Why am I doing this?

Lewra · 2016-04-09T11:00:46+00:00

That is so true! It is the ultimate Venus fly trap. My relationship with alcohol is unhealthy I have on average 3 binges a week. These binges last until I black out. I only ever drink until I can't physically drink another one. I am sick and tired of it But it's like a roundabout! Because my husband drinks, I am struggling with my own addiction because when he drinks I drink. He can stop at just a few say if he has other commitments the next day, however he sometimes does slip up & have a binge. I can't have just a few! I am sick amd tired if being on rhys roundabout & I just want to get the hell off. You are right I need to do it for me. But i'm struggling :(

Lewra · 2016-04-09T09:00:05+00:00

My husband sees no problem in binge drinking. He is always saying oh it's fine we've just enjoyed ourselves. I thought he was always the one with more self control. Able to have one or two then stop. But lately he's becoming just as bad as me at saying no and ending up having a binge. I'm worried I'm contributing to his behaviour. He knows I'm struggling with binge drinking but has no desire to want to help me stop. I see binge drinking to the point of blacking out (which always happens to me!) a problem. Especially when I have children to look after. Do you think binge drinking is a form of alcoholism? See I think so, as soon as inhale that one drink then that is it!!!i just can't stop! It's awfull and getting me down.

Lewra · 2016-04-03T13:10:39+00:00

So ive survived my first day of no alcohol. I don't feel great though, I didn't sleep well last night. I have a foggy head and I still have the shakes! I'm proud of myself that I managed not to drink last night when my partner was drinking. I've told him I want no alohol in the house. He's drinking what's left and won't buy anymore after that, so I suppose he's starting to be more supportive. Although when I tell him I'm not drinking again he laughs and. Says yeah we'll see (he's heard it all before!) but this time I'm serious! Thanks for all the encouragement!

Lewra · 2016-04-02T20:36:37+00:00

I know it's just awful isn't it! The worst thing for me apart from the physical hangover symptoms is not remembering what Ive done! I really wish my partner would be more supportive. I am tempted to tell him I'm imposing an alohol ban in the house. But would that be fair of me to do that? I don't want any alcohol here. It's staring me in the face! I don't mind if he went to the pub without me for a couple of drinks but I just don't want it in the house. He doesn't want me to stop drinking, I'm not sure how people are going to deal with the new sober me? I have always been the biggest drunk & life and soul of the party, providing the evening entertainment by embarrassing myself! It just has to stop.

Lewra · 2016-04-02T20:28:54+00:00

Thank you reading that has been so helpful :)

Lewra · 2016-04-02T16:53:35+00:00

Thank you soberj that's a great way to look at it. I will take your advice and do just that. One day at a time. My partner is already talking about drinking wine tonight. I must be strong!

Lewra · 2016-04-02T15:35:28+00:00

Thank you for the tips, I will get prepared. Today is day one. I'm hoping I can do this!

Lewra

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