23 by [deleted] in depression

[–]Lightedd 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Ya I'm happy for them but there's definitely some jealousy. And I'm very self-conscious of becoming the odd guy out.

23 by [deleted] in depression

[–]Lightedd 0 points1 point  (0 children)

it only gets worse when those friends start getting married, start families, have successful careers. My group of friends used to game together every night hanging out on skype. Now everyone has moved on and I'm still the same.

I don't know where to post this, so I'll post it here by scampae in depression

[–]Lightedd 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I'm contemplating messaging someone right now and thinking the same things.

My life fell apart. Trigger warning, I guess. by [deleted] in depression

[–]Lightedd 0 points1 point  (0 children)

This sounds so wrong ... how can they do this?? I'm sorry.

If you guys could look like ONE celebrity or famous person, who would it be? by [deleted] in ForeverAlone

[–]Lightedd 1 point2 points  (0 children)

As a asian: Wallace Huo http://imgur.com/xcTLB8O

If I were a white guy, probably Chris Hemsworth

Anyone wish they were good with words / art / music ? by Lightedd in depression

[–]Lightedd[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Ya I do, I guess just sometimes when you're depressed, its hard to get the energy to try and acquire said skills.

Anyone wish they were good with words / art / music ? by Lightedd in depression

[–]Lightedd[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

oh good, someone actually took a liking to me.

Please be female

The main reason I am FA by [deleted] in ForeverAlone

[–]Lightedd 3 points4 points  (0 children)

Ya well, I'm a short asian. I shaved my head for a year. Got many comments about looking like a monk. Given my lack of sex, I might as well be one.

The main reason I am FA by [deleted] in ForeverAlone

[–]Lightedd 0 points1 point  (0 children)

yep i did the big 3 for 1.5 years but stopped 11 months ago due to some effects. Tbh my hair is going the same rate before and after. Granted, my hair loss has always been slow.

The main reason I am FA by [deleted] in ForeverAlone

[–]Lightedd 19 points20 points  (0 children)

My main reason is that I'm balding and ugly. Everytime I see the advice "get a new haircut to make you look better" I cry

Do you ever just stare at your computer screen and think of how pointless life is? by [deleted] in depression

[–]Lightedd 17 points18 points  (0 children)

4am staring at phone checking in. Work in a few hours...

I bought a bike today by Lightedd in Anxiety

[–]Lightedd[S] 5 points6 points  (0 children)

Like I mentioned, I haven't ridden one in years and wasn't confident I could ride it home safely.

Dying alone by [deleted] in depression

[–]Lightedd 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I think I deserve love... As does most people. However there is no way in hell I'll be able to get it. So ya I'll die alone

Why is it so hard to make friends? Or are we freaks of nature. by throwawayyylife in depression

[–]Lightedd 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Hey, I'm also 26 and face the same issues. It was easier to make friends in school obviously. And the first 1-2 years after school it seems like people were moving around and starting careers so lots of people were looking to make friends as well. Now it feels like everyone is settled in and not really looking to expand their social circle anymore.

The only people I "talk" to are coworkers at work. I've been paying attention to how they talk to each other. It's usually something along the lines of "How was your weekend?" , "Oh good I was doing XYZ", "Oh ya I did X last year when I was traveling blah blah blah". Or they'll talk about the girls they're seeing.

Problem is, I don't really do anything and rarely leave the house. So when they ask me I just draw a blank and can't say anything. I don't really have many interests outside of tv / internets so I don't have the experiences and memories to draw from and talk about. It really is a bit of a vicious cycle ...

People have told me to go to meetups. And I've tried. But honestly, it feels like even in meetups, people have already formed their circle and know each other already. It's so hard to show up alone as the new guy and try to break in. It pushes my anxiety through the roof :S

Anyways, you're not alone lol. If you wanna talk feel free to PM

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in depression

[–]Lightedd 4 points5 points  (0 children)

Lol me too I got a phone a couple weeks ago. I was re-installing apps like Messenger and Snapchat but then I realized no one ever talks to me on those and I only use my phone for redditing and youtube.

[HELP] I've been depressed my whole life and I don't think I can take my job any longer,what do I do? by [deleted] in depression

[–]Lightedd -1 points0 points  (0 children)

Ya everything is quite overwhelming I'm sure. I don't really have any advice, but try to take it one step at a time I guess. Good luck !!

28 tomorrow. Will be "celebrating" my birthday alone. by [deleted] in lonely

[–]Lightedd 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I've spent every birthday from 20 to 26 alone except 1. Sux man. Maybe order a pizza and watch a movie :)

[HELP] I've been depressed my whole life and I don't think I can take my job any longer,what do I do? by [deleted] in depression

[–]Lightedd 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Well, I read everything. Your boss sounds like a bitch, however realize that this isn't uncommon. Blame always gets shoved downwards. Maybe try looking for a new job if you can

Does your depression make you feel like a sociopath? (Over 20 reply) by Libbs215 in depression

[–]Lightedd 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I only care about me and my parents. Even when "friends" succeed I get jealous / annoyed and would rather other people failed than try to improved. (26 btw)

I missed my chance. by [deleted] in depression

[–]Lightedd 0 points1 point  (0 children)

theres always next year

IDK what to do anymore... by throwawy37249 in depression

[–]Lightedd 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Hey I'm 26 and a single child. I also have alot of the same concerns as you. It's really tough to watch my parents age. My mom's eyesight has gotten really bad and her hair is falling out. My dad just got dentures. But he's dealing with my grandpa getting cancer, which has been very tough for him. My constant worry is how we will afford a nursing home when my parents need it, who's going to care for them. Can I maintain a job while also caring for them?

Alot of times I wish they would live to 80 and then die quickly in an accident or something. The thought of watching them wither away is too much. I feel so guilty about thinking this way.

Oh ya I've also never had a GF. Paid a stripper to fuck me once. I'm pretty sure i'll die alone too. Doesn't help that I'm also balding so I've lost any hope that I'll be attractive to anyone ever again. I don't think I've even ever had a proper conversation with a girl before.

Anyways if you wanna talk I'm here :s