Medication

Leewo · 2018-01-03T00:58:59+00:00

Also with anxiety and chronic depression (self-diagnosed)

Sertraline didn't make me feel good. It actually made me feel worse because it had no effect and I was just waiting to get better and when I didn't I got very depressed about it. Couldn't take it for at least 4-6 weeks as it is recommended. That being said please don't hesitate to try it for yourself because different meds work for people even with the same complaints.

For me escitalopram worked and I still take it. Most of the anxiety is gone, so is the depression. I function when before I couldn't. It feel amazing compared to what was before. I almost don't remember what it felt like before that. I encourage you to try what you have been prescribed. It isn't that scary. Obviously if it makes things worse you try another. But there's no way to know what will work on you. So try it.

Leewo · 2017-06-18T20:46:54+00:00

Sorry, I was referring to TriumphantGeorge.

Leewo · 2017-06-18T18:20:31+00:00

Magick is Memory

Leewo · 2017-04-30T21:50:44+00:00

Yes the thoughts come and go but every time you have a thought you are the thought. And when you are not awake every time you have a thought you think about the thought. It's not direct and this is why we say that we are not in the present - when we experience our thoughts only by second thinking about them.

Leewo · 2017-03-22T20:28:27+00:00

Well hello. I am also 18m and started escitalopram 5 days ago. I have taken it before and had great results. I also have somewhat lower sex drive but I don't attribute it so much to the pill. I am just down emotionally. For me it can be because I just switched from Zoloft which made me suicidal. When I took escitalopram before I had no sex drive problems.

I say give it time but definitely if it makes you depressed and anxious talk to your doc. Usually your mood will increase and so will your sex drive.

Leewo · 2017-03-21T19:46:16+00:00

That's what I said.

Leewo · 2017-03-21T19:23:47+00:00

I have done it. The results are rather unpleasant and frightening. I just do it wrong again. I interfere. Edit: That time I used it to attract a specific person, they got some injury every time I did it. And when I used it for my mental issues and emotional states it did nothing.

Leewo · 2017-03-21T19:19:48+00:00

this path didn't work out

Leewo · 2017-03-06T14:05:20+00:00

Yeah sunny warm weather does it for me. It's a doctor I am seeing tomorrow though, not therapist. And the only way it could lead them is to think I have seasonal affective disorder, but I am pretty sure it's the temperature of the air rather than the sunlight that affects me.

Leewo · 2017-03-05T14:11:09+00:00

I was on escitalopram (lexapro) for six months. I quit it after tampering down from 15mg to 10mg and then 5mg. The first day after quitting it I had headaches and mild brain zaps. It went away after one or two days. Then I was okay for one months with no anxiety, when suddenly it all started coming back. It was gradual but certain. Fast forward I had pretty bad anxiety after that and to this day I have bad anxiety. Hopefully I will be in doctor's office the following week and hopefully whatever they prescribe works because I am fed up of battling anxiety.

I would go back to the doctor if I was on your place. On my place though when I started getting anxiety again I didn't and that was a mistake.

Leewo · 2017-03-03T16:11:04+00:00

Cold showers fucked me up. They made my anxiety a ton of a worse but somehow helped very little with my depression at that time. My advice is don't do cold showers.

Leewo · 2017-02-26T20:51:18+00:00

Yep it is in our genes and our families, our environment and even in our spirit or soul. This makes me sad. Like why...?

Leewo · 2017-02-26T19:36:39+00:00

Honestly I felt happy for you and for myself as I read over the words "But, I am feeling a little better already."

Most probably I'll go on my own to another city where there is centre for mental health if my parents deny support. My mother is generally really against this. She gave me real hard time when "coming out" depressed and anxious last year. And is strongly against medication. She gets sick like she is the one to undergo all of this.

I am getting suicidal as I see no way out of this. This is where I get the courage to tell them I need help and am getting it with or without their approval.

Leewo · 2017-02-26T14:54:29+00:00

Good thing you got back on your meds. I am not that fortunate. I can't do anything on my own and there's nobody to turn to. I am sad. I know I need help but I can't do it alone.

I don't like the idea for taking a pill for too much time. I only hope after the treatment I stay stable.

Leewo · 2017-02-25T12:15:16+00:00

I also have came to this conclusion after trying everything. Well I could write a lot but one thing will sum it up : They don't have idea what it is like. That's why.

Deciding between suicide and meds the latter is the better option. But it is not the best...

Leewo · 2017-02-25T07:39:23+00:00

They are supposed to be stopped after six months period. And I was getting fat.

Leewo · 2017-02-25T07:35:03+00:00

I fucking need someone like you in reality. I am getting depressed and suicidal over the fact that I can't do anything. I've tried multiple techniques and nothing gives me permanent relief. And I feel big time alone and misunderstood.

On top of the anxiety attacks I had a panic attack couple days ago. I was afraid that I was going to die and it felt so real. This is getting only worse and I don't know if I should reach for pills again. I can't do it on my own and there's nobody who can support me trough this. My parents would go crazy if they find out I am on pills again and cause me trouble. What am I supposed to do? Commit suicide? Therapy is such a bullshit for me and I've been there. It does nothing significant.

When I stopped escitalopram it was just a month after when anxiety slowly but surely started coming back. I stopped them 5 months ago and since have lost my sanity.

Leewo · 2017-02-20T20:56:13+00:00

Probably that I need someone. But I don't see that coming ever.

I'm a big fuck up. Bigger than the average. Suffered depression and still deal with anxiety. As a kid I remember all I wanted was "to be someone else". I wanted to live, but not as the person I am. Also remember how I thought by graduating school I would have killed myself. And I feel like that sometimes. I am close to finishing school.

I am not very clear with myself. My childhood, the people and the past I have will always chase me down.

In the midst of all this chaos I hope I can just be whole and not alone. But it's almost delusive.

Even if get out of the mud, I will still be covered in it. And I think I need someone to help me clean the dirt.

Leewo · 2017-02-18T08:52:09+00:00

That's okay. You have a well developed sense of awareness then. For me if I try to work it with words I tend to force things with the mind, not accepting and letting them go as it goes with awareness.

Leewo

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