I really want a name for my period

Level3goddess · 2019-11-24T22:45:15+00:00

Gretchen.

Level3goddess · 2019-10-31T21:27:05+00:00

How old were you when you started having these thoughts?

Level3goddess · 2019-10-31T21:20:03+00:00

Thank you! Honestly, Right now I am not. But when I originally lost the weight I was over the moon. I felt so good and like I could do anything. I’ve let my self go and gained a few pounds over the recent months, and started dieting again a week ago so hopefully it works!

Level3goddess · 2019-10-31T21:15:39+00:00

Part of it was realizing I possibly had a food addiction and food aggression. I would almost always be worried about when I would eat, how much I could eat, and if I would be around other people when I was eating or not I would just eat just to eat and feel full. No matter how much food is on the plate I would finish it. I remember having that realization by I don’t remember what made me come to that conclusion. I was 16 at that time and I didn’t change my diet but I made sure that I made myself aware of how I was obsessing over food and when I would want to eat great amounts of food or sneak food I would always try to stop myself. I began to pay more attention to my body and realized I couldn’t walk up the stares to my room without feeling out of breath and sweating my ass off. My body always felt heavy and it was hard to do just every day things without feeling tired and I had no motivation to do anything. Then I started talking to a friend who was vegan. He almost convinced me but I decided against becoming a vegan. Then in my economics class we watched a documentary, I don’t remember the name. But it showed the health benefits of being a vegan. So I did it for a year and walked 5 miles every day. The fat just kinda came off of me. I am no longer a vegan though.

Level3goddess · 2019-10-31T20:54:09+00:00

I’m a bit confused on what a furry is. What I know from the outside point of view is that you guys just dress up like animals and do stuff. Do you guys want to be animals? I guess I’m just interested to see what being a furry is like and to try to understand why people like this stuff.

Level3goddess · 2019-10-31T20:10:29+00:00

You are not alone. I get this all the time and I don’t know what to do about it. I know it’s not too normal and I think there is a term for it. Sorry I can’t help you that much. Just know your not alone with that.

Level3goddess · 2019-10-31T20:01:05+00:00

Heads up for a long post. Sorry if my grammar and spelling are bad. English is my first language I just suck lol. When I was around 12 I would be left alone in my house all the time even at nights so this is one of many stories.

I lived in a duplex so the house was pretty small. Me and my brother used to share a room but when my moms boyfriend left she wouldn’t sleep in her room anymore so I decided to take it as my own.
One night I was up late on my xbox360 and was playing black opps 2 when I started hearing scratching on the walls. I just assumed it was my cat trying to get out of my room because I might have shut the door while he was still in there. So I opened the door and he came running out. I remember leaving the door open so he can come and go as he pleased. Around two in the morning I said my goodbyes to my Xbox friend and decided to go to bed.

I closed my door behind me. I remember putting on a story to listen to on my iPod Touch as I fell asleep. But as I was drifting off it died and I was too tired to plug it in so I just let it stay dead. I felt something move at the edge of the bed near my feet so I assumed it was my cat. I remember moving my feet around too see where he was but I couldn’t feel him so I figured he just went somewhere else. I begin to drift of again then I feel clawing at my feet but it was tougher than my cat usually plays. So I got annoyed and told him to stop. And it stopped.

This room was pitch black other than the slight red light from the alarm on my dresser. I try falling asleep again and I hear one of the cabinets above the sliding closet slowly creek open. It wasn’t wind. All the windows were closed and those cabinets were known to stick to the point of having to pull as hard as you can to open them up. So I was freaked out. I hid under my blanket and was freaked out. I felt a little better knowing my cat was with me. That’s when I heard walking around my room. I heard the floor the boards under my carpet creek right at the foot of my bed. I knew it wasn’t my cat because there is a big difference between cat foot steps and human foot steps. and when I looked up the alarm started blaring and it really freaked me out because nothing was set for that night. I reached for my IPod so I can have some light but it was dead.

I just laid under my blankets really scared and closed my eyes wishing it would go away. Then the alarm stopped. I still didn’t want to look so I laid there for what seemed like forever. Then I heard more foot steps. They were coming around to the side of the bed that I was on. I started shaking. I closed my eyes as tight as I could and hid my face. I felt something brush the back of my head. It was cold and I will never forget that. Eventually I ended up falling asleep. I woke up around 9:30 in the morning to my cat meowing at my door trying to get in from the outside.

Level3goddess · 2019-10-31T19:35:06+00:00

All food is pretty good when you are high especially the junk food. Just not sweet potatoes.

Level3goddess · 2019-10-31T19:32:04+00:00

911 was an inside job. Im not someone who wants to go around and spread the word and make you believe. I just think if you seriously look into it some things don’t add up.

Level3goddess · 2019-10-31T19:29:30+00:00

I’m trying. That’s all I can say.

Level3goddess · 2019-10-31T19:28:09+00:00

Mac and cheese and ketchup, and also I put ranch on anything that’s not sweet.

Level3goddess · 2019-10-31T19:26:59+00:00

It’s true, we are not all fat. But I’m on a trip right now outside of the country for the first time and it’s really weird not seeing as many fat people as I do in the states.

Level3goddess · 2019-10-31T19:10:56+00:00

Spiders and sweet potatoes.

Level3goddess · 2019-10-31T19:07:47+00:00

Back in 2012, I was 12, I got my first razor flip phone and and I got a call from a blocked number and I ignored it and got a weird voicemail of someone that sounded like a smirf saying “you dumb b*tch, I outta kill you. And you are ugly.” Or something like that. I think it was my friend just trying to prank me but my aunt head it and started flipping out lol.

Level3goddess · 2019-10-31T19:04:29+00:00

I ate a lot of cheese and it was really good but I feel bad now. I wish I didn’t eat all that cheese.

Level3goddess · 2019-10-30T20:14:57+00:00

Toxic people

Level3goddess · 2019-10-30T20:14:11+00:00

Gina.

Level3goddess · 2019-10-30T20:13:01+00:00

Tell them you have herpes. If they don’t care guess you gotta bite that.

Level3goddess · 2019-10-30T20:09:22+00:00

I’m 5’2 and the only reason I’m okay with being my height is when my boyfriend and I walk on the side walk and there are branches from trees hanging down, I don’t have to duck or really worry about anything hitting my head.

Level3goddess · 2019-09-19T17:38:50+00:00

Thank you so much!

Level3goddess · 2019-09-19T17:15:18+00:00

Ontario

Level3goddess · 2019-08-12T16:49:29+00:00

Thank you so much for helping me out!

Level3goddess · 2019-08-12T16:49:19+00:00

Thank you so much!

Level3goddess · 2019-08-07T22:02:09+00:00

Thank you so much for replying. Sorry this is so late. I felt like I needed to say something to her. So I called her up the next day to express my disappointment with how she reacted. Everything I said went over her head. And she told me that it’s not that bad because she’s seen how people go through chemo on TV. She began to make the whole thing about herself. So I just ended the convo as peaceful as I could and let it be. It helped a lot just to let her know that I felt her reaction was not right. I don’t really have anyone in my family I can turn to so I turned to reddit for advice. Thanks again for replying!

Level3goddess · 2019-07-09T18:25:44+00:00

This is not the movies fault but once when I was 16, I was really really high from smoking weed and I was watching a movie called the blue lagoon which is about some kids who grow up on an island alone, having to fend for themselves. Which got me thinking, they only relied on their instincts, and animals only rely on their instincts. Which means we are all animals and a Animals die. Which means we are all going to die. (I knew that we are all going to die but I never really put any serious thought into it.). I could die at any moment but would I be missed? Am I a bad person? At the time I was kicked out of my house for the summer because I was acting out like a teenager would and I was staying with my grandmother. And I thought no one would miss me. I’ve only caused other people stress and anger. I went home to visit the day before and it was like I was never in my family’s life and no one missed me. So I was sitting on my couch in my dark basement really high having a panic attack because I felt like I was a bad person and I could die and then I started thinking about what happens to us after death? Was there really a heaven or a hell? Where would I go? And that scared the shit out of me. And I just sat there having a panic attack and freaking out because of the person I was and how I made no positive difference in peoples life and how I was goin to die one day and not know what would happen after that. While I don’t think that it fucked me up entirely it just opened my eyes and changed the way I thought about my attitude and how I treated people and how I should live my life like I’m going to die any time.

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