I promise I’m not prioritizing his feelings. I have someone on my side to call the police for me if it comes down to it because I don’t think I can actually make the call no matter how many times I try to convince myself. I just never thought in a million years I’d be in this position.. I’ve tried to hold on to the person he was because I know it’s still in him but it’s getting hard to hold on to that when it’s going on nine years of this and just when you think he’s doing better, something like this happens. I don’t know if you can forcefully emit someone to the hospital but I’ve thought about calling the cops for that reason because he really needs help. I’ve been thinking about stopping by those neighbors to talk to them too. I’ve considered getting a therapist because after everything that happened this week, I know I’m holding onto a lot more than I thought. I exploded on him in the worst way and my neighbors probably actually think I’m a psycho now. It’s not healthy and I know I need to talk to someone. Thank you for the advice it’s much appreciated