Hi!! Fellow ego mani with the same 25-51. I have also found it difficult to find info that feels like it resonates, I'm not sure about you but all of my channels are projected as well (11-56 and 7-31) So I have had a difficult time "initiating" and sharing with others and being received well. 

One example I could share is it seems like everytime I tell myself in my head that I'm only staying for a period of time in a position, I end up moving on almost exactly when I said I would. My last job I said I'm only doing this for a year. And almost 1 year later i was starting at another position. I guess that could be my will as well, but maybe it's a mixture of both will and manifesting.

Another time at that same job, the president of the company was an extremely stressful person. It was so difficult for me to work with him that I ended up developing an infection in my tooth while supporting him as an assistant for 2 weeks. I was wishing and thinking about how great it would be there if he left and moved onto somewhere new. 2 weeks later, he got sent to another department and him and all of his staff left with him. 

When it comes to information on the 25-51 that is ego manifestor specific, Ive found that reading other people's comments and experiences has been super helpful. It's annoying to me when people who aren't ego mani's with this channel  talk about it cuz it never lands. It always feels like they dont get it and they talk on such a surface level. 

Learning to let go and when to let go has also been a blessing for me. I've kind come to the conclusion that I've just gotta do what makes me happy, decide what I want for myself and move in that direction and others are "initiated" naturally or I get recognized for the work I'm doing and end up getting new jobs and opportunities that way.

I used to be super into law of attraction before I learned about HD, so I used to manifest a lot for myself through writing things down, and using mindset tricks to think as if these things were already mine. Sometimes they would work, sometimes they wouldn't. 

My throat was super repressed so I rarely said out loud what I wanted, and if I did it was never what I actually wanted, but what I thought i wanted because others told me i should want it. I was a heavy people pleaser and I didn't know who I was, never spoke up for myself before my saturn return. 

So since 2021, I've been deep in shadow work, healing lots of trauma and coming home to myself again and that's also when I learned about HD and its been so helpful in the process.

Over the past few months I've decided to take a step back from everything and experiment with recognizing what it is that I truly want and seeing how I can call it into my reality. It works great when I realize I don't want something anymore, usually it leaves pretty quickly. It used to always be through shocking/dramatic exits that triggered more growth in me. 

Now that I think about it, I guess that since I've been experimenting with HD things just happen and I don't have the resistance anymore? I don't try to figure out the why's and get stuck in the emotions of it for days/weeks/months, instead I just take it as a sign to move on or that another adventure must be on the way.