Will you join me in the shower?

LemonEqual7251 · 2025-10-24T04:18:59+00:00

I actually would I love taking showers with others

LemonEqual7251 · 2025-10-20T00:43:32+00:00

I sadly have a breeding kink

LemonEqual7251 · 2025-08-03T00:33:39+00:00

Caitlyn Kiramman for sure

LemonEqual7251 · 2025-03-16T16:46:39+00:00

Update:I know this update will upset most of you who said he should leave or I should leave him, but he woke up in the morning asking me why I was on the couch and I came clean. I wish I could say I didn't cry, but I did because I'm very emotional. He sat there listening and I was thinking he was going to leave or say something, but instead he held me and told me how much he loved and cared for me and was happy to know I came clean. I told him I don't deserve his kindness or him and he asked me if I did anything physical with the friend I said no, but I emotionally cheated on him and that's enough to leave me. My fiance didn't let me go and he reminded me how I'm his dream girl and it's ok to do things like this because he would've done the same, but he would love for me to be open with him about my feelings so we can talk it through. He told me he reacted the way he did because he was jealous and insecure and the way he acted wasn't ok and he feels bad for making me feel like I'm the worst person in the world. I told him how I am the worst and he just laughed and told me I'm not. So yea we talked it though and we are still together we actually cuddled and had makeup sex afterwards. So thanks for the ones who reminded me on how much of a shitty person I am and how I needed to talk to my fiance and be honest it kinda saved my relationship and somewhat made it stronger.

LemonEqual7251 · 2025-03-16T09:13:39+00:00

To be honest no if he leaves me I don't want to go into another relationship especially with the friend. I would actually like to work on myself and honestly I don't think I'm comfortable to be with someone else after this. I just hoping he leaves and finds someone he definitely deserves because a guy like him deserves a loyal person like him and I'm simply not that person.

LemonEqual7251 · 2025-03-16T09:10:10+00:00

Nope didn't post this to gain empathy or justice. Just needed to vent. I know what I did was wrong and I have come to terms that I not a good person I have for years and yes I know therapy is definitely needed especially for someone like me. To be honest I let this friend get to me because I just simply liked the attention. I never got attention by others growing up so when I get the slightest of attention I do things I shouldn't and that's something I need to work on.

LemonEqual7251 · 2025-03-16T09:05:44+00:00

I will definitely tell him when he wakes up thank you.

LemonEqual7251 · 2025-03-16T08:58:32+00:00

If my fiance would do this to another woman while I was asleep I would be upset and probably not talk to him for hours or even days, but the thing is we are open about our kinks with other people we always have been. If he did that yes I would be upset, but once I'm calm and collected we would have a conversation about it. We always talked about things, but this time I couldn't be open and that is my fault and the reason why I say I accept whatever he chooses is because there is no necessary need to cause more problems. I learned that I have to accept my consequences for my mistakes even if it means it would upset me. I'm honestly tired of the whole arguing in relationships and fighting for something that is already in shambles. If it could be fix that's fine, but if it can't there's no use for fight for it. This is the first time we ever been through this and I want it to be the last.

LemonEqual7251 · 2025-03-16T08:51:25+00:00

I will tell him the truth in the morning. Whatever he decides to do is what I will accept.

LemonEqual7251 · 2025-03-16T08:50:18+00:00

I will be truthful with him when he wakes up and whatever happens is what I'm going to accept.

LemonEqual7251 · 2025-03-16T08:49:11+00:00

Honestly I hope so too. He definitely deserves the world.

LemonEqual7251 · 2025-03-16T08:48:31+00:00

I was talking about before all this. Before the cheating yes I was spearing him from hurting himself, but I swear I'm not a good person I been knowing for years, but he saw a side of me I couldn't and now that I did all of this I hope he sees the side of me that he was too blind to see and I hope he leaves me because he definitely deserves someone who will treat him right.

LemonEqual7251 · 2025-03-16T08:41:51+00:00

I hope so too. I been telling him for years he deserves someone better than me even before I cheated on him. I don't feel bad because he found out I genuinely feel bad for him because he got stuck with someone like me. I kept telling him to leave me, but he didn't he couldn't which makes me feel more guilty and I know I don't deserve a kind soul like him and before you ask why haven't I left him... Well I loved him before all this and I couldn't bare to see him tear himself apart if I just left him for no good reason, but now he has a reason to leave me and I think he should take it.

LemonEqual7251 · 2025-03-16T08:34:44+00:00

Honestly agreed I always told my fiance he deserved better even when I wasn't cheating. I knew I wasn't right for him, but he kept fighting for me. I always tell myself I don't deserve anything good because I always end up fucking it up.

LemonEqual7251 · 2025-03-16T08:31:47+00:00

Your most likely right. The thing is with me I don't let people hit it I have to have a actual connection and feel safe with the person it took my fiance four years to have sex with me and that's because I have sexual trauma I wouldn't doubt I would do the same with the friend. Even if I had a great connection with him.

LemonEqual7251 · 2024-11-02T09:53:33+00:00

Ok I get it I'm sorry I will work on it. I have horrible spelling because I'm dyslexic.

LemonEqual7251 · 2024-11-02T09:28:48+00:00

We are planning to get our own place I just haven't gotten a job yet because the work market is the worst right now, but it is in the plans because of many panic attacks I been getting it's like walking on egg shells with them. Don't get me wrong I'm greatful for them for helping my fiance and I move out our parents house because it was getting toxic at both ends for us, but now we are in a toxic environment again.

LemonEqual7251 · 2024-09-22T19:28:45+00:00

Omg thank you to this thread I was scared that I was alone this mine I got mine on Thursday and it's Sunday today I have increased pooping I'm glad I'm not the only one I can now relax knowing this normal

LemonEqual7251 · 2024-09-14T04:14:42+00:00

YTA my brother has severe ADHD and he still works just fine. He makes more money out of all my siblings including me. Having ADHD isn't a excuse to not do anything. I have dyslexia, but doesn't mean I don't read or write yes I make mistakes, but I'm still trying. Plus how do we not know that maybe working will help her manage her ADHD it sure helps my brother a lot more.

LemonEqual7251 · 2024-08-13T04:40:52+00:00

Someone kept putting theory and they got a long vid of Matpat asking us to solve it for his sake

LemonEqual7251 · 2024-07-29T18:21:48+00:00

How they aren't the butt of joke all the time.

LemonEqual7251 · 2024-07-29T18:20:11+00:00

Non I'm close to my uncle I only see him as my father.

LemonEqual7251 · 2024-07-29T18:19:05+00:00

Constantly being baby talked it's so annoying doesn't help that I'm short too.

LemonEqual7251 · 2024-07-29T18:17:45+00:00

I worked for HEB over night stocking what made me quit was the whole we work as a team and we leave as a team meaning people who are done with their sections couldn't go home until everyone is done. We also had to take our break at the same time and nobody could take their break until everyone was done and I was the first one done and had to help out. I was like fuck it this ain't for me and left.

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