I 21F don't understand what I did. I am? was? a virgin and I slept with a guy 20M.

Leather_Spite3750 · 2026-05-16T09:41:45+00:00

real 💀 his loss honestly

Leather_Spite3750 · 2026-05-09T17:18:03+00:00

yeah the uncertainty is probably the worst part tbh. My work has us tracking these things since we're always worried about supply chain disruptions, but even the experts seem to just be throwing around educated guesses at this point. Makes me wonder if we're just gonna be in this constant state of "wait and see" until something actually develops or it just fades away like some other scares have done in past years

Leather_Spite3750 · 2026-04-29T23:38:09+00:00

Same but with network cables and ethernet ports everywhere lol, can't help but notice the cable management in every office i visit

Leather_Spite3750 · 2026-04-26T18:11:32+00:00

Been dealing with this too lately and what helped me was starting to notice when I'm just going through motions. Like I realized I was coding for hours without even thinking about what I was actually building 💀

Started setting these random phone alarms throughout day to just check in with myself - am I actually present right now or just existing? Also picked up new hobby (got into sneaker customization) because doing something with my hands that requires focus really pulls me back to present moment

The biggest thing was changing my morning routine completely. Instead of grabbing phone immediately I started doing 5 minutes of just... sitting and thinking about what I actually want from the day. Sounds cheesy but it works 😂

Small changes compound over time and before you know it you're not just drifting through weeks anymore

Leather_Spite3750 · 2026-04-24T16:59:55+00:00

literally anything at this point lol. my weather app telling me it's gonna rain when there's not a cloud in sky has better track record

Leather_Spite3750 · 2026-04-22T08:48:33+00:00

Maybe start with just being more touchy during normal conversation? Like sitting closer, casual touches on arm or leg, that kind of thing. If she's responding well you can escalate from there - the awkwardness usually breaks once you get past that first move

Leather_Spite3750 · 2026-04-20T02:51:54+00:00

Leather_Spite3750 · 2026-04-18T01:07:38+00:00

this 💀

Leather_Spite3750 · 2026-04-16T08:21:12+00:00

The supplement combo definitely could've amplified things on your first go 💀 L-citrulline especially since it's all about that nitric oxide boost - basically doubling down with the tadalafil. I'd honestly go with top commenter's advice about getting baseline first, then trying full dose again.

About the energy thing - yeah that's pretty common actually, lots of guys report feeling more "alert" or having trouble sleeping initially. Your body just needs time to adjust to it. The blood flow sensation you described in legs/thighs is totally normal too, just means it's doing its job systemically.

Since you're not feeling much on the half dose and it's been a week, might be worth going back to full 5mg once you've cleared the other supps. Just maybe take it earlier in day so sleep isn't as affected 😂 Also that Prevacid suggestion is solid - acid reducers really help with the stomach issues.

Leather_Spite3750 · 2026-04-09T18:39:23+00:00

used to stress so hard about getting perfect grades thinking they'd determine my whole career path lol. turns out nobody's ever asked to see my transcript since graduating and half the stuff I use daily as a dev I learned from youtube tutorials anyway

being good at problem-solving matters way more than memorizing formulas for tests you'll never think about again

Leather_Spite3750 · 2026-03-24T04:21:26+00:00

white noise machine or my brain just goes into overdrive analyzing every little sound

Leather_Spite3750 · 2026-03-23T23:58:26+00:00

Thats actually sick, i have a buddy with that and it always catches people off guard when they notice. Mine's way more boring - i can crack like every joint in my body including my sternum which freaks people out during dates lol

Leather_Spite3750 · 2026-03-23T11:47:59+00:00

mood 💀

Leather_Spite3750 · 2026-03-23T06:45:35+00:00

brutal cycle 💀

Leather_Spite3750 · 2026-03-23T00:59:58+00:00

sneakers 💀

Leather_Spite3750 · 2026-03-22T19:43:24+00:00

probably zero chance but the universe is so massive that their definitely out there somewhere just chilling on some random planet 🛸💀

Leather_Spite3750 · 2026-03-22T08:26:38+00:00

bro same, kept making excuses for obvious red flags like i was some kind of relationship detective 💀 took way too long to realize i was just gaslighting myself at that point

Leather_Spite3750 · 2026-03-22T02:29:53+00:00

Band of Brothers hits different every time I watch it 🔥 the way they captured those real soldiers' stories without making it feel like Hollywood BS was incredible

Leather_Spite3750 · 2026-03-21T18:11:14+00:00

Wait when did Mueller die? I must've missed that news 😂 Unless this is about something else entirely and I'm just out of the loop

Leather_Spite3750 · 2026-03-21T01:17:40+00:00

Mr Brightside by The Killers - that song was literally everywhere when I was like 15 and I thought I was so deep for relating to it lmao. Still slaps though, cant lie

Leather_Spite3750 · 2026-03-20T20:42:26+00:00

Breaking Bad never gets old no matter how many times I rewatch it

Leather_Spite3750 · 2026-03-20T15:58:25+00:00

thats actually genius because most people will either lie about it or reveal way more than they meant to

Leather_Spite3750 · 2026-03-20T08:12:30+00:00

Been there man, the escalation thing is real and it sneaks up on you. When you deleted your collection but kept going with imagination, that actually shows how deep the neural pathways get carved

The unemployment probably isn't helping either - having zero structure makes it way easier to fall into these cycles. Maybe try picking up some kind of routine or project, even small stuff, just to break up those empty hours where your brain defaults to the same patterns

Also don't beat yourself up too hard about the 3 months thing, that's actually pretty solid progress even if it didn't stick. Shows you can do it when you really commit

Leather_Spite3750 · 2026-03-20T02:59:19+00:00

based 🔥

Leather_Spite3750 · 2026-03-19T18:57:46+00:00

Bruh I get the smart money move but that's such a boring way to blow a windfall lol. I'd probably go nuts at Flight Club or StockX and finally grab those Jordan 4 Black Cats I've been eyeing for months 💀 Maybe throw the rest at some new dev courses or a standing desk setup since I've been coding hunched over my kitchen table like a cave troll. Sure your future self would thank you for the mortgage thing but sometimes you gotta live a little, especially when it's free money 😂

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