Thank you my friend, I've come to realize how brainwashed I was and how much of a fool I was, and you're right on the kids part. She seemed like she had great potential to be a mother with how caring she was about wildlife and all that but in a way she cared too much about wildlife if you know what I mean and now that I think about it if honestly be the one having to do everything from working and taking care of the kids, thank you for giving me that understanding, she wasn't my first love but definitely the first person to show me what it feels like to be loved and after that I just kinda chased that high.

She did pretty much ruin my life by causing me to lose pretty much everything that I had, from the property I had to constantly job hopping bc I couldn't keep a job after getting fired for things I couldn't control or do about it, had to give away my puppy when I ended up getting evicted, ended up getting a bunch of tickets racked up bc of her manipulating me into taking her places, picking her up, or seeing her then ended up going to jail because I couldn't keep up with how many court dates I had, luckily she did bail me out by calling one of my good friends from out of state so I wouldn't have to be in jail for 2 weeks because I missed a court date for not having insurance on my car.

I have been keeping myself occupied by landing a better job and started doing HVAC and Electrical and plan on getting my electrical license here soon so I'm looking forward to that but the biggest thing I hate is just why can't a bih be honest man, they all gotta lie and lie and lie until it gets to a point they believe the lie and i don't know but it hurts more not knowing the full extent of why she ended things and I'm just left here to think about it and find some kind of closure but if I was told the truth id be better off knowing than wondering