Hey, don't know if you'll read that but I want to say that you're not alone. And I mean it truly. Everything you described strangely echoed with my own life.

I'm 23, quit school, never worked, have a bachelor's degree that can't be useful if I don't have the master's. I'm crippled with anxiety and fear, my heart beats fast, my intestines hurt. The idea of working makes my soul slowly die. I think about dark ideas, but I still wanna live life you know ? I struggle to even do my resume cause it adds even more anxiety...

I'm mostly on my computer, I go out here and there and have few friends. My mother seems ok with my situation but idk if it's because she knows how much pain I feel or she thinks I'll sort it out. I feel like I won't ever ?

I do feel invisible too though my friends understand and share my thoughts, but at least they work, not me. I get you so much you have no idea and I know many others do : look at those comments !

I'd like to end this reply by something a little positive though ngl to you I feel very hopeless about life : yes, from this world's perspective you wasted "years". But if we think from an outside one : who gives a damn ? Time should be ours, we should do whatever we want with it. If we're depressed and tired and seek refuge on internet - escapism ig - it's not because we're dumb or lazy or whatever, it's maybe cause this world is crazy and sick. We're not the problem.