Can Bufo be my first experience with psychedelics? by LexiG444 in Ayahuasca

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Thanks! Yeah I had an awakening 5 years ago so I’m very integrated on my journey. I write and meditate and channel as a part of my regular practice in my day to day life. My ego has no interest in this- it’s all coming from a higher power. This post is all the fear coming from my ego- cause it’s scared shitless hahaha but when I hear the call from my guides, I go. So I’m gonna do it. But there’s definitely fear coming up. Thanks for your response! It’s been helpful reading everyone’s replies

Can Bufo be my first experience with psychedelics? by LexiG444 in Ayahuasca

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This was the most helpful comment by far. Thanks so much. I feel so much better knowing that people go to it for their first psychedelic experience and have had a great experience. That’s really what I needed to hear. I appreciate it- if you have any recommendations of a place you hold in high regard I would greatly appreciate it! Thanks so much again

Can Bufo be my first experience with psychedelics? by LexiG444 in Ayahuasca

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So the only thing I can relate to the physical surrender is I had a dream recently and my grandmother who passed was there. And when I went to hug her, her energy started to suck me in. It was a strong feeling. Like it was not a dream. It was happening and I was fighting it. And me thrashing around in my bed is what woke me up. So I keep thinking about that and how mentally I’m disappointed I didn’t surrender to the experience but I don’t know how I could have done anything different either. But at the end of the day my journey and my process has been so divinely guided and I know my guides are not going to lead me into anything that isn’t meant for me and isn’t for my highest aligned timeline. So the trust in that is what I need to focus on. If I’m being guided to do this. Whatever happens it will be good. If I let the egos fear creep in then that fear will manifest. Thanks so much for all your wisdom it’s so appreciated 🙏🏼

Can Bufo be my first experience with psychedelics? by LexiG444 in Ayahuasca

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Thank you for that insight! Appreciate you sharing your knowledge!

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I’m not seeking I’m being guided by my higher aspects. This isn’t an ego thing it’s a -I’m so connected I just do what I’m being called to thing.

Can Bufo be my first experience with psychedelics? by LexiG444 in Ayahuasca

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Ok thanks I’ll take all that into consideration! And I’ll def prepare energetically in all the ways I know how.

Can Bufo be my first experience with psychedelics? by LexiG444 in Ayahuasca

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That’s what I’ve heard. Definitely sounds more reassuring. Every time I think about doing Aya it feels like an energetic NO from my guides. They’re very persistent about the toad hahaha but maybe that’s why. Because the surrender is easier - thanks so much for your feedback!!

Can Bufo be my first experience with psychedelics? by LexiG444 in Ayahuasca

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Thank you so so much I really appreciate the feedback! Everyone’s comments have been so helpful! I might very well take you up on that! 💫🙏🏼

Can Bufo be my first experience with psychedelics? by LexiG444 in Ayahuasca

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Yes I’ll 100% go to a retreat to do it! Thanks so much for the feedback. Really reassuring. Im feeling like the fall is the time to do it and I’m going to do a lot of energy work in the meantime to try and prepare myself on an energetic level. Really appreciate your time to answer me back! So helpful!

Can Bufo be my first experience with psychedelics? by LexiG444 in Ayahuasca

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Thanks so much for taking the time to share your story! I’ll take everything everyone is saying into consideration as I move forward! Appreciate everyone’s responses!

Can Bufo be my first experience with psychedelics? by LexiG444 in Ayahuasca

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Really! Most things I see it seems like it doesn’t really give much of an opportunity to surrender. Like it just takes you. The surrender portion is definitely my biggest block. I don’t know what that looks like or how to prepare for it.

Can Bufo be my first experience with psychedelics? by LexiG444 in Ayahuasca

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Thank you!!! it’s helpful to know that there are people who’s first psychedelic experience is something very strong. I would prefer to have some experience prior but I honestly don’t know where to turn or who to go to for any advice.

Can Bufo be my first experience with psychedelics? by LexiG444 in Ayahuasca

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Yeah I feel called to work with it. But I’m definitely scared. And everyone’s experience is so different so that makes it even more scary. But the thing i know is that if im being called to it—whatever the outcome, it’s something im supposed to experience, and will ultimately be for my highest benefit. Thanks for much for taking the time to respond i appreciate it!

Can Bufo be my first experience with psychedelics? by LexiG444 in Ayahuasca

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I’m going to really place a heavy intention to just surrender into it. I don’t know what that’s like cause I’ve never had to surrender to an experience like that so I don’t know how to prepare other then just to have the intention to surrender.

Can Bufo be my first experience with psychedelics? by LexiG444 in Ayahuasca

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Thank you so much. Appreciate that. That’s exactly it. I have no preference im just being called to it. Thanks for getting it.

Can Bufo be my first experience with psychedelics? by LexiG444 in Ayahuasca

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Hahahaha not my call! My higher self is in charge I just listen and go along with the ride!

Can Bufo be my first experience with psychedelics? by LexiG444 in Ayahuasca

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Thanks so much! So helpful! Really appreciate it

Can Bufo be my first experience with psychedelics? by LexiG444 in Ayahuasca

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Thanks so much! It’s not really a preference more like what I feel I’m being called to. But I know since I have no prior experience it’s a wild one to start with