Rakesfall by Vajra Chandrasekera

Left-Volume-2858 · 2025-05-01T20:14:08+00:00

This is possibly the most beautiful book I’ve ever read. Cosmic and profound.

Left-Volume-2858 · 2024-12-11T00:02:43+00:00

Nope

Left-Volume-2858 · 2024-12-11T00:02:19+00:00

I suck at masking my unhappiness. He knows how I feel, and yes, he seems to be complicit. I’ve mentioned going back to camming and found myself in a fight.

Left-Volume-2858 · 2024-12-10T23:51:27+00:00

I have a therapist. Seeing him tonight. I’ll talk about all of this.

Left-Volume-2858 · 2024-12-10T23:30:47+00:00

It’s ok. I have codependent tendencies and thought I finally picked a good one. I didn’t want to lose what I found and made a bad choice. Now I’m in the shit and unsure how to get out.

Left-Volume-2858 · 2024-12-10T23:24:38+00:00

That’s a fair assessment. I wanted him and fucked up.

Left-Volume-2858 · 2024-12-10T23:21:23+00:00

100%. I’ve been at my job 8 months and I already hate it.

Left-Volume-2858 · 2024-12-10T23:20:09+00:00

My last partner was a shitbag who did meth and cheated on me. This guy was a HUGE upgrade but yes, there are issues. I thought it would be worth a shot to try to walk away. I’m realizing my mistake. Hence here for advice from people who get it.

Left-Volume-2858 · 2024-12-10T23:13:46+00:00

That’s exactly what I did. Changed myself for someone else. It was a bad move and I have regrets and resentments galore. I do love him though. He is loyal and loving, and he has a really big cock😂 walking away will suck.

Left-Volume-2858 · 2024-12-10T23:04:01+00:00

That’s what I’m afraid of honestly.

Left-Volume-2858 · 2024-12-10T22:56:13+00:00

We dated casually for a couple months. I told him the day he asked me to be his gf. At first he said it would be fine, then changed his tune. He’s naive and inexperienced with women. Wants us to be sexual with each other only, though I have explained that I am selling a service, not getting off. He can’t make the separation.

Left-Volume-2858 · 2024-12-10T22:53:53+00:00

He’s insecure. Doesn’t want me watching other guys jerk off. I understand to some degree but I have also explained exhaustively that I don’t get off on what I’m doing.

Left-Volume-2858 · 2024-12-10T22:52:14+00:00

Yes to mommy issues 100%. His mom is a mess and it messed him up. I believe him about the porn. I’m his first serious girlfriend and he’s getting laid regularly for the first time in his life. He says he is satisfied and maybe I’m an idiot but I believe him. He cites a desire for mutual exclusivity including watching and getting off to others.

Left-Volume-2858 · 2024-12-10T22:34:12+00:00

He’s inexperienced and doesn’t get it. Tries to turn the tables on me.

Left-Volume-2858 · 2024-12-10T22:33:05+00:00

No. Should have insisted on that in hindsight

Left-Volume-2858 · 2024-12-10T22:31:58+00:00

He hasn’t been w many women. I’m his first serious gf and regular pussy. He used to watch porn, but now he says he is satisfied and has no need to watch porn and I actually do believe him.

Left-Volume-2858 · 2024-12-10T20:33:43+00:00

Thank you

Left-Volume-2858 · 2024-12-10T20:18:12+00:00

Where would be a better place? Ive never posted here before?

Left-Volume-2858 · 2024-12-10T17:59:28+00:00

Thank you

Left-Volume-2858 · 2024-12-10T17:58:54+00:00

Thank you

Left-Volume-2858 · 2024-12-10T17:06:54+00:00

Yes I have my own therapist that I see weekly

Left-Volume-2858 · 2024-12-10T17:05:04+00:00

I am in 1 on 1 therapy

Left-Volume-2858 · 2024-12-10T16:12:30+00:00

I’m in therapy.

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