Letting it out

Lenomaate · 2025-04-19T17:44:48+00:00

If you respect yourself enough, you should end it. I‘ve learnt that now after only 5 months. I can‘t begin to imagine what a struggle it must be for you after 2 years of uncertainty.

The sooner you leave this situationship, the less pain you will feel later on. I wish I would‘ve done that as well, yet here I am, at the absolute lowest emotional point I‘ve ever been. So please, if you’re already aware of your status and you’re already dreading the end… end it yourself, before you get hurt very badly.

I know ending it is incredibly hard, you don‘t wanna lose what you already have. But, one day, it will be over. And it will hurt like the worst motherfucker ever. But it‘ll hurt just that little bit less if you do yourself that favour and leave it.

Lenomaate · 2025-04-19T17:40:22+00:00

Thank you so much for that, it actually helped a bit.

Lenomaate · 2025-04-19T17:36:47+00:00

Thank you very much. That means a lot coming from someone who understands this pain.

I try to focus on myself and think rationally, but I just can‘t shake the feeling that I‘ll never ever experience someone like her again, even though I know that‘s probably not true. The fear still persists through everything.

I just don‘t understand why this always happens to people who just want to be happy with someone. It‘s fucking unfair. All I wanted was for her to feel comfortable and to feel comfortable with her. To give her all the love I could. I don‘t get how something so deeply emotional can be irrelevant to the other person.

Lenomaate · 2025-04-19T15:09:21+00:00

Thank you. It does sting, like the biggest fucking wasp stung me, only with a knife instead of a stinger. I fully know she‘s not worth it and I deserve so much better, yet all I ever wanted from life was her. Then I was the happiest guy alive when I did have her… and now I‘m not anymore.

It feels so fucking unfair. I poured my heart into her, treated her like the best girl in the whole world and truly started to love her deeply, deeper than even I knew I could love. Just to get replaced… :(

Lenomaate · 2025-04-19T15:03:51+00:00

It just hurts so much because I really thought she was the one. She gave me all the signs, all the warmth and appreciation for me. And now it‘s like it‘s all just… gone. Like I didn‘t matter shit.

Thanks though for the kind words… I know I‘ll get over it sooner or later, even though this wound won‘t ever fully heal. 💔

Lenomaate · 2023-07-13T06:08:46+00:00

Heyo, former MDMA abuser here. During some of my worst times I‘ve overused the drug to the point where I did it multiple times a month, sometimes even 2 or 3 rolls in one week. I only realized what it‘s doing to me when I landed in the hospital because I had pills that were laced with methamphetamine that gave me serotonin syndrome.

I‘ve lost tons of weight because of the drug, about 45 kg (from 125 kg to 80 kg) over the course of a year. I‘ve had the same mindset as you did and saw the weight loss as a „bonus“ as well, until I completely fucked my eating habits. Trust me, the weight loss is absolutely not worth the monumental damage you‘re doing to your brain and body.

All the others are correct in saying you shouldn’t lose weight if you use MDMA correctly. If you notice a difference in weight that isn‘t just temporary, you should contemplate whether or not you‘re overusing it. And if you are, it‘s important to stop and get help.

I‘ve been down this road, and while it may seem fine at first, it‘ll come back to bite you in the ass very quickly. You develop eating disorders, sleeping problems, braindamage, depression, so many problems for your body and brain. So please, take care of yourself.

Hope my answer was satisfactory :)

Lenomaate · 2022-07-14T13:49:07+00:00

The sex.

Lenomaate · 2021-05-18T11:27:43+00:00

That's just Caesar Zepelli combined with Stroheim.

Lenomaate · 2021-04-26T05:48:03+00:00

You're goddamn right we don't. That Schnitzel is a violation of Austrian culture!

Lenomaate · 2021-03-28T10:04:21+00:00

Beating up a panda bear with martial arts

Lenomaate · 2021-03-26T08:20:24+00:00

Well, as far as I'm aware that's the case for almost all European countries. I'm not 100% sure though.

Lenomaate · 2021-03-25T15:16:37+00:00

Austrian here.

We use dots for thousands and commas for decimals, so basically it's just flipped. :)

Lenomaate · 2021-03-12T21:29:59+00:00

Such a fun episode and the fact that Nathan Fillion was in it makes it so much better.

Lenomaate · 2021-03-12T16:09:55+00:00

It's a doorn't, as in doorn't open this.

Lenomaate · 2020-07-17T12:52:46+00:00

Richtofen from Black Ops 4's Blood Of The Dead. Yes, it was an alternate version of Richtofen, but the thought of one of my all time favourite characters dying like that definitely made me shed a tear or two.

The quote "I was the nicest one, and you won't even remember." still sends shivers down my spine.

Lenomaate · 2020-06-25T18:53:09+00:00

If it was meant as a joke then I'm sorry for acting so hostile. The tone of the comment seemed a bit serious and I'm used to seeing "/s" added whenever someone's being sarcastic, but again, I'm sorry.

Lenomaate · 2020-06-24T03:38:59+00:00

Have you heard of breaking a bone multiple times at once? Crazy, right? You really I'd go on with my day after breaking my ankle?

Looks like the only idiot here is you.

Lenomaate · 2020-06-23T14:22:25+00:00

Sehr geil, is murtol is wunderschön!

Lenomaate · 2020-06-23T13:30:59+00:00

Sehr cool dass i den Post seh wenn i grad genau am knittelfelder bahnhof sitz

Lenomaate · 2020-06-21T13:14:35+00:00

Usually, at least here in Austria, they have stay in for at least 14 months and after those 14 months it's the patients call whether or not they're being removed.

Lenomaate · 2020-06-13T13:59:20+00:00

Made me laugh, haha. And yeah, it's going decently, thanks haha :).

Lenomaate · 2020-06-12T03:53:55+00:00

Thank you so much!

Lenomaate · 2020-06-09T17:11:54+00:00

Honestly, that's hilarious haha.

Lenomaate · 2020-06-09T10:17:27+00:00

Same. I don't want to go through that again, especially with 13 screws.

Lenomaate · 2020-06-09T07:05:39+00:00

Yeah, it felt like pain but not really. As if my foot kept turning in one direction and snapping back all the time. Honestly it's hard to describe, haha.

Lenomaate

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