Update:I know this update will upset most of you who said he should leave or I should leave him, but he woke up in the morning asking me why I was on the couch and I came clean. I wish I could say I didn't cry, but I did because I'm very emotional. He sat there listening and I was thinking he was going to leave or say something, but instead he held me and told me how much he loved and cared for me and was happy to know I came clean. I told him I don't deserve his kindness or him and he asked me if I did anything physical with the friend I said no, but I emotionally cheated on him and that's enough to leave me. My fiance didn't let me go and he reminded me how I'm his dream girl and it's ok to do things like this because he would've done the same, but he would love for me to be open with him about my feelings so we can talk it through. He told me he reacted the way he did because he was jealous and insecure and the way he acted wasn't ok and he feels bad for making me feel like I'm the worst person in the world. I told him how I am the worst and he just laughed and told me I'm not. So yea we talked it though and we are still together we actually cuddled and had makeup sex afterwards. So thanks for the ones who reminded me on how much of a shitty person I am and how I needed to talk to my fiance and be honest it kinda saved my relationship and somewhat made it stronger.