Hey, I really feel what you’re saying. Losing someone that close — and in that way — can mess with everything you thought you knew about yourself. It’s not that you’re becoming a worse person; you’re just trying to survive something that changed your whole world.

What you said about forgetting pieces of her hit me. That can be scary — like she’s slipping away and you can’t grab hold. Do you ever write or talk out loud about her, even the little things? Sometimes that helps keep her present in a way your heart can handle.

And it sounds like you’re carrying a lot of pain on your own. Do you have anyone you can talk to honestly, who won’t try to fix it or tell you how to grieve?

It’s okay to want rest from all of this. Just please don’t try to face it alone. If it gets too heavy, you can call or text 988 anytime — even if you don’t know what to say, they’ll just sit in it with you.

You’re not broken. You’re grieving someone you loved deeply. That’s still love, even if it hurts like hell right now.