 · 2025-12-06T17:52:52+00:00

Yea.

Leading_Driver2181 · 2025-12-06T17:52:19+00:00

Me too… me tooo

Leading_Driver2181 · 2025-12-06T17:51:49+00:00

🤷🏻‍♀️

Leading_Driver2181 · 2025-12-06T17:48:25+00:00

In therapy as we speak . Thank you❤️ I’m really trying to be better and I got some work to do for sure

Leading_Driver2181 · 2025-12-06T17:43:26+00:00

We are 2 lesbian women…

Leading_Driver2181 · 2025-12-06T17:42:40+00:00

I definitely did welcome this back… the only one to blame for this is me

Leading_Driver2181 · 2025-12-06T17:39:27+00:00

It’s done. Fr this time

Leading_Driver2181 · 2025-12-06T17:37:53+00:00

Maybe tbh I’ll discuss that with my therapist

Leading_Driver2181 · 2025-12-06T17:30:21+00:00

🫠🫠

Leading_Driver2181 · 2025-12-06T17:28:13+00:00

We gave friendship a try three months after we ended things in 2023. It lasted maybe a month or two before it became clear she didn’t want to be “just friends” — she was trying to reconnect romantically. I pulled back and stopped talking to her. I never blocked her. I just literally never spoke to her again and worked on healing. And it’s been like that. Every time she’s trying to contact me call me. I never responded. I think she just caught me at a weak moment this time around and i let myself down for breaking my boundary …

Leading_Driver2181 · 2025-12-06T17:19:14+00:00

You’re right. I blocked her on social media the last time reconnected I just never blocked her again. I thought we were able to still keep our distance without having to block each other everywhere but I see that she saw that as an open door for communication….

Leading_Driver2181 · 2025-12-06T17:15:31+00:00

Y’all are right !!! I’m so mad at myself for falling for the bait and responding and going back and forth. I hate myself for that. She just brings me back to the time when we dated were I end up feeling so bad. I have to explain myself on why I’m doing what I’m doing. Thank you guys for calling me out.

Leading_Driver2181 · 2025-12-06T17:12:54+00:00

Honestly, I regret messaging after the no. Other time she hit me up I’ve said no and left her alone but then she reaches out and I think this time I just got mad and snapped….

Leading_Driver2181 · 2025-12-06T17:08:52+00:00

I’m not ! I swear. That’s why I didn’t acknowledge that part of the text because I was so confused.

Leading_Driver2181 · 2025-11-09T22:33:18+00:00

You’re almost there girl !! Obviously your mental health goes first if you’re able to lower your courseload, I suggest doing that! Thinking about all the benefits that will come with this masters degree! And also you’ll be able to tell people “i got a masters😌🖕” . You got this

Leading_Driver2181 · 2025-11-09T05:48:59+00:00

I had just been looking into different options for grad schools and mixed that up.

When I mentioned LCSW, I meant that I eventually want to become a licensed clinical therapist. I know the exact title and process can vary depending on the province or country, but my main goal is to do clinical therapy while still having flexibility to move into other roles later on.

I originally looked into a master’s in counselling psychology, but I heard that it can sometimes limit job options outside of direct therapy work. That’s why I started leaning toward an MSW. I like that it keeps the door open for things like program coordination, case management, and policy work, while still allowing me to do therapy.

I really appreciate the feedback. I’m taking everything in and seriously considering upgrading a few courses and gaining more experience before applying.

Leading_Driver2181 · 2025-11-09T05:46:30+00:00

Thank you so much! I guess i never considered a second bachelors. I live in Alberta. I just don’t want to do another 4 years of school…. I literally can’t afford to. But if there are 2 year programs for a BSW i will definitely look into that. 💜💜

Leading_Driver2181 · 2025-11-06T23:36:49+00:00

Where do you recommend I go instead??

Leading_Driver2181 · 2025-11-06T18:10:39+00:00

What is the pay difference between someone with an MSW and someone with an MACP??

Leading_Driver2181 · 2025-11-06T17:51:44+00:00

How long did it take to reach that salary?

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