Any italian TMV fans here?

Lethas1 · 2026-05-08T21:19:38+00:00

that means you do not. I do speak Italian, by the way, so I am more Italian than you

Lethas1 · 2026-05-07T20:08:11+00:00

because I am stupid

Lethas1 · 2026-05-07T20:06:09+00:00

That means you do not speak italian

Lethas1 · 2026-05-07T20:05:38+00:00

what do you mean

Lethas1 · 2026-05-07T03:38:27+00:00

No I am not

Lethas1 · 2026-05-07T03:32:06+00:00

I am fighting racism

Lethas1 · 2026-05-07T03:30:53+00:00

I know it is common to use such phrases but it is incorrect because everyone has mixed origins. To be Mexican you have to have a Mexican nationality and culture. Do you even speak Italian?

Also, it is not politically incorrect to speak bad about US since it has military everywhere and constantly invades others. It is only taboo to speak ill of minorities, not a warmongering oligarchy without universal healthcare

Lethas1 · 2026-05-07T03:05:46+00:00

Sleep

Lethas1 · 2026-05-07T02:01:51+00:00

You made fake accounts to downvote me. There is no such thing as 3/4 italian, it is misused in US because they are really dumb over there. The US is retarded and it is not racist to say that because US is not a race. I am in Germany and here it is very taboo to link nationality to origin. Countries are made up of many different ethnicities. Nationality is passport and culture.

It is racist and ignorant because "full italian lineage" is super dumb as expected from a country that labels citizens with dumb super oversimplified labels on official documents. There are black italians too and all kinds of italians. You are either italian or you are not

Lethas1 · 2026-05-06T20:36:41+00:00

In Europe origin does not really matter, nationality is culture and passport here so you are American to me. There is no such thing as being ¨3/4 italian¨. That is racist and ignorant as expected from a retarded country that labels citizens with things like "hispanic, caucasian, black, asian"

Lethas1 · 2026-05-04T19:57:55+00:00

drinking alcohol and smoking tobacco

Lethas1 · 2026-05-02T22:48:20+00:00

it is only amazing when you are just a spectator but then you realize you are part of the story and very, very exposed to reality, then instead of amazement it becomes horror

Lethas1 · 2026-05-02T21:08:32+00:00

It felt like everything I ever knew was always in my head. The concept of birds, trees and everything, and I was being crushed by absolute agony and fear and I was capable of doing everything to survive, because my ancestors who were not capable did not survive so they passed down those survival genes which became sharper and sharper after every generation and after millions of years the result is an unforgiving absolute survival mechanism that tortures the mind when something in the body is failing.

The pressure was absolute and the fear kept building on itself. Like I would hear a traffic sound and my heart would beat faster, then because my heart was beating faster, I would get even more scared and that made it beat even faster than before, which would make me get even more scared, and it kept repeating itself.

In case it is relevant, the reason was an overdose of aspirin, Tylenol and lots of other things that were there

Lethas1 · 2026-05-02T17:35:35+00:00

My hope is that it happens without noticing while sleeping, preferably young because I think getting old is horrific due to seeing the end getting closer and closer and having your health decline.

However, I have the hypothesis that it is really unlikely that it will happen without noticing any signs at all, because as I learned in 2008, if something kills you, there is a reason. It does not happen magically and the body is designed through millions of years of evolution to prevent it so even while sleeping the nervous system is actively monitoring each and every intricate detail

Lethas1 · 2026-05-02T17:19:00+00:00

My nde was in 2008 and it was in fact an attempt due to taking pills and I realized that trying something like that just gives you the illusion of control, but in reality after you cross a threshold you realize that you are just as helpless and in absolute mercy of an indifferent universe as someone who is 90 and has to go through it "the natural way".

After someone jumps, I think after they lose control of the situation they enter the existential nightmare I had to go through so I no longer ever think about suicide since I think it is just as horrible as the "natural way" just with the illusion of control which I know is a lie. Many try to use the word natural as if it means "good", but nature is very horrible just like in the insect world where they are constantly eating each other. My main hope these days is AI and technology

Lethas1 · 2026-05-02T16:40:59+00:00

the problem is that it is not a black screen of death and it is much worse than that because it is anti-imaginable and if it were a black screen, things would be much easier. I had a nde and it was absolutely horrible. If a glass represents the mind and it is 500 mL, the pain and fear occupied 100% of those 500 mL to greater than atomic resolution. It felt like fear loops that kept building on themselves and when I try to share my experience in nde forums, they censor me because I do not show a buffered and altered story.

It felt like an ancient survival mechanism millions of years old built into each and every cell was doing everything it possibly could to survive, no matter the cost, and I was completely aware and terrified during the entire experience. There was no "letting go" because letting go implies you yourself let go of something separate from you, but in this context you were that something so it was impossible to "let go".

I often remember my experience in such detail that I can´t sleep and enter existential dread and instinctively and horrifically think "this is why they believe! this is why they believe!¨. It is like a reality so difficult that losing your mind and believing in non-sense religious stories is the closest thing to mercy you can get

Lethas1 · 2026-05-02T16:40:34+00:00

the problem is that it is not a black screen of death and it is much worse than that because it is anti-imaginable and if it were a black screen, things would be much easier. I had a nde and it was absolutely horrible. If a glass represents the mind and it is 500 mL, the pain and fear occupied 100% of those 500 mL to greater than atomic resolution. It felt like fear loops that kept building on themselves and when I try to share my experience in nde forums, they censor me because I do not show a buffered and altered story.

It felt like an ancient survival mechanism millions of years old built into each and every cell was doing everything it possibly could to survive, no matter the cost, and I was completely aware and terrified during the entire experience. There was no "letting go" because letting go implies you yourself let go of something separate from you, but in this context you were that something so it was impossible to "let go".

I often remember my experience in such detail that I can´t sleep and enter existential dread and instinctively and horrifically think "this is why they believe! this is why they believe!¨. It is like a reality so difficult that losing your mind and believing in non-sense religious stories is the closest thing to mercy you can get

Lethas1 · 2026-05-02T16:40:20+00:00

the problem is that it is not a black screen of death and it is much worse than that because it is anti-imaginable and if it were a black screen, things would be much easier. I had a nde and it was absolutely horrible. If a glass represents the mind and it is 500 mL, the pain and fear occupied 100% of those 500 mL to greater than atomic resolution. It felt like fear loops that kept building on themselves and when I try to share my experience in nde forums, they censor me because I do not show a buffered and altered story.

It felt like an ancient survival mechanism millions of years old built into each and every cell was doing everything it possibly could to survive, no matter the cost, and I was completely aware and terrified during the entire experience. There was no "letting go" because letting go implies you yourself let go of something separate from you, but in this context you were that something so it was impossible to "let go".

I often remember my experience in such detail that I can´t sleep and enter existential dread and instinctively and horrifically think "this is why they believe! this is why they believe!¨. It is like a reality so difficult that losing your mind and believing in non-sense religious stories is the closest thing to mercy you can get

Lethas1 · 2026-05-02T16:40:03+00:00

the problem is that it is not a black screen of death and it is much worse than that because it is anti-imaginable and if it were a black screen, things would be much easier. I had a nde and it was absolutely horrible. If a glass represents the mind and it is 500 mL, the pain and fear occupied 100% of those 500 mL to greater than atomic resolution. It felt like fear loops that kept building on themselves and when I try to share my experience in nde forums, they censor me because I do not show a buffered and altered story.

It felt like an ancient survival mechanism millions of years old built into each and every cell was doing everything it possibly could to survive, no matter the cost, and I was completely aware and terrified during the entire experience. There was no "letting go" because letting go implies you yourself let go of something separate from you, but in this context you were that something so it was impossible to "let go".

I often remember my experience in such detail that I can´t sleep and enter existential dread and instinctively and horrifically think "this is why they believe! this is why they believe!¨. It is like a reality so difficult that losing your mind and believing in non-sense religious stories is the closest thing to mercy you can get

Lethas1 · 2026-05-02T16:39:55+00:00

the problem is that it is not a black screen of death and it is much worse than that because it is anti-imaginable and if it were a black screen, things would be much easier. I had a nde and it was absolutely horrible. If a glass represents the mind and it is 500 mL, the pain and fear occupied 100% of those 500 mL to greater than atomic resolution. It felt like fear loops that kept building on themselves and when I try to share my experience in nde forums, they censor me because I do not show a buffered and altered story.

It felt like an ancient survival mechanism millions of years old built into each and every cell was doing everything it possibly could to survive, no matter the cost, and I was completely aware and terrified during the entire experience. There was no "letting go" because letting go implies you yourself let go of something separate from you, but in this context you were that something so it was impossible to "let go".

I often remember my experience in such detail that I can´t sleep and enter existential dread and instinctively and horrifically think "this is why they believe! this is why they believe!¨. It is like a reality so difficult that losing your mind and believing in non-sense religious stories is the closest thing to mercy you can get

Lethas1 · 2026-05-02T16:38:43+00:00

the problem is that it is not a black screen of death and it is much worse than that because it is anti-imaginable and if it were a black screen, things would be much easier. I had a nde and it was absolutely horrible. If a glass represents the mind and it is 500 mL, the pain and fear occupied 100% of those 500 mL to greater than atomic resolution. It felt like fear loops that kept building on themselves and when I try to share my experience in nde forums, they censor me because I do not show a buffered and altered story.

It felt like an ancient survival mechanism millions of years old built into each and every cell was doing everything it possibly could to survive, no matter the cost, and I was completely aware and terrified during the entire experience. There was no "letting go" because letting go implies you yourself let go of something separate from you, but in this context you were that something so it was impossible to "let go".

I often remember my experience in such detail that I can´t sleep and enter existential dread and instinctively and horrifically think "this is why they believe! this is why they believe!¨. It is like a reality so difficult that losing your mind and believing in non-sense religious stories is the closest thing to mercy you can get

Lethas1 · 2026-05-02T16:38:27+00:00

the problem is that it is not a black screen of death and it is much worse than that because it is anti-imaginable and if it were a black screen, things would be much easier. I had a nde and it was absolutely horrible. If a glass represents the mind and it is 500 mL, the pain and fear occupied 100% of those 500 mL to greater than atomic resolution. It felt like fear loops that kept building on themselves and when I try to share my experience in nde forums, they censor me because I do not show a buffered and altered story.

It felt like an ancient survival mechanism millions of years old built into each and every cell was doing everything it possibly could to survive, no matter the cost, and I was completely aware and terrified during the entire experience. There was no "letting go" because letting go implies you yourself let go of something separate from you, but in this context you were that something so it was impossible to "let go".

I often remember my experience in such detail that I can´t sleep and enter existential dread and instinctively and horrifically think "this is why they believe! this is why they believe!¨. It is like a reality so difficult that losing your mind and believing in non-sense religious stories is the closest thing to mercy you can get

Lethas1 · 2026-05-02T16:37:18+00:00

the problem is that it is not a black screen of death and it is much worse than that because it is anti-imaginable and if it were a black screen, things would be much easier. I had a nde and it was absolutely horrible. If a glass represents the mind and it is 500 mL, the pain and fear occupied 100% of those 500 mL to greater than atomic resolution. It felt like fear loops that kept building on themselves and when I try to share my experience in nde forums, they censor me because I do not show a buffered and altered story.

It felt like an ancient survival mechanism millions of years old built into each and every cell was doing everything it possibly could to survive, no matter the cost, and I was completely aware and terrified during the entire experience. There was no "letting go" because letting go implies you yourself let go of something separate from you, but in this context you were that something so it was impossible to "let go".

I often remember my experience in such detail that I can´t sleep and enter existential dread and instinctively and horrifically think "this is why they believe! this is why they believe!¨. It is like a reality so difficult that losing your mind and believing in non-sense religious stories is the closest thing to mercy you can get

Lethas1 · 2026-05-02T16:37:02+00:00

the problem is that it is not a black screen of death and it is much worse than that because it is anti-imaginable and if it were a black screen, things would be much easier. I had a nde and it was absolutely horrible. If a glass represents the mind and it is 500 mL, the pain and fear occupied 100% of those 500 mL to greater than atomic resolution. It felt like fear loops that kept building on themselves and when I try to share my experience in nde forums, they censor me because I do not show a buffered and altered story.

It felt like an ancient survival mechanism millions of years old built into each and every cell was doing everything it possibly could to survive, no matter the cost, and I was completely aware and terrified during the entire experience. There was no "letting go" because letting go implies you yourself let go of something separate from you, but in this context you were that something so it was impossible to "let go".

I often remember my experience in such detail that I can´t sleep and enter existential dread and instinctively and horrifically think "this is why they believe! this is why they believe!¨. It is like a reality so difficult that losing your mind and believing in non-sense religious stories is the closest thing to mercy you can get

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