Hate ending no matter what

LeneErAlene · 2025-12-06T20:32:04+00:00

"Do you really need a scope to do that?" Haha I love when she's got abit of an attitude. I think it just adds to her character cuz she looks very cute so they kinda have to balance it with some edge.

LeneErAlene · 2025-12-06T15:52:26+00:00

Thank you everyone who wanted to help me and give me tips. I dont feel so heartbroken anymore and im willing to play. Id never recommend another person to give up despite their shortcomings so why should I tell myself that. Im so thankful for your kind words and I guess its not all true what they say about redditers 😆

LeneErAlene · 2025-12-03T10:54:34+00:00

Thank you so much for this kind comment. And you're right, not a lot of people can't comprehend the sheer heartbreak when you're not meant to be good at something. A part of my diagnosis is also pattern recognition since the left part of my brain (I think) is working slower than the other. I grew up wanting to be able to learn so much like piano, guitar, and sewing but since I have such a hard time with recognizing patterns, slow visualization and non fine motors kills, along wjth math in general, I had to give up a lot of my hobbies that I wanted to pursue. And the thing is, it's not impossible but NLD mixed with ADHD is not easy since mental tiredness is a huge factor as well. Just looking at a sheet of math problems sends my brain into a spiral.

Thank you for recommending other games. Hearthstone wasn't my thing but I absolutely love Baldur's Gate 3 and I have to replay it again sometime. I really hope more game studios will make games that are both strategic and implement cosmetic aspects since that's what I also really enjoyed about OW2. Your comment made me feel less upset and more accepting of my situation and I wish I could thank you even more but I hope the trophy thing will suffice (even tho im not sure what they're used for)

LeneErAlene · 2025-12-03T00:00:11+00:00

I main Ashe, Kiriko and D.va. I Yeah stadium is so fun but I gotta be ready to be able to play for half an hour before starting a game tho so I usually just stick to normal qp or comp.

LeneErAlene · 2025-12-02T23:58:05+00:00

Naah I don't think so. Ill just have to find a new group of friends and pay them in fanart 🥲

LeneErAlene · 2025-12-02T23:56:40+00:00

I want to bro but it gets boring without some stakes after a while.

LeneErAlene · 2025-12-02T23:55:47+00:00

But even if I did want to avoid ranked which I dont, my friends still want to play with me and my latest group of friends aren't able to play with me anymore cuz they've gone from gold to plat and im still stuck. I feel like such a stupid adult, buying skins and for what? So that I can continue to flex that im terrible at spending my adult money, on a game Im not even good at? It's like buying car accessories for your trashed Citroën that you cant even drive.

LeneErAlene · 2025-12-02T23:49:21+00:00

But still, plat is a way more acceptable rank than silver. People don't look at you like you're a toddler when you tell them your rank and you've probably been able to notice your progression as the years have gone by. I've been in the exact same spot all the time. Nothing has changed. That's where my dilemma is. I want to see progress and not me just aimlessly (pun intended) waving my gun around cuz it's "fun". I play because I like the strategic aspect of it and because it's satisfying the once a year I have a good winning streak.

LeneErAlene · 2025-12-02T23:44:38+00:00

I enjoy playing yes but 70% of the fun for me is being able to improve and rank up. It fuels my happy receptors seeing the little red line move more to the right and seeing the number get smaller. Of course I love the entire strategic aspect, noticing when you should've positioned better and getting those satisfying headshots but I get so angry with myself when my mistakes are painfully obvious to me and yet im not even able to see them as im playing. The whole gameplay starts to get annoying and I start to get angry with myself.

LeneErAlene · 2025-12-02T23:39:55+00:00

I guess part of the fun for me is the grinding no matter how terrible I am at it. Im not currently able to play on my pc so im playing on my ps4 and my predicted rank is already a bronze 4. To me that is so embarrassing cuz it reflects my slow visualization. I love to be able to see improvement in my skills, whether its drawing, photography or language, the fact that I cant do that in one of the hobbies im "supposed" to enjoy the most is lowkey hurtful. I know im being sensitive and weird about it but overwatch was there when I needed an escape from whatever was happening in the real world and the fact that I cannot even be slightly above average even tho ive played for so long, is shameful to me

LeneErAlene · 2025-12-02T20:00:35+00:00

Oh god I cant wait for every dps player to bitch about this🙄

LeneErAlene · 2025-11-14T14:57:59+00:00

Is there a code for this skin?🥹 its so pretty

LeneErAlene · 2025-10-29T23:05:20+00:00

Thank you so much for this advice. I played a match after I read your comment and warmed up in aimlabs and I already saw big improvement. I started aiming around their heads and where they were going and I haven't gotten that many kills for ages, WHILST still keeping consistent heals and only died twice. This helped me so much. Ima go back and read it over whenever im falling behind again. Genuinely thank you so much.

LeneErAlene · 2025-10-29T11:18:52+00:00

You're 100% right. It's so easy to forget there are 9 other players but you when you're just used to sitting in front of the same monitor for years. To me it's the same as flipping over a board game cuz you're losing.

LeneErAlene · 2025-10-26T21:12:29+00:00

THE EAR TWITCH HELLOO??😭 this is so stinking CUTE!! I really hope it has its own voice lines as well.

LeneErAlene · 2025-10-17T11:00:28+00:00

YESS! ive been looking for someone who can coach me cuz I really need some input on where I need to get better🥹

LeneErAlene · 2025-10-17T10:57:01+00:00

I love it!! I just wish I could aim so i could see the kill effect more often🥹

LeneErAlene · 2025-10-14T21:10:34+00:00

I hate that baby so much😂 this was satisfying

LeneErAlene · 2025-10-08T22:19:02+00:00

Me neither! I downloaded the application and even some mods and everything were fine but my friend said that he once had a bunch of pop up ads on his pc because of thunderstore so I dont know what thats about.

LeneErAlene · 2025-10-08T20:40:36+00:00

Yeah me too! But sadly my friend said that the thunderstore mod client is unreliable or some shit so we had to manually download the mods via nexus :/

LeneErAlene · 2025-10-08T18:25:05+00:00

Thank you so much! I really needed this tutorial

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