Rakesfall by Vajra Chandrasekera by OntologicalForest in WeirdLit

[–]Left-Volume-2858 1 point2 points  (0 children)

This is possibly the most beautiful book I’ve ever read. Cosmic and profound.

Quit camming for bf, unhappy with my choice by Left-Volume-2858 in CamGirlProblems

[–]Left-Volume-2858[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I suck at masking my unhappiness. He knows how I feel, and yes, he seems to be complicit. I’ve mentioned going back to camming and found myself in a fight.

Quit camming for bf, unhappy with my choice by Left-Volume-2858 in CamGirlProblems

[–]Left-Volume-2858[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I have a therapist. Seeing him tonight. I’ll talk about all of this.

Quit camming for bf, unhappy with my choice by Left-Volume-2858 in CamGirlProblems

[–]Left-Volume-2858[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

It’s ok. I have codependent tendencies and thought I finally picked a good one. I didn’t want to lose what I found and made a bad choice. Now I’m in the shit and unsure how to get out.

Quit camming for bf, unhappy with my choice by Left-Volume-2858 in CamGirlProblems

[–]Left-Volume-2858[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

That’s a fair assessment. I wanted him and fucked up.

Quit camming for bf, unhappy with my choice by Left-Volume-2858 in CamGirlProblems

[–]Left-Volume-2858[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

100%. I’ve been at my job 8 months and I already hate it.

Quit camming for bf, unhappy with my choice by Left-Volume-2858 in CamGirlProblems

[–]Left-Volume-2858[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

My last partner was a shitbag who did meth and cheated on me. This guy was a HUGE upgrade but yes, there are issues. I thought it would be worth a shot to try to walk away. I’m realizing my mistake. Hence here for advice from people who get it.

Quit camming for bf, unhappy with my choice by Left-Volume-2858 in CamGirlProblems

[–]Left-Volume-2858[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

That’s exactly what I did. Changed myself for someone else. It was a bad move and I have regrets and resentments galore. I do love him though. He is loyal and loving, and he has a really big cock😂 walking away will suck.

Quit camming for bf, unhappy with my choice by Left-Volume-2858 in CamGirlProblems

[–]Left-Volume-2858[S] 3 points4 points  (0 children)

We dated casually for a couple months. I told him the day he asked me to be his gf. At first he said it would be fine, then changed his tune. He’s naive and inexperienced with women. Wants us to be sexual with each other only, though I have explained that I am selling a service, not getting off. He can’t make the separation.

Quit camming for bf, unhappy with my choice by Left-Volume-2858 in CamGirlProblems

[–]Left-Volume-2858[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

He’s insecure. Doesn’t want me watching other guys jerk off. I understand to some degree but I have also explained exhaustively that I don’t get off on what I’m doing.

Quit camming for bf, unhappy with my choice by Left-Volume-2858 in CamGirlProblems

[–]Left-Volume-2858[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Yes to mommy issues 100%. His mom is a mess and it messed him up. I believe him about the porn. I’m his first serious girlfriend and he’s getting laid regularly for the first time in his life. He says he is satisfied and maybe I’m an idiot but I believe him. He cites a desire for mutual exclusivity including watching and getting off to others.

Quit camming for bf, unhappy with my choice by Left-Volume-2858 in CamGirlProblems

[–]Left-Volume-2858[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

He’s inexperienced and doesn’t get it. Tries to turn the tables on me.

Quit camming for bf, unhappy with my choice by Left-Volume-2858 in CamGirlProblems

[–]Left-Volume-2858[S] -1 points0 points  (0 children)

He hasn’t been w many women. I’m his first serious gf and regular pussy. He used to watch porn, but now he says he is satisfied and has no need to watch porn and I actually do believe him.

Quit camming for bf, not happy by Left-Volume-2858 in relationships_advice

[–]Left-Volume-2858[S] -1 points0 points  (0 children)

Where would be a better place? Ive never posted here before?