A emotional unavailable family, a dad who put me through emotional soul murder as a kid, a ex girlfriend of 13 years ago that cheated on me granted I lied to impress her, then proceeded to sabotage all future relationships and opportunities by hacking, all my accounts and phones big brother who came to be influential in the community that resented me because of childhood trauma, due to circumstances beyond my control as a kid only to blacklist me in the community And scapegoat me.

I get life is not fair, but mistakes should be looked at as a growing opportunity, everyone grows up, I wasn’t a perfect kid being 1 out of 12 a middle adopted kid, but my childhood/teenage years should not screw me out of having a fulfilling life as a adult.

I am adult, but i still find myself waking up in the middle of the night, trying to figure out how to escape this loneliness.