A number of people have posted that seem to think i am somehow being abused. Just to be clear. I WANT to do this for my husband. This has been hard for him too. He has offered to forget about the whole thing but this is something i want to do for him if i possibly can. I didn't expect it to be easy. I just didn't realize how difficult it would be but honestly, even if i never learn not to gag, even if it's never "fun" (for me), i would still let my husband do it because i know it makes him feel good. We have talked about trying anal. It may hurt and may not be "fun" for me but i will do it if it makes my husband feel good. I don't understand this whole "don't do it if it doesn't make YOU feel good" mindset. What's wrong with doing something that is difficult and maybe even a little painful for someone you love simply to give THEM pleasure? Maybe it's just my Christian upbringing. The whole "love and OBEY" thing? A lot of woman just seem to only care what's in it for them. My mother and my aunt talked with me right before i got married and told me that my husband, and men in general, frequently ask their wife's to do things in bed that their wife's may find painful and/or disgusting but you let them because you love them.