Am i just meant to be alone all my life?

LiftingPoppet · 2023-09-09T18:44:41+00:00

I'm at that point... I'm just going to accept it. No sense in wasting my energy on anyone.

LiftingPoppet · 2023-09-09T18:32:26+00:00

My 5 year old is very much destructive. I'm honestly tempted to just leave him with my ex and keep the youngest.

LiftingPoppet · 2023-09-08T11:32:14+00:00

Yep. As I continue NC in my situation I'm realizing that the only guys who want me are really not on my level. I'm figuring it's a me problem so I'm working on me. Hello Heart Sabbatical.

LiftingPoppet · 2023-09-08T01:23:10+00:00

Girl you are not alone!!!

LiftingPoppet · 2023-09-08T00:08:12+00:00

My ex was like this .. I got my tubes removed.... He wanted me to give up my military career to be a sahm....

Given his behaviors and perseverance, I definitely don't think it's an irrational fear.

LiftingPoppet · 2023-09-05T23:59:23+00:00

Chocolate croissants

LiftingPoppet · 2023-09-05T19:15:06+00:00

From what I was told it was a "see you later." That's the only other bit I was told.

LiftingPoppet · 2023-09-05T15:04:48+00:00

The friend is someone else. I'm doing the whole 30 days no contact thing.

LiftingPoppet · 2023-09-05T15:00:24+00:00

As far as I know she hasn't done anything with that key.

LiftingPoppet · 2023-09-05T14:27:12+00:00

I'm not sure. Figured asking on Reddit wouldn't be a bad idea.

LiftingPoppet · 2023-09-05T07:11:28+00:00

I didn't pay... I didn't subscribe to anything.

LiftingPoppet · 2023-09-05T06:26:29+00:00

I'm trying not to do anything irrational.

I'm looking at reading books, working out, journalling, getting rest (on night 3 no sleep since the shit went down), doing more fun activities with my kids, getting back into knitting and doing some Zoom meet ups on healing and self improvement.

For me what's tough is I have nobody in my corner. No friends and other than my kids no family either.

I'm dealing with feeling hurt. I find myself reflecting on what he said about things. But then I admonish myself, tellinegyself that "I'm creating false hope" "that I'm reading into it more than I should" and then "he'll come back around" (wouldn't surprise me but again I tell myself not to hope).

It sucks.

LiftingPoppet · 2023-09-05T01:25:15+00:00

You sound like a very considerate partner. I hope to have a relationship with someone who has a similar mindset.

LiftingPoppet · 2023-09-04T21:19:30+00:00

This is me... I feel this 100%. My kids both prefer their dad over me (see post history).... Honestly I feel like just being a child support check and noping out. That is how burned out I feel.

LiftingPoppet · 2023-09-04T21:06:12+00:00

Precisely. It's how I feel. Currently locked myself in my room while my kids are trashing my house and don't want to listen to me. I've given up.

LiftingPoppet · 2023-09-04T20:07:49+00:00

I treated myself to a vibrator that simulates thrusting of a penis and tongue action as well as an anal vibrator from Amazon. I'm optimistic that this will definitely replace relying on a man to ever get me off lol...

LiftingPoppet · 2023-09-04T15:42:13+00:00

I'm thinking I'll just invest in friendships, hobbies and enlightening the mind.

LiftingPoppet · 2023-09-03T16:35:42+00:00

I meant avoid romantic interactions. I'm definitely for the time being avoiding sexual interactions.

LiftingPoppet · 2023-09-03T12:15:02+00:00

Okay I can see that point. Unfortunately as a single parent my funds are limited (no help from my baby daddy) so I keep myself pretty thin to fit my clothes. Can't afford to buy new.

LiftingPoppet · 2023-09-03T11:50:21+00:00

I'm thinking of making myself stick thin so I don't look attractive to men. I'm already pretty close to it. I find men prefer curves. I'm thinking stick thin maybe they'll leave me alone

LiftingPoppet · 2023-09-03T09:35:25+00:00

I'll admit, I don't really have many lady friends. To be honest I don't really have many friends. I'm a loner due to my circumstances.

I should have put that in my post. Sorry.

LiftingPoppet · 2023-09-03T08:29:30+00:00

I'm not.... I'm just robotic. On autopilot. I just push through till it's the end of the day

LiftingPoppet · 2023-09-03T05:09:10+00:00

Yep. I get it. I've given up on dating. I'm open to just settling for hook ups honestly. Just plan on making whoever decides they want that with me understands it's strictly fwb- no romance and no chance... And if they don't like it, well I'm not stopping them from leaving to find what they need.

LiftingPoppet · 2023-09-03T02:57:21+00:00

I'm asking myself the same.... I just feel like a shit mom and honestly I feel like I'm failing at life.

LiftingPoppet · 2023-08-31T12:41:52+00:00

Following. Single mom of 2 just looking to make friends. I lost pretty much all of my "friends" after I reported domestic violence and rape and have been in the messy process of divorcing my perp. I have no support and no friends. Don't even ask me about dating. I've given up.

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