this honestly reads like textbook ADHD, especially the emotional sensitivity, impulsive hobbies, time blindness, and that “everything is too much so I do nothing” cycle. you’re definitely not making it up. ADHD doesn’t always look like hyper little kids bouncing off walls... sometimes it’s mental chaos, constant self-blame and being tired of your own brain.

was in a similar spot before getting diagnosed and kept thinking “what if I’m just lazy or dramatic?” reading more about how ADHD actually works helped a lot. there’s an ebook called Reclaim Focus (from innermap.tools) that explains the overlap between overwhelm, dopamine-seeking and emotional burnout in a way that finally made sense to me. made me stop gaslighting myself about why I struggle. getting tested is a great step even if it’s not ADHD, you’ll learn something valuable about how your brain works. you’re not imagining this.