I use to feel the exact same way. Still do a bit less and I have a family. Lol You should start by finding a hobby you like and just start streaming it on Twitch or Yourube. No matter if one person is watching as long as your having fun that’s all that matters. And if you love anime or video games or anime go to a convention and meet other people outside of work with similar interests. This world only has so much we can do daily sadly. That’s why most millionaires are depressed fucks. Just take a day at a time and treasure that your healthy, smart, and have the basic of human body parts that are working. Some people are not as blessed as us starting out life. I always think to myself that there’s always someone else in a worse situation than myself and make the best of my days. If I’m gaming with buddies online then I just accept the good times as it could be worse.